#v. rescripted

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v. rescripted + incorrect quotes

@unworthyheart @thirtythreetm @damagedtm  

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@damagedtm

Being back at the base is weird and terrifying, she doesn’t know what the others think now that they know her assignment was really her being undercover in Hydra for months. But she also asked about Fitz and the others and Coulson said he was fine, so maybe keeping distance from her at an important time worked and she won’t ever have to leave again.  She doesn’t know what to say to Fitz about the other thing between them, but she can’t wait to see him. Jemma pictured it many times, tried to prepare what words to say, how to behave - long hugs are for tearful reunions, but arm squeeze? Keeping distance and waving? Quick hug? - but nothing has really prepared her for the way it feels to actually see him in the lab, approaching after she shows up with Morse, and she breaks into a wide smile, because there he is - and oh, he’s handsome - and for a second she forgets everything she did to him, everything she couldn’t do, and just hurries her steps to throw her arms around him into a hug, a rarer happy one if congratulations aren’t in order, and it’s warm and heartfelt and what she needed the most. “Hi.”

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@damagedtm

It’s breaking her heart to just think about it, she doesn’t know how she’ll get through this without crying her eyes out. But the girls think Fitz should know and, well, Fitz also thinks people should know when they are involved in something. To think that his mother has always been so welcoming. But then, there is also a reason why he never met her parents, hopefully never will. Fitz himself might just have been the first serious crack in their relationship, when she put her foot down and said no to them without backing down nor apologizing for it.  “Your mum is always so nice...” she starts, not sure of how to explain that hers is not, it’s not just because of him. Jemma sits up straighter on the bed, hand still over his arm, “Fitz... I have to tell you... that my parents aren’t like that and... I don’t think I’m going to tell them we are dating. Or anything else, really, but especially nothing about you.” 

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X @supernxnnycoulson

As so often happens, Jemma can’t sleep. Even Fitz’s presence can’t fix that, and that night she can’t stay in bed, tormented by her thoughts. She needs a drink before she can go back to bed, and with a ‘keep sleeping, I need bathroom and food’ to Fitz, she leaves to go to the break room and get a strong drink.  She has to turn on the lights, at least the ones downstairs close to the kitchen area, and goes straight for the liquors cabinet, almost dropping the bottle with a shocked “Oh!” when she realizes she’s not alone. One hand actually goes for the gun she doesn’t have, habit from her time undercover. “Sir!...” she holds onto her racing heart instead, putting down the whiskey, “Are... you okay? What were you doing?” 

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Send “✆” for a MORNING text & Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT & Send “☎” for a RUSHED text.

v. rescripted @thirtythreetm

[text - 7:00am]: if Voldemort knew where Harry was during the whole school year but it was okay because he was protected in Howarts, why couldn’t he live with Sirius and be protected by the Order, and by the spells in the Black’s house? Might as well not have Lily’s blood relative’s protection if he wasn’t home anyway. He had moved out by the time he was hit with the AK. 

[text - not sent, deleted]: don’t freak out now, I’m safe, but I have to tell you this. I almost did something stupid, and I mean deadly stupid. It’s like I lost control. I think I’m in trouble, and I’m 

[text]: no sush Im with fitz see u later 

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v. rescripted - canon divergences

-Jemma hasn’t disappeared to go undercover; instead, after getting more interactions with the team members at the base and through phone that allowed her to calm down, she spoke to Coulson and they decided to let the team know she was going on an assignment and that it should be kept secret. She got to say goodbye, and there is no fighting with Fitz about her lying or hiding she’d leave.

-She does has PTSD and anger issues, but again, due to the support she gets and the fact that she and Fitz are still “close” even if it’s different, effects are less noticeable and she’s trying to manage on her own (she will eventually get treatment when she’ll realize that not even dating Fitz her problems will disappear, and that she happens to lose control on her actions and her own self-hatred in ways that could lead to pain for everyone). She KNOWS she has PTSD and has been hiding that too (part of her reason is that she’s very ashamed and to be afraid of stealing spotlight from the others’ traumas, but she’s also scared to be sent away until better).

-She gets together with Fitz earlier, thanks also to her friends’ talks who help her understand her feelings 

-She really thinks of the team as a family, she has a bros situation with Ward, she adores Kara and Hunter, and they are all like brothers and sisters (except Coulson and May, who are like parents, and little Deke who is like her kid. Little she knows he is her fs grandson.)

-She still wants to murder the guy who pushed the pod.

