i am broken into fractions.
The world outside the abyss is —— too bright. Scalding around the edges, blazing into the corners of eyes with a cheerful ferocity that he’s forgotten. The stars feel like pinpricks; the rustle of the trees and moonlight piercing through the canopy seems like spotlights.
He feels —— myopic. Blinking against the light, how everything seems to be moving quickly: too quickly. The painted over monstrousity sits there, one hand gripped tight upon the broad Chroma-scarred blade —— shoved into the earth, more support than threat — as though it’s the one thing holding him from falling into perdition.
—— broken. Into fractions.
Clea —— not his Clea, not the Clea he knew —— gave him some of the power of the Painters. The power to remove those from the Canvas. The power to fall Titans. The power to ——
Fractions. Break people into fractions. Break himself into ——
The sound he makes isn’t a human one, not truly. It’s a terrible thing, and he’s not sure if it comes from lungs or bone. But it’s a sound, an exhale, a gruff, a breath of a laugh? What’s laughter, lost to the abyss?
It’s not a cruel thing, and he’s aware enough to be frustrated that the mess of his mind makes it difficult to form response. Too many years buried, lost, broken. He moves: the lost arm on his left side drips chroma like molten gold, like Midas-touched gore. It’s a slight shift, a roll of weight; his regard of Gustave is hard to read with those dark, dark empty eyes.
" —— you. —— me. " A wrench of his mouth in frustration, scarred cracked features pulling; he breathes. Does he need to breathe? He doesn’t remember, but he does it anyway. His voice sounds like grinding stone. " Us both, I think. "