|| Warnings; reader's upset, reasoning is altered for whatever you want, Sevika averting reader's touch which leads to her being upset, reader cries, Sevika tries to comfort, little dialogue, brief swearing, mentions of vulnerability
|| Summary; when avoiding another hug attempt from reader, Sevika doesn't realize what happens next before it's too late.
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Started; December 11th
Finished; December 11th
HurtCember2024; Day 10, Touch Aversion
Author Note; running a little behind on all my fics, this challenge, my series stuff and requests. hoping to at least get my request stuff done before christmas. thank you for being patient :)
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Dating someone who always tried to be tough wasn't easy. Sevika was exactly that type of person. She wasn't one to show vulnerability often. To her, letting someone touch her was showing vulnerability. She didn't like it. In fact, at the start of your relationship with her you couldn't count the amount of times she completely averted your touch. Making the extra effort to dodge your attempts.
It only stopped when she realized how upset she was making you. You'd been having a rough day and went to her, seeking a hug. You'd snuck up behind Sevika when she was focused on her work. The hug caught her off guard and she moved you off her. Your lip trembled and the waterworks couldn't be stopped. Normally it wasn't something that made you cry, but you were already having a rough day as it was. That was your finale straw. Sevika didn't notice right away that you were crying. Until she heard your little sniffles. When she noticed she felt bad.
Really bad. Sevika turned to you with a frown. There was hesitation in her eyes for a moment before her hand cupped your cheek. Bringing you in close. She didn't know what else to do. She wasn't... well, she'd never done this before. She wasn't even sure she was doing it right. But then you hugged her. Tight, too. Damn you really had a strong grip. The doubt if she was doing this right faded into the background. Being replaced with thoughts of making you feel safe. Wondering who/what caused this. Obviously Sevika knew that she had been your finale straw, but she wondered what could have happened before that. You were tough.
One of the toughest people Sevika knew. But, you did have a softer side to you. You could balance the two in ways she never could. That was one of the many things she admired about you. You were never afraid to show vulnerability, unlike herself. Right now, Sevika was kind of just copying what she had seen you do for other people. Giving hugs. She added in an awkward head pat that you snuggled right into. Cherishing her touch. After all, it wasn't often you got it. So you soaked up the moment.
There was a long silence while Sevika waited for you to settle. Knowing it would be useless talking to you when you were crying. She wouldn't have been able to understand you through your sobs.
"What happened?" Sevika asked once she was sure you had calmed down. At least enough to talk. You explained your entire day to her. Sevika listened to every word. Frowning the more she listened. You'd really been sent through the ringer today, hadn't you?
Sevika kept you in her arms. Feeling no rush to move away from you. Like she normally would have. She... honestly, it felt kind of nice. Would she ever tell you that? Fuck no. But she did like it. And in that moment, she realized she really did really love you.
If it had been someone that hurt you, Sevika would make sure to make them regret it. And if it had just been a bunch of stuff that overwhelmed you, if it wasn't already done she'll take care of it for you. But she would hold off on that until later. Right now, you were her focus.
Summary: You recently got hired at a video rental store near you. But the only reason why you work there was to see your girlfriend Robin Buckley. One day a girl Robin knew came in and asked if she would come to a party with her, your blood turned boiling hot and it did not end pretty.
Authors note: I will be making a part two and maybe a part three but part two just might be the ending. Just depends what I’m feeling haha. But heads up, my requests and inbox are open. If you want me to write out anything for you, don’t miss your chance.
Part two|
It was another afternoon Saturday, the sun was shining and the birds were chirping. What a lovely day you thought. You were behind the cashier and had your hands on your face, staring at your beautiful girlfriend,Robin Buckley.She was putting up movies on the romance aisle.Your heart skips a beat every time someone says her name,” she’s all mine” you thought. All yours.
. . .
The door was swung open and the bell went ringing with it. The first thing you saw was the red head that Robin was talking about after you guys started dating. Vickie. You never liked her, she would always look at you whenever you were with and without Robin. She never acted this way towards you before you guys started dating.
