KIKTAPO RELATIVES☺️ This morning I awoke missing Oćeti Śakowin, in the most beautiful ways...not the way I use to, with heart ache and trauma filled tears...not today. My heart is filled with all the love and beauty of my precious memories, heart filled experiences with amazing siblings who lived that camp life and who feel it everyday...in our heart beats. Yesterday, I was blessed to attend inipi (sweat lodge ceremony), it was the first time I attended as a participant and wasn’t running the inipi since Standing Rock. When those first seven rocks came in, and the first dipper of water was poured, the door was shut and it went dark...all of a sudden a helicopter flew over and for a few moments, I forgot where I was. For those few moments my ptsd blessed me to be transported back to the sweatlodge at camp...I loved it. I didn’t want the ceremony to end❤️ There was so much beauty in the songs, the prayers and from the spirits. I learned so much yesterday and was humbled. It also felt so healing and so good to check back in at camp...so this morning, after dropping my girls off st school, I had to engage in this feeling and offer prayers for all my loved ones, chosen family, Water Protector siblings and support systems. I no longer ache for Oćeti Śakowin or the Two Spirit Nation Camp the way I use to...it still hurts to know our physical structures will never re-exists the way we co-exsisted as one Tiyośpiyé, but it no longer aches me in a trauma filled way, because I know we carry Oćeti Śakowin and the heart felt impact it made within all of us. We carry it inside of us because we received the medicine our ancestors called us there to receive...cherish it, respect it and offer it in all the ways you can for the Oyaté✨ Empower yourself, honor yourself, smudge yourself...it’s the best way to put on your spiritual armor to start a new day. When we crawled out of the sweatlodge yesterday, we decolonized what our resurrection looked like⚡️✊🏾❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 #KiktapoProtectors #OćetiŚakowinLivesInsideUs #TwoSpiritNation #MniWićoni #AguaEsVida #WaterIsLife #TurtleIslandHasNoBorders #NoOneIsIllegalOnStolenLands (at Portland, Oregon)
