Can’t be pregnant if I got my period this morning... 😭

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Can’t be pregnant if I got my period this morning... 😭
Let’s talk about symptom spotting..
How terrible is it that all the signs of early pregnancy can also be explained as signs of PMS? My poor google must be getting exhausted from constantly looking up “early pregnancy symptom... *insert symptom here*”. But really, does the body gotta trick us this way?
Cramping... pms, pregnancy, both.
Nausea.... both!
Strong sense of smell... both!!!
Vivid dreams... also both
Tender boobs... both
The list goes on! I guess it’s just safe to say we have to wait it out. I’m trying not to get too hopeful this month and insured am focusing on making healthy choices in my life to prepare my body for IUI treatment!
I cannot believe it's IUI week again!! My app tells me my predicted day is Friday and OvulationCalculator tells me the day is Saturday. If it is consistent with last cycle, it should be Friday, but we'll see! This Clomid has been nasty to my body this time around, I just hope it has been worth it. Friday will be IUI #4 for us (even though it's really #3 since the first ones timing was so off). I'm hoping we're getting to the point where we have the statistics working for us and not against us. It has been so helpful seeing all the comments from my past posts saying that it took many couples 3-6 IUIs before they had success. Although it sucks for our patients, it gives us hope that we will get our positive soon. We both hated the idea of a December baby because the poor kids birthday would be by Christmas but now we're starting to like the idea of it 😊. Looking back I can't believe we actually thought we'd take a break for a bit to avoid that! Ha! Like we'll stop trying until we see that positive!!! Getting hopeful again is scary, but we're both going to try to take a different approach this time and try to live life normally during the two week wait. We need to try in order to keep our sanity. . . . #iui #iuisuccess #iuijourney #ttc #ttcsisters #ttcsupport #ttcjourney #tww #twoweekwait #twomoms #twomomsquad #wives #lesbian #lgbt
And the 2 week wait begins! #20
Hilariously and on accident, we managed to catch ovulation this month if the Glow app predicted it right.
C and I went out for the weekend and camped with the stepsons. It’s a trip we do every year with friends I’ve had since grade school; camp at the coast, go crabbing, and spend days catching up on our over-filled lives around a fire. It’s awesome, and I feel rejuvenated in a way I didn’t know I needed. C and I got lots of quality time together, but no sex.
Camping sex is the best, but I was glad we brought the boys this time. They had a blast, and it meant we had to wait until we got home and the boys went back to their mother.
After it happened (thinking we’d missed ovulation and just enjoyed it 😈), I checked the app and lo and behold, O day! We were planning on taking a break and just not preventing anymore instead of temping, using OPKs, testing early etc.
I’m not even excited about TTC chances at the point, I’m excited because if it were to happen this month, C is more on board than ever! We’re both healthier, we have worked on stabilizing our debt and and after a camping trip? We relaxed! 😍
All ingredients for a wee babeh!
We used nothing but sex and prenatals this cycle. I also only track cervix position, cervical fluid and basic health things: sleep, hydration and symptoms if any.
O day (9/24) - BD💑
cramps
backache
hot flashes
mild headache
side soreness (breasts)
Little discharge in panties.
1dpo (9/25) - BD💑
vivid dreams about positive tests last night
Dull ache like cramping
backache
hot flashes (weird ones! Beading at my hairline and forehead, barely felt warm)
headache increased (needed medicine)
breasts are full; mildly sore when touched
2dpo (9/26)
woke up needing to pee (went to bed on empty bladder); had to pee again an hour later after no liquids
Backache 😵
Headache is still here and is annoyingly strong
Breasts are full/rounded; sore on sides.
Throbbing and twinges on left side of pelvis/abdomen(left ovary??)
feeling super wet down there
3dpo (9/27)
Headache seems to finally be wearing off, mild today
Backache (Strong! Hurts when leaning over 😵😵)
Sides and lower abdomen are really sore
Throbbing in lower back
Weird AF like stomach feeling..things...