You swallowed a lump that was formed in your throat,” hi there, how may I help you?” You said to her with a weak smile. Vickie scoffed and looked around, it was like she was trying to find somebody. You sighed and went to the back room that said “EMPLOYEES ONLY”. You knocked on the door with your knuckles and said “Steve, we have a visitor.”
“Huh? We always have visitors that come in and come out, what’s different about this one?” He said while unlocking the door to see you. “It was a code: Vickie.” You said with a blank face, seriously what was he doing in the employee room everyday? “Ahh, yeah give me a second” he said while locking the room and putting the keys inside his pockets.
While you guys both made your way there, you saw Vickie and Robin giggling and laughing. Your heart shattered. This was the girl that Robin absolutely adored before you guys actually became a thing. “Hey ladies, how you doing Vickie.” He said while standing there with criss-crossed arms,leaning on the shelves with the latest movies.
He always got upset if they got dirty but he was leaning on them. Seriously, you could never figure Harrington out. “Oh nothing much” Vickie said while looking up at Steve then at Robin. They both start giggling again. Steve shot a glance at you and made a face that said “you wanna take care of this?” And all you did was nod and look at them both. Ready to say something, until Robin spoke.
“Hey guys, the new movies should be at the back room. You guys wanna grab them or do you need help? I shouldn’t be the only one doing the work.” Robin said while getting up and patting her pants down. “I’ll put them on the shelves on Monday, me and Steve can do it.” You said with a snap. Vickie also got up and looked at Robin.
“Hey Rob, don’t forget to come tonight.” Vickie said while smiling and looking inside robins eyes. “Yeah yeah definitely” Robin said,giving her a smile. Steve had enough with this and went back to the back room again, all that was left was you. Vickie gave her a huge hug, her arms were placed around Robin’s neck which soon caught her off guard,and she had her head on her shoulders.
She glared at you and smirked. Robins back was facing you so she didn’t have a clue what was going on. Vickie then detached herself from her and winked,”see you there rob”. The door swung open again and the bell was the only thing you could hear,until Robin broke the silence.
“Can you believe it (y/n)? She gave us an invitation to her birthday party tonight! She’s so nice!” She said while holding an envelope on the other hand. “Yeah that’s cool, I don’t think I’ll be going though so.” You said, while Robin heard what you said, her face turned upside down. Making a frown.
“How come? Do you have plans tomorrow?” Robin asked you.” Well no but I just don’t wanna see Vickie at the moment.” You said while you shrug your shoulders, not making eye contact with Robin at all. “What? You don’t wanna go because Vickie’s there? Come on don’t be childish. It’s her birthday, of course she’s going to be there” Robin said with an upset tone,half jokingly.
“Childish? I’m not being childish right now Robin. I’m being serious, that girl hate my guts. And if I change my mind I’ll go, it’s just that I can’t really think at the moment.” You said while glaring at her blue eyes. “You’re being ridiculous, what has she ever done to you?” She snapped back.
You never saw this side of Robin, she’s all defensive for this one girl that she took band class with. “I’m not being ridiculous Robin, she gives me some cold glares whenever I walk with you to your classes. She even hugged you and put her hands around you, it looked like you guys were a couple.” You said, almost cracking. You were shocked that Robin would say this to you, you thought she would understand.
“You know what, if you’re not gonna come,then so be it (y/n).” Robin turned around and left the store. How could she just leave you like that? Over some stupid party. Steve came to comfort you, it seems like he was behind the cash register all along. Just listening. You stepped back and hit the shelves and dragged yourself down to form into a ball.
Steve slowly approaches you and sits right beside you. “Don’t worry (y/n), cry as much as you want. I closed the store earlier so. It’s gonna be okay, she didn’t mean what she said.” He said while he pats your back. “Yeah,maybe she didn’t mean any of it.” You sniffed.
“Let’s go to that stupid party and show that Vickie girl whose Robin’s girlfriend.” Steve said with a smile on his face looking at you. Surprisingly that made you smile too.
