It’s Monday October 7, 2019, 6:19am. I just woke up screaming again with another dream about you. Like in all my other dreams, you were back! This time Mayi and I were taking you out to the Mall so we could celebrate your return! You were happy, or seemed to be, like you looked in this picture. I had my arm around you like always, looking forward to spendIng the day out with you having fun! We were all walking through the Mall entrance when you stopped and looked at me with sadness in your eyes. You said to me: “I don’t know why it has to be this way, I had to take five Clonazepam just to be able to get out of the house..” I looked at you and said: “I know baby, but you’re going to be ok!” Then I took you in my arms and hugging you I said: “Please, don’t leave me...” With that I woke up sobbing out a loud scream and I couldn’t stop, not for a few minutes after waking up. Today you would’ve turned 37. I know you would have been complaining about being just three years away from turning 40! I miss your wit, I miss your laugh, I miss your smile! I miss you when I’m lonely.. I know I will see you again some day, I know it in my heart. Until then my heart will be broken and bleeding, just like today❣️. I will always love you Ama! 💔😞 #iLoveYouAma #iMissUama #MyHeartIsBroken #UntiliSeeUagain #HappyBirthday #MyBaby #MyDuedo #10071982 #iDreamAboutYou #iSeeYouInMyDreams #SuicidePrevention #SuicideLoss #SurvivorsOfSuicide #SuicideAwareness #TellThemThatYouLoveThem #TellThemThatYouNeedThem https://www.instagram.com/p/B3UMn7Fgom7/?igshid=7sztptxwoy54