#useless me

[krewpluszaka]

[wh1tephoenix]

Так мерзко. Мерзко чувствовать себя бесполезным куском мяса. Я устала быть такой. Я устала пытаться что-то делать. Просто хочется что-то делать. Встать и сделать. Но сил нет. А когда есть их совсем мало.

Мне едва хватает сил на ежедневные дела. Сегодня их совсем нет. И так неприятно, что все об этом узнали. Я так удачно притворялась, что все ок. Но сегодня я совсем вялая.

Хочется есть. Снова, всё время. Но мне нельзя. Я не могу снова превратиться в орка. Но аппетит такой дикий и это раздражает. А сейчас нет сил. Поэтому лишь удручает.

Так бесит. Бесполезное тело. Мерзкий кусок мяса... Не хочу быть этим.

[tiernasfreckles]

I have the dumbest relationship with this one girl

We got really close last summer, kissed at church camp then I did something stupid and she was like “We’re never talking again”. Okay, sure. We don’t really see each other for a while but still text. Then January rolls around and we hang out regularly. February continues and we’re holding hands and hanging out late and it’s sweet. March and April we just seem to be getting closer (she asked me to my freakin prom with a sign and everything!!). I go to her soccer games 45 minutes away and she always makes time to see me. May, we hang out A LOT. I always text her if I’m having a bad day and we hang out, drink a lot of coffee, stay out past 1:00-2:00 am. In June we have a sleepover and she freakin cuddles me and hugs me and the next day we go to Pride. (She’s bi, I’m gay.) I kiss her two days later. She says she doesn’t like me like that but it was fine. I don’t push it. Three days later she kissed me before going to Europe for 6 weeks. Now I’m confused?? In Europe she FaceTimes me at least once a week, we text when she can, she flirts A LOT. I’m like Cool. Chill. We’re like a ~*thing*~. Guess fucking not. She comes home from Europe. We make out. She texts me the next day “Don’t like you like that. Felt forced. We don’t fit”. K cool. Fuck me up a little more and confuse me why don’t you.

[tabihe]

[silent-words]

I have work to do, a DnD game for my friends to get ready to, but all I want is to write about Laerie and Gale. So here I am in apathy and depression, thinking low about myself.

[dianartemis]

i should be working on my university admission

do you know what im doing ?

not working

[defiantllama]

Bitch, I’m so happy rn! I had a plant that was so beautiful and, since I’m fucking useless when it comes to gardening, I almost killed it. But then i cut off its dried parts and i watered it more frequently and today i saw it has a new bud.

THE BITCH SURVIVED! WOOHOOOOOOO

[elitheempress]

For tonight's episode of me being useless:

I wrote my summary paper and did not really include all the topic and shit because I was too lazy. It took me 3hrs to get to the next paragraph.

I watched Brendon Urie's livestream instead of opening my messages which then resulted to me not getting a part AKA being forgotten again. I got used to it already but damn, so embarrassing. And at the end of the night, I couldn't help AT ALL. I did my research but heck, the inputted intro was confusing. I didn't make another suggestion because I am too scared to do so again.