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After picking out a dress which took forever. You quickly did your makeup and put on the dress. You didn’t go too overboard because it was a party but you didn’t go underdress because it was Vickie’s birthday party. Just wanted to show who Robin’s girlfriend is and who she chose who over the other.
You got outside and saw Steve in a outfit that matches yours. He opened the door for you to get inside his car. You sat on the passenger seat and Steve closes the door and makes his way and sits on the drivers seat. “You ready?” He said while turning on the car.
“Ready as I’ll ever be” you said with a smile. You took a couple of deep breaths and Steve then drove his way to Vickie’s.
. . .
As soon as you made it there, cars were filled in front of Vickie’s house. You could see a disco ball inside and the colors just beaming out. As soon as you and Steve opened the door, all you could see was Vickie and some of her friends standing on the table,flicking their hair and having a single red cup on their hand. It reeked with the smell of alcohol. But you saw another dirty blonde girl, against the wall and drinking. It was Robin. She shot a look at you and just looked surprised.
She made her way towards you with all this people while Steve closed the door behind him and stayed close to you. As soon as Robin made it,she yelled “you look beautiful (y/n)!!” She said with a smile curling on her face. You could barely hear her with the music that was playing behind the background. You were about to say thank you before Vickie stands beside Robin. She gives you another cold glare,only for a split second. “Hii rob, whatchu doing here all alone? You should dance with me.” She said while looking inside robins eyes.
“You wanna dance with me?” Robin said with a confused look. You could always read Robin and what her expressions were, she seems confused but you feel like there’s something else. “Well yeah, only if you want to that is” she said,with an innocent smile. Oh cut the crap already, you could see right through her. She was only messing with robins feelings and you and Steve knew that.
You and Steve both exchanged a look and stared at Vickie. “You know it’s not nice to stare at people (y/n)!” Robin said while Vickie is all against her. You don’t know if she was still sober or drunk. But, she’s still defending her, even if if she’s drunk or not. Which upsets you to your core.It was coming out of your own girlfriends mouth, felt like a stab in your chest. Vickie grabbed robins arm and made their way dancing underneath the disco ball.
The room started to get darker for you, the more you stared at them. The more you felt overwhelmed and almost, alone. Of course you had Steve with you, that makes things a little better but it hurts so much. How could she do this to you, over some stupid damn party. Emotions overflow inside you and you start to ball your fist, shit. Why me? Of all people,why me? What did I do to deserve this kind of treatment?
“Hey everything’s gonna be alright, I swear it. Hey- I’ll even shower you with kisses and cuddles but x10 better- or is that possible?- well anyways- what I wanted to say was, you’re in my arms (y/n). I’m not going anywhere. I love you.” It was Robin, it was a flashback of Robin. All the memories you could’ve thought about and you chose that,in this moment?
AN: Guess what ya’ll, it’s the last chapter of Craving you. I am so sad this is the end, but it was a great story and I’m so glad you all stuck around to see it through. I was thinking of some drabbles to go with it, like the in betweens and the down times they had. So if you like to see that, comment below and let me know what you’d to see. Also, I want to say a HUGE thank you to everyone who had help me beta this story over the period of time. without them I couldnt have done it without them. You are amazing and talented writers yourself and i am thankful I have came across you. @secretlyfurrydragon Thank you so much for helping me with this and to complete it, you have been an amazing friend and I appreciate your help even when your sick. Keep in mind this is an AU meaning nothing related to the real Supernatural, Please don’t copy and use on other sites and claim them as yours. It’s not right. A huge thank you to the followers who have loved this story as well. I love each and everyone one of you. Let me know what you would like to see next.. Love ya’ll
Pairing: Jensen and Reader, Misha Collins (mentioned) Jo OFC, Adam (OFM) Mentioned.
Warnings, Medical stuff I have no clue on but I hope it works. Yelling and angst, upset jensen, upset reader, upset Jo, sad writer because i’m sad its the end.