-She has biological family issues as in: absentee father who did love her but was always gone due to work, and who has expectations about Jemma she can’t fulfill now, criminally neglectful and manipulative mother who is the source of Jemma’s exaggerated guilt and with whom Jemma isn’t on speaking terms after the pod (and a phonecall that really went badly), and both never approved her friendships with people of a different social status, nor her ‘party planner career’ that Jemma made up to test their love when still a teenager, and that became such a big lie that she couldn’t let go of it (also because stubbornly waiting for their approval). The lie she said about her job also had her little sister feel rejected over something so meaningless and turn her back to her, mostly because Cat felt betrayed by what she considered her mother figure (things will be fixed between Jemma when Jemma will say the truth). Her brother hates her. Her family staff  adored her as a kid, and so did her grandmother. The family is very very rich, also Jewish from her father’s side.

-What the team actually knows about her family at the beginning of this: she has one, with two parents, maybe some people hard mentions of a sister, they are likely rich, they called her during their team in the Bus and they seem close, they are in Sheffield. Additional things Fitz and Skye would know: she has a brother. She’s Jewish. Her parents work a lot and weren’t there much. More things will be learned as time goes on because she’s not (always) withholding information on purpose, it just doesn’t cross her mind to share. 

-She had a rebellious phase at sixteen, a few days, purple hair, a tattoo, drinking, driving, all kinds of things that seemed ‘rebellious’ enough, with a gang of other rich kids who never had to deal with consequences, until she attempt to take her father’s yacht to crash it, was drunk and went into the wrong one, police arrived because of the security, she willingly took the fall, her daddy got her out of trouble, and she swore to never break rules for no reason again, because she doesn’t like the problems that come with it, nor she likes being rude to people who are just doing their jobs.

-She’s going to be pretty sassy/mean to friends, in a playful way, but also a true ass to people she doesn’t like/know too well, and she’s definitely cocky, and smug, and prone to be sadistic with the enemy, and stubborn, secretive, but also so loving and ready to play around and to help people in whatever way she can. 

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📞 for a VOICEMAIL. (rescripted!)

my muse is going to walk into a certain death. send a symbol for their final message to your muse.   - voicemail      - tw because ‘self sacrifice’ being a choice  @thirtythreetm

“Hey Kara… It’s me, Jemma, I have Fitz’s phone because I lost mine earlier…” voice shakes as she searches for the right button to press like she has seen May do before, sitting at the co-pilot seat. “There was a situation, the others will explain it to you, but they were drugged and are unconscious now. I’m-I think I’m pulling a Captain America. Me, the Peggy Carter’s fan,” she laughs on the phone, wiping tears, “I’m on a plane and… there is a bio-weapon and it’s about to go off and this was the only way… I had to take it away from the others, I couldn’t stop it… And it makes a weird sense in a way, the first time I almost died it was by jumping off a plane, then there was a grenade, then the pod… so it makes sense that I’d be diving a plane in the Pacific. I had… borrowed time from the first time, when Fitz and Ward saved me, I got to be longer with all of you, and now… now it’s time to give back.” It is. It is. She just wishes it wasn’t so terrifying, that she had had the chance to see Fitz one more time, to hug Deke, to tell the others more, something comforting.She wishes she had had longer, now that it’s the real end.

“I’d rather be with you longer: this wasn’t me being reckless, I wouldn’t have left you unless there was no choice. I love you, okay? And… I really thought Fitz and I could have… But there is that, I guess. And out of all of us… I’m glad it’s me. That I finally get to do something right, something good, and save the people I love… I’ve made so many mistakes, Kara, and… Dying now, instead of my family? That’s the perfect way to go for me. I can redeem myself for all the hatred I felt, for how much of a coward I have been, for all the hurt I caused. It… Oh, there isn’t much time left, so I’m just… I love you. I love all of you. Please, look after Fitz, he’s going to be heartbroken, and… you tell them… you tell the others I got to be brave again, yeah? That I didn’t suffer at all, that I wasn’t scared, that I was just glad they’d get to keep on living, and that you all have to keep looking after each other because I’ll always be with you. You made me so happy, you made me want to be better… even when I lost my way, and that is…” she swallows back a sob, blinking, “I’m sorry. But thank you, sister. And remember you’ll need a binder when you get married,” she laughs, plane now aiming for the cold waters, “To Grant or Skye or whoever else, and a goat ring-bearer. A ring-goater. Tell Grant I said that. And you be happy, Kara, okay? I lo-”

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@asortofsalvation

Since she and Hunter were both stuck at the base now, and the poor man had been hit by a bullet on the arm - grazed, whatever - she was all too happy to help him out while keeping an eye on him as a doctor. Coulson had asked her to look after him, and just as Mack was leaving the infirmary she was coming back with a nice tray of food.  “Hey! So, you don’t have to worry about your paperwork, I checked with Coulson and I did it earlier while I was waiting for the food to be ready. Now, you lost a bit of blood there, so I got you chicken wings, baked macaroni and cheese, salad, and I can’t give you beer with the meds you took so I just brought you juice. But I also got you this...” after putting the tray down, she showed him a magazine - she asked Bobbi what kind he might read - “And no worries, I also got the tablet, so you can watch whatever you want. How are you feeling now?”