#unlocking trauma

[prestigiouspea]

Man no one tells you that unlocking sexual trauma doesn't necessarily happen just by stretching or delving into thinking about the time period. More under the cut. ik this is sensitive for some ppl so TW for the slow unveiling of sexual trauma.. and also I'm gonna talk about jerking it so there's that too

I've been trying to focus on the physical sensations aspect of jerking it instead of just something I find attractive and yesterday I went absolutely ham and it was good(with the help of Dionysus) but then the image of my mom's ex who we lived with kept popping into my head and when I thought about it I felt .. not good. Idk why I didn't think that a god who rules over fertility and insanity among other things wouldn't involve unlocking sexual trauma but here we are.. also I'm doing yoga and my hips are super fucking tight so we know what that means(it means I have stored trauma there and I am in for a lot)