Jensen’s POV
I sat in the back of the ambulance with her on the way to the hospital holding her hand, begging her to fight. The EMT which I found out later was named Adam, told me to keep talking to her, let her know I was there and that she was out of danger. I’m not sure if it was the sound of my voice or what happened, but they had to pull over to do CPR on her. She almost gave up on me twice. My heart pounded in my ears both times, I had to take several deep breaths before my heart settled, I can’t lose her not now. I know she’s going to be very pissed because I lied to her about my life and who I was, there was no telling what was going through her head when Mark had the nerve to tell her about who I was. I just sat there and prayed to God that she would forgive me.
Arriving at the hospital, they rushed her immediately into surgery, I tried to go in there as well, but they wouldn’t let me. A nurse about 20 years old I’m guessing, could be older I don’t my brain is not exactly coherent right now. Anyway, she led me to a room and handed me a pair of scrubs to change into. I’m sure I looked horrifying from all her blood and my jeans were covered in it from the knees down. I really didn’t care, but I guess they figured it would be better than having me walk around looking like I was injured. I changed into the much welcome and clean scrubs and then made my way to the waiting room where everyone else was. I couldn’t stop thinking about how she looked lying on the ground covered in her blood. It send a shiver of horror down my spine to think she was in surgery now because I screwed up.
Jared comes over to me, taps my shoulder. “She’s a fighter Jay, she will be ok.”
I had my head down, I didn’t want to look at anyone or speak to anyone, or have them see me and pity me. I did this to her, I got her involved in this, it’s my fault she’s in there fighting for her life right now if she so still chooses to do so. I looked up at him, my face showing the pain and hurt I was feeling. “I hope so Jared, I can’t live without her. It’s my fault she’s hurt, I did this to her.” My voice was kind of raspy and sore, I didn’t care though.
“You did not do this to her Jay, you didn’t have the gun that shot her. You didn’t know she was going to work out a plan with Kali, I mean Kali of all people should have known not to even involve a civilian, but on the other hand, I’m sure Y/N would have done anything anyway to help free everyone. I’m just sorry she got caught in the crossfire.”
I walked over to the window, crossed my arms and looked out. I didn’t really want to speak to anyone, I was so angry with myself for this whole thing. I just wanted her back in my arms happy and smiling as if nothing in the world mattered. I bit my bottom lip and looked at Jared. “I should have protected her better, this is on me. I did this to her. She could die because of me, or she may want give up because now she knows the truth. She may even leave me because she hates it when people lie to her, and she has told me many times before. And what did I do? I lied to her about who I was and what I did.”
“You had to Jensen, it isn’t a question of morality or honestly. You had a job to do, you didn’t expect to fall in love with her, we never do in cases like this. Your heart is hurting right now and rightfully so, but you will see that it will be ok. She will be upset, yes. But she will eventually get over it, because you not only been there for her, you saved the company.”
I rolled my eyes, “Jared it cost me the one thing I care about in the process. She’ll never trust me again, hell I’ll be lucky if she even speaks to me when she wakes up. No telling what Jo is going to do to me when she gets here.”
“Jo? What would Jo have anything to do with this?” He looked confused.
“She’s her best friend, Jeff’s wife is her fucking best friend and she’s going to be pissed because I hurt her, she was part of this to. She knew this would eventually happen word getting out about my job, she told me that I hurt her, she’ll kill me.”
“That doesn’t matter Jay, she was in on this from the beginning she could have at least told her everything as well. She can’t blame you for this, I won't let her. Just calm down, it’ll be ok.”
“Yeah if you say so,” I looked up seeing a doctor come in the room cover in blood. My heart dropped seeing his face. “How’s Y/N?” Was my first question, not even if he was there for us.
He took a deep breath, “She’s in surgery, the bullet is lodged in her shoulder, we have a team that is assisting on the surgery, if any of you can donate blood to help what she lost, it would be a great help. The next 48 hours are very critical for her due to her condition. If you know any of her family that need to be called in, please get them here as soon as possible.”
