I don't know about any of you, but I'm an intense and deep spiritual being. My being is so deep and thoughtful that I'd have a really hard time telling you about just one single thing I believe in because I believe in everything. I feel everything. I thirst for knowledge, to understand. To the point where my own mind consumes me with what could be the answer, even though I've long realized the answer is infinite. If I could open the doors to my endless mind it'd be easier because once I've thought of one way to tell you something it changes into another. Endless door ways, deeper then submarines have gone.
I am this person. Ever changing. Evolving. It's like, growing up your entire life knowing something is different. Is it you? Or is it the feeling of new change around every corner. Is it realizing you're not the same as everybody else? Or that you are everybody else...... Every day feeling like you can't do this anymore because this isn't right.... This isn't where you belong. There's something and it's waiting. The years pass. You're still here & now it's changed again. You're supposed to be here. Because of the passion in which you feel this unknown presence that is you. Knowing your mind has expanded to such an open figure and that you have to do something with it. Somebody needs your mind. They sent you here, because you knew something they didn't. What is it? Am I here because they need me or am I here for expansion. Why do I always feel like something is coming. Forever chasing a safe place that isn't there so you find it. In you. Forever pulling at doors that were locked and suddenly, they're all open. You're coming. It's you, you're walking through endlessly open door. Did you follow the direction of God? Am I God? There's something bigger then me, but it's also me. I feel it's energy. I am its energy. I'm fueling it and it's fueling me. We're the same. With the infinite almost breath taking blanket of energy. I'm not outside of it, or experiencing it. I'm the entire blanket. There is no line of separation. Between me and the energy. We're one. God, is not more then me, he is me. Do you feel it? The feeling of realizing there's more then one of these energies. Is there not one single God? Am I a hypocrite to believe that my one & only father.....is not. In fact, it's no longer limited to an entity or an individual. It just. Is. It's many forces, deep and enchanting. Is magic real? Do you feel that? It's you.... It's fucking you! You're not receiving this feeling. You're projecting it. It's reflecting back onto you from something shining. It's so bright.... It illuminates you're entire being. It's you..... Wow. How large you have become as you cradel your self in the palm of your hand. The electricity of your palms vibrating through your finger tips as you love this tiny piece. Then it's gone. Suddenly you feel small again with this warmth wrapped around you telling your self it's just one God. The more you expand the less you know and it's an exhausting, enthrawling, growth chase. That Energy is in you. You hold your self and you hold everything else. What do you do with this magic? Do you feel that!? It's YOU. How fucking incredible this spiritual journey is.