#using things

[the-ephemeral-ethereal]

The nearest kind of association is not mere perceptual cognition, but, rather, a handling, using, and taking care of things which has its own kind of 'knowledge.'

from Being and Time by Martin Heidegger 

[shethinksof]

one of the things i'm working on

I was always the child that didn't color in her new coloring books. The one that kept the china dolls in the boxes , kept the paper dolls in the books and never pealed the new stickers. I would wash my toys if they got dirty and I would make sure all my books pages were straight. I would count my legos and i would never destroy the ships I made. Above all i would never use the nice erasers or sharpen the 'pretty' pencils in class and my fancy journals and diaries were always put aside for a 'a more important time' , 'when i got older'.

I wasn't like this with all my things - i did enjoy my toys and books and being an only child i really loved my imagination but i did have issues letting go or using certain things. 

I'm 21 and i still catch myself doing that sometimes - color coordinate my closet, I won't use the nice notepad, my favorite pen is the one i use the least and certain bags, shoes or jewlery i won't want to wear untill 'a special occasion'. I also got to a point i didn't want to go certain places if "____ cant come so i'll wait", "maybe next time if ____ sitatuion changes" - that is something i totally changed. I go where i want, travel with whoever is willlingy to and enjoy life. 

Certain sitaution in my life have taught me i had to 'loosen up' 'get crazy' and at the time i didn't think they would but i'm greatful God but those people / obstacles in my way - I wouldn't want to be the 21 year old who freaks out over someone touching her favorite pen lol.