He went on explaining in detail what had happened, but in my mind I heard nothing. It was blank especially when he said said next 48 hours. I think my heart stopped, I felt like I wanted to pass out. If it wasn’t for Jared behind me, I probably would have.
“Yes we will donate blood, where do we go?” I heard Jeff ask him.
“Follow me, and I’ll get you set up with some lab techs who will assist you.” He looked at me, “Are you her husband?”
I look at him flabbergasted because I was still in shock, “Uh, n... no boyfriend.”
He nodded, smiled and left to show us where to go so we can donate blood. I felt myself walking, but honestly I don’t know how. My body was there, but I was numb to everything around me. I didn't even feel the needle go in my arm, nor did I feel the band tighten my upper bicep. That’s how numb I was, completely numb. Y/N, has to be ok, she has to be.
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Reader’s POV,
I am not sure what happened, or where I was. My body felt like it was floating on clouds and I couldn’t move. I tried to even moisten my lips, but my throat felt like it had a thousand cotton swabs in it. I heard loud beeping noises above and over me, it made my head pound. That’s when I tried to lift my left arm to pinch the bridge of my nose to stop the pain, but I couldn’t move it. “H-help?” I managed to speak above a whisper hoping someone was there with me.
I heard rustling, like someone was trying to get out of blankets or something like that. “Y/N? Y/N? Baby, can you hear me?” His voice was soothing, angelic even, but I couldn’t recognize it right away. Why was he calling me baby?
I felt a dip on the right side of me, I’m guessing he was sitting next to me. He placed his left hand on my cheek, it was nice and warm. I was able to open my eyes, when I did I saw the most beautiful green eyes I ever seen in my life. I had to blink a couple of times though. “Hi, do I know you?” As looked at him in confusion. I didn’t mean to sound hurtful in any way because after I said that I saw his face drop.
He cleared his throat and removed his hand immediately, “You do, I’m your boyfriend, Jensen,” he whispered softly like it was hard to say.
Oh thank god, I said to myself. He’s one hell of a good looking man, thank you god for at least having something go right in my life.
He continued to tell me what happened. “You had a hard fall, so you may have a concussion. Do you remember anything?” His eyes were full of worry and red from lack of sleep, you can tell he hadn’t slept in days.
“I don’t remember much, my head is pounding like conga drums going wild on spring break,” I tried to smile but that didn’t help the pain.
The door to my room opened and a sort of familiar face stood there with coffee in both hands, I assume one for her and one for Jensen. “Y/N!” she hurriedly put the coffee’s down on the side table and gently hugged me. “Oh my god your awake! I have never been so scared in my life. Why didn’t you tell me she was awake?” she backhanded Jensen in the chest and looked back at me.
“She just woke up Jo, literally like three minutes ago,” he sounded upset about something I thought it might have been the hit, course I don’t blame him, I would to.
“You look incredible for someone whose been asleep for five days. How do you feel?” She kept asking questions after questions and wouldn't really give me a chance to open my mouth.
She kind of reminded me of a 4 year old who kept asking the why questions over and over. “I’m sorry, who are you and why did you hit Jensen like that?”
I saw her face go from excited to worry in almost 2.2 seconds as she looked back and forth from me to Jensen. “What? Is she serious? She seriously doesn't know who I am? Really Y/N? We have been through a bunch of crap together growing up and you don’t know who I am?” she turned to look at Jensen. “Is she for real?”
He nodded his head, “She doesn't remember me either, I had to tell her my name. She may have a concussion, I paged for the doctor to come in.”
And right on cue doctor comes in with such blue eyes they looked like the sky. “Hi, I’m happy to see you awake. I’m Dr. Collins. How are you feeling?”
“Ok, I guess. My head is pounding and I can’t move my left arm, and I really don’t know who they are,” as she points to Jensen and Jo, “but he is cute,” I looked at the green eyed man.
“I see, I will order a CT scan and see what’s going on. I was told you had hit your head on a concrete floor, so if that’s the case then it could be a concussion but we need to be sure it nothing else going on. How’s the pain, do you need anything to help with that?” he looked my eyes with a pen light.
