I wrote a Whole Thing to process what happened with MultiversalxPostxOffice and Tumblr decided that it was Too Fucking Much.
TL;DR tried to make a friend, turns out nobody liked them. I tried to be nice but I wasn’t perfect and it self-destructed in the world’s smallest drama.
TL;WTR It's a mess
Otherwise, The Attempted Apology Gist
At this point you probably think this is a long form opine on my regret over the whole situation, seeing how long it’s gone on. In a way, yes, I am sad about how things went, but not that Violet left. I, again, wish to apologize for feeling I put them in a dangerous or toxic situation that they felt they needed to extricate themselves from. That being said, I’m not sad they’re gone. A little hurt they left how they did, hurt they felt the need to destroy gifts (they were on my family Switch plan and so forceful was they need they wouldn’t even leech the spot until I needed it; I was gonna let them stay), hurt that I feel the gifts weren’t meaningful or worthwhile… hurt that I feel like I wasted my effort and time. But it was brought to my attention that the people around me didn’t want Violet there and were putting up with it for me. Husband and I understand what it’s like to have over-the-top, hard-to-deal-with personalities as friends and we persist because we feel it's important to give those people the continued effort as long as we’re not being harmed by it. So, Husband put up with Violet. Tumblr bestie put up with it because it was a time waster I think. He was mostly ambivalent about them but admitted to being overwhelmed and unimpressed with them. Long-time friend admitted he DIDN’T WANT TO PLAY GAMES WITH ME because they were around. He actually preempted my usual game night organization now that Violet’s not there.
Violet’s presence actively impacted the space of those I was trying to provide an enjoyable, comfortable space for. And that’s the thing I feel worst about. I’m sad I upset Violet, for sure, but I’m more upset that for the last 2 months people had been putting up with this for me. And I was unhappy the whole time.