Stronger breast pains; throbbing/shooting pains to nipples
Fatigued 😱
Still weirdly wet down there
4dpo (9/28) - BD💑
Emotional today
Runny nose Frequent urination Weird bubble cramps in stomach area Pelvic cramping Discharge in panties sides hurts Backache Acid reflux symptoms
Feel really good/better than I have in weeks and happy to tackle the day, even with uncomfortable issues.
5dpo (9/29)
Bloating
Hot flashes
Emotional...missed mother-in-law today
Weird insomnia that resulted in 9 hours of sleep. Oof. 😵
Sore breasts
Frequent urination
Weird dull cramping on left side of groin/pelvis
Mild backache
6dpo (9/30) 💑
Backache...all over this time
Stay tuned!
Woke up tasting pennies...still do
Back and side cramps
Shooting pains in breasts
Forgetfulness/clumsiness at work
Itchy skin
Hot flashes
Heaviness/let down feeling pelvis
AF like feelings...kept thinking it was here
😵
7dpo (10/1)
Frequent urination (woken up from sleep)
Slept until 11am
Mild metallic taste
LOTS of energy in afternoon! Felt better than I have in days!
Lower belly bloating (mild)
8dpo (10/2)
Woke up feeling sick... plugged/stuffy nose sinus pressure Headache Hips are sore Full/heavy breasts, pains still Stomach cramping & hurt upon waking Napped from 4:30pm to 6pm (had already slept 9 hours) Left side cramping/pulling Backache came back in afternoon All I want to do is go back to bed...
9dpo (10/3)
So uncomfortable when I sleep now!!
Weird insomnia/fatigue combo; energy doesn't seem to run out, yet during the day I'm excited for bedtime 😪
Breast soreness is really increasing!
Left side pain
Diarrhea twice 😵
Excessive thirst
Mild headache
FIRST TEST: BFN
Stay tuned!
When trying to conceive, everything going on in your body becomes so much clearer. Things you wouldnt pay attention to, you notice. Every cramp. Every twinge. You look for signs that this time. Maybe this time it'll work. Maybe you'll finally become a mom, maybe you could finally do something right. Maybe something good will finally come into your life and make it all better. These things make everything harder, it makes you go crazy. But thats the part of the wait. These next two weeks are going to be hard.
CD33 (yea, 33!) My temperature is still up. Have I done something right this cycle (i.e. Castor oil pack)? Has God answered my many prayers? I have never ever passed 11dpo ever. And this morning my temperature was still up, at 13dpo! No matter what happens, I'm glad that at least I got passed 11dpo. And, if this cycle ends up with AF, I'll use the castor oil pack again next cycle.
Thanksgiving.
I’m grateful for pretty much everything in my life, but if I’m being honest, it’s been difficult for me to be in the Thanksgiving spirit this year.
Infertility is such a lonely journey. Yes, I have a husband who loves me endlessly and wants this as bad as I do, but he also doesn’t get to live it the way I do. And maybe I actually resent him for that, just a little. It’s so frustrating to see literally everyone around you getting pregnant pretty much overnight, and then there’s me, trying for 2 solid years, with nothing. But I’m “healthy” and “normal.” It’s hard when you have no answers. It’s hard to not hate your body and think so negatively and get out of your head. It’s genuinely so hard.
But as I always do, I’m going to slap on a smile and continue about my life, because it’s what I do every day. I’ll go to work with a positive attitude. And tell everyone I’m okay, because at the end of the day, I am. I’m just “okay.” I’m not “great.” And I’ll continue to make jokes and finish all my tasks on time, and come home to my doggies and get all the snuggles. I’ll continue to pack myself lunch and take my prenatal vitamins because ya never know... I’ll push through. I always do.
I guess I’m most grateful for that. My resilience.
Round 4.
Today was the day! Brett’s sperm count was stellar again... All extremely high numbers, as usual. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
My procedure was shockingly comfortable this time around! I had no cramping, which is awesome. The doctor also said there was a “nice amount of mucus” (🤢) in my cervix so I’m probably ovulating, which is the first time we have heard them say something like that.
Hopefully Brett’s little army will flood my happy little (big) follicles and make some magic! 😂 Sorry, if I don’t joke about it, I’ll go crazy.