“No, I’m ok for now. If I don’t make any sudden movements I’ll be ok,” I swallowed as my stomach made a loud rumbling noise and they all laughed.
“I’ll see about getting you something to eat, what do you think you could handle?”
I sighed, “Broccoli cheese soup?”
I saw the lady I came to know as Jo swell up with tears, I dunno why she would it’s just my favorite soup. “Ok, I’ll order you some,” he turned to look at them both and told them to step outside.
They left and I was in the room by myself, it felt weird like I was by myself and no one was going to be in here again. Did I say anything wrong? Do anything wrong? Why did they leave me? Tears swell up in my eyes, will I ever see the green eyed man again? I shook my head and it hurt as I cleared my thoughts.
They came back in and Jensen sat by my bed, he held my hand and looked at me. “Don’t worry Y/N everything will be ok, you may not know what happened or how you ended up here, but I’ll be with you every step of the way.”
Jo slapped his shoulder, she has a habit of doing that, I’m going to have to remind her to stop. “Like hell you will Jay, your the reason she’s in here. Don’t go acting all protective now, you know exactly what brought this on.”
He stood up to look at her and face her. ‘We both did this to her, not just me. You were in on this as well. So if you want to act all high and mighty about it, lay it on the line now. Tell her exactly what you said to me four months ago when you came to me, begging me to help. You want to really discuss this now?”
I looked at her not sure if I should say anything, just as I was about to, “Your such a fucking asshole, Jensen,” she rolled her eyes and left the room nearly knocking into the nurse bringing me my soup. Remind me when this is over or I get my memory back, to find out exactly what she told him. This is going to be very interesting.
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Four days later after I woke up, I was released. Thankfully, because hospitals suck and the beds are not comfortable. I eventually remembered everything and Dr. Collins said it was a delay in reactions to waking up after being out for nearly a week. My brain had to recover and remember slowly, it was a delay reaction to everything that happen. Hey, even brains need a day off who knew. I did have a slight concussion though but nothing too bad to keep me there any longer than I needed to be. I was furious when I remembered everything and I can’t wait to have a discussion with both Jensen and Jo and there involvement to this. But for now, I just want some time alone and think on what I’m going to say to them both.
“Are you sure your going to be ok? I can stay here you know?” Jo spoke after helping me inside.
I turned to look at her, “I’ll be fine, I am so upset with you both right now that I need to have a few days to calm down before I say something that I’ll regret. So both of you just leave me alone. I’m fine,” I said yelling at them. I looked at both her and Jensen sternly letting them know to leave now before the yelling continued.
Jo looked at me, “I’m not leaving you Y/N. You just got out of the hospital after being shot, and nearly died on us, you can’t stay in this apartment by yourself for who knows how long,” she stood there with her arms crossed.
I closed my eyes with a sigh, “I can clearly see you are not going to give me the peace and quiet I need, so, you want to talk, we’ll talk.” I sat down as they followed, I saw that Jensen was going to give me the time I needed. “Jensen can you please get me a bottle water out of the fridge?” I sat down in my most comfortable seat, it was old but it was what I needed.
Jensen went to grab a cold water from the fridge and came back and sat down on the couch next Jo. I looked at them both and held the water a moment. My left hand was still in a sling tied to my waist kind of like when you dislocate your shoulder. I can take it off if need be, in fact they told me to but I needed to relax it a bit. I looked at both Jo and Jensen, who were anxiously waiting to hear what I had to say..
“First off, I am so mad at you both. I can’t believe you both lied to me, you of all people know that I can’t stand people who lie to me. But yet you did, you told him to get close to me, to use me, to fall in love with me, to help save the company. You saw how close I was becoming to Jensen, yet you let it continue. You and Jeff, Jeff of all people. I’m pissed very pissed at you Jo, I’m hurt, it killed me when I remembered everything I wish to god I could forget, and you.”
