#undelivered

[joerdis-rosenpfeffer]

introverted perfectionist

I think about how to address you. I think about what sentence I start. Which should be my first words. I think about the best possibility. I think about how to dress me. Just to impress you the most. I think about for hours. I think about some days. I think of it for months. I think about several years. We'll see each other again. We're getting older. My chances are dwindling. It passes by. Life goes by. That was my love. Unlived. ~ by joerdis rosenpfeffer, 11/22/17 ~

[behindherwearyeyes]

To my dearest J,

I still think and miss you every passing hour. You are one of my life’s biggest regret. I regret not telling you how your smile instantly brightens up my day. I regret not making you feel the love you deserve. I regret not holding your hands when you most needed it. I regret not telling you how much I love your brown eyes under the sun, how they change colors; it’s magical, it takes me to another world. I regret saying ‘no’ when all that’s in me wanted to scream ‘yes’, I will never forget the face you made after hearing that word. I regret not holding on to you, I regret letting you go. I regret every single day of my life without you in it.

But if there’s one thing I don’t regret, it is knowing your soul and falling deep for it. You are one of the few regrets in my life that I’d gladly take over and over again. So, I owe the world the chance(s) it threw at us.

P.S. - I hope you find peace as I did. I hope you find the happiness you’re looking for. I hope we both learned our lesson and try our best to be someone better for someone different. I hope you don’t stop reaching for our stars, even alone, because I never doubted your potential – you can make a universe out of yourself. Be the kind of person I believed you would be when our eyes first met. Be the brightest star in all the galaxies.

Your fallen star, S.

(Yes, I actually did (a) poetry book(s) for / about him. Because when you love, you gotta do it with every part of your soul, and give it every beat of your heart.)

[undelivereddottxt]

If only I could say to you what I really wanted to say.

[merejaannimannn]

Today i was missing you, so i was trying to make a trick told by someone in a motivational speaking conference. he was saying if you want to hate someone, think about his worse! I then tried to perform that and at the end becoming a loser! I really didn't find nothing to hate about you. it seems like i have had an angel.. but for some reason not here anymore

[achelei]

I was replying in an old email trail which still has your name on it - and a few seconds later I receive this reminder that you no longer exists in J&J. It’s like no matter what I say, there’s no way it can ever reach you ever again. How excruciating.

[behindherwearyeyes]

J,

Hi?

I still remember our first “hi”, almost ten years ago. A lot has happened since then. Smiles were seen, laughs were heard, tears were shed and hearts broke. But if I would be given a chance to do it all over again, I would, gladly. For you were--

the lesson I must learn to know how to look at the mirror and love the person staring back,

the music I must dance to feel all the light and love I am capable of, just hiding inside me,

and the heartbreak I must feel to learn that true happiness is not measured by earthly things-- that it is more powerful and beyond that.

Remember that you will always have this special place in my heart. That no matter how long it was long ago, I would still smile everytime someone mentions your name.

With all the beats of my heart, I wish that you find true happiness like I do now. I hope that someday, when we cross paths, we’ll smile to one another, heart and soul.

S.

[mikeyllo]

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