I looked over at Jensen who had his head down as he couldn’t look at me after what he did. When I spoke directly at him he pulls his head up with tears in his eyes. He knew what was going to happen he just needed to hear the words. “I fell hard for you, here I thought wow this good looking handsome man is actually fallen in love with me. Me! I am a total no body, but yet I got lucky to be in the presence of you, I thought man I finally get to be with someone who loves me wholeheartedly and actually cared about me.” I had to stop a moment because tears were appearing in my eyes and my voice tremble with sob.
Jensen begged me to listen to him, “I’m sorry I love you,” but I stopped him as I wasn’t finished and I didn’t need to hear him tell me that I was so angry with them both I was barely holding myself together. My anger was the only think for keeping from collapsing in a heap and crying my heart out. It was broken shattered into pieces which I don’t think it can ever be fixed. How could they do this to me, me of all people they hurt me and the pain was unbearable but I had to finish what I had to say as I knew I wouldn’t last much longer.
”I can’t trust either you, both of you know the life I had. I knew it was too good to be true the day you walked into starbucks, had I known it was a set up I would never have spoken to you, god I’m so stupid, I am such a failure I didn’t even see it.” I saw him about to say something and I held my hand up to stop him. “Don’t…don’t sit there and think you can save us, in fact, I want both of you are out of my life. I’m hurting and I need time to deal with this, and then I’ll consider how things are after that. But until then, don’t call me, don’t text me, don’t even bother to come to my house and ask me how I’m doing. What I want right now, for the both of you to leave, and you can tell Jeff, I don’t appreciate his part in this either. I am leaving Vancouver, and no one will know where I am. So just forget I ever existed and leave.”
I stood up and went to my room hoping they got the hint to leave me alone. I can’t believe my best friend did this to me, she knew my life and now I can’t trust her, I have no one, this secret I have will now have to remain a secret. I was so happy to find out about it, but now I can’t even look at them in the face and feel that again. I can’t. I just won't let them know my secret, God help me, I need you so much right now. As I curl up on my bed and cry like there’s no tomorrow. I guess for me I have no tomorrow for the time been until I forgive them if I can?
Revised Edition for 2025
Chapter 23: Shattered Truths and Quiet Tomorrows
Jensen’s POV
I sat in the back of the ambulance holding her cold hand, trying to speak through a voice full of fear and guilt. The EMT, Adam, told me to keep talking. He said she needed to hear me, needed to know she wasn’t alone. But nothing I said stopped her vitals from crashing twice. Each time they pulled over to resuscitate her, it felt like my soul was leaving my body. I begged God—out loud, desperate. I’d never begged harder for anything in my life.
When we got to the hospital, they rushed her in. I couldn’t follow. A nurse handed me scrubs to change into because her blood soaked everything I wore. I went through the motions, numb. As I joined the others in the waiting room, Jared met me with a soft pat on the shoulder, trying to hold me together. But I didn’t want comfort. I wanted her awake. Safe. Smiling. Laughing.
When the surgeon came out, his coat splattered with blood, my heart stopped. The bullet had lodged in her shoulder, but she’d lost a lot of blood. He told us the next 48 hours were critical. I volunteered to donate immediately. I didn’t even feel the needle.
Reader’s POV
Waking up felt like rising through molasses. Everything was heavy, muffled. My throat was on fire, my head pounded, and I couldn’t move my arm. When I opened my eyes, the world was blurry until I saw him. Green eyes. Deep with grief and love.
“Hi... do I know you?” I asked, my voice barely above a whisper.
I watched as his soul cracked in front of me. “You do... I’m your boyfriend. Jensen.”
The name meant nothing at first. But the way he looked at me—like I was his whole universe—planted a seed of familiarity. I couldn’t recall the past, but something in me trusted him.
Then Jo walked in. Overflowing energy, arms full of coffee, tears instantly forming in her eyes. I didn’t remember her either.
When they left to let the doctor run tests, I was left alone. The quiet was suffocating. I didn’t know who I was angry at—them for lying, or myself for not remembering the truth.
Four days later, I was discharged. Slowly, memories flooded back. Flashbacks. The cement floor. Blood. Screams. And betrayal. The day they came to my apartment, I was already boiling inside. The pain had crystallized into white-hot rage.
I made them sit.
I confronted them.
Every word I spoke was edged in pain. “You lied. You played me. Both of you.”
Jo looked away, ashamed. Jensen stared at the floor like it might open up and swallow him whole.
“You let me believe you loved me—when you were just playing a part. And Jo, you knew! You let him walk into my life with a lie and didn’t stop it. You two destroyed the one good thing I thought I had.”
Jensen opened his mouth to speak, to plead, to explain—but I stopped him.
“Save it. Whatever this was... it’s over.”
I told them to leave. I made them promise not to call. Not to text. To disappear. Jo tried to argue. Jensen didn’t. He knew. The look in his eyes was pure heartbreak. But he left.
And I broke.
Curled on my bed, I sobbed harder than I ever had in my life. Because I loved him. God help me, I loved him so much. And maybe I still did. But for now, I needed space. Time. Healing.
The secrets I still carried—the ones no one knew—would stay buried. I wasn’t ready to share them. Not with people who had already broken me.
And yet... somewhere deep in my soul, I wondered: could love survive a lie this big?
I didn’t know.
But one day, I would find out.
Revised Edition for 2025
Epilogue
Y/N Pov
“Letters from the Edge”
— Six Months Later —
The rain fell softly on the streets of Edinburgh, a gentle mist that clung to the stone and wrapped the city in a timeless hush. Y/N stood at the edge of Princes Street Gardens, her long coat tied at the waist, a knitted scarf tucked beneath her collar. The weight of the past six months still clung to her, but here—half a world away from Vancouver—it finally felt like she could breathe again.
A leather-bound notebook was clutched to her chest, worn and creased at the edges. Pages filled with tears, therapy breakthroughs, quiet revelations, and questions she’d never dared to ask anyone but herself. Her hair danced in the wind, and her eyes, though tired, held a steadier kind of light. Healing had taken time—grief had taken more.
She hadn’t spoken to Jo since the day she walked out. Nor to Jensen.
Not until last week.
A package had arrived—unmarked, wrapped in brown paper and sealed with a single black ribbon. Inside was a small flash drive and a note, handwritten in Jensen’s familiar scrawl:
“No begging. No apologies. Just my truth. If you ever want to understand why I lied—why I stayed—I’m here. If not, I’ll disappear. But you deserve to know everything.”
Love, always — J.
She hadn’t plugged it in right away. It took her five days. But when she did, it opened to a single video file titled simply: "For You."
In it, Jensen sat in what looked like his Texas cabin. No dramatic lighting, no rehearsed lines—just him. Raw. Honest. His voice cracked as he spoke, tears in his eyes more than once. He told her the full truth—about the case, his orders, the timeline, how he never expected her, and how everything shifted the day she walked into that Starbucks with that camera bag slung across her shoulder and a latte in her hand.
"You saved me before I ever tried to save you," he had whispered at the end.
She watched it twice. Then again. And again.
Y/N wasn’t sure when the tears started—but they didn’t stop for hours. He hadn’t asked for forgiveness. He hadn’t made excuses. He just told the truth.
Now here she stood, six months and four thousand miles away from where it all began, holding the letter she had just finished writing. No address. No name. Just three words on the envelope:
“Come find me.”
Because maybe… just maybe, forgiveness wasn’t about forgetting.
Maybe it was about seeing the truth—shattered, scarred, but still beating—and choosing to believe in it anyway.
She turned toward the post box. Her fingers trembled as she slid the letter in. And for the first time in a long time…
She smiled.
Epilogue – Jensen’s POV
Back in Austin, Jensen sat alone on the front porch of his ranch, guitar in hand, the sun bleeding down behind the hills. A fresh scar lined his ribcage, a reminder of that final takedown. But the wound that still bled… was her.
He checked the mailbox every morning.
And today—finally—there it was.
A white envelope with a single line in her handwriting:
“Come find me.”
His lips parted. And for the first time in months—he let himself hope.
