#vanspeaks

[vanyel-or-just-van]

Two different people who I haven’t really spoken extensively to in a long time just thanked me for helping them through difficult times in their lives. In the same morning.

It’s before noon, guys, please stop making me cry. 

I just...

I just want to say to everyone out there that people can be so important, okay? Even if you haven’t talked in a long time doesn’t mean you stop caring. Like, these two people helped me through a ton of rough patches, and to see them thanking me for just trying to help them because they deserve happiness?

It gives me back a little bit of the faith in humanity I’d lost.

@angelic-marksman, @the-female-gaymer, thank you. Thank you so much to both of you. Your kind words hit deep today, and they’re not going away anytime soon.

Thank you to all my friends, current and past, who helped me through the hard times. To those who feel I’ve helped them. And to anyone who’s scared to approach, thinks that internet friends can’t change anything-

They can. And my box is always open. Even if we don’t talk forever, I want you to know I care. Okay?

I love all of you out there. Keep holding each other together.

[vanyel-or-just-van]

75. Weirdest thing that happened to you on Overwatch?

oh god there’s a lot of things uhhhhhhhhhh

any potg with characters i suck at, because they’re literally me screaming and button mashing (Widow, Genji, Tracer, any character but Zenyatta)

oh how about a positive story from early in my overwatch days!

so we go onto this server and the first thing that we see in the general chat is “hey guys, can we not cap the point, we’re doing achievement hunting”and my friend and i are in a group and are like “huh”and so we go out and see the enemies who said that and they actually ARE doing achievements, asking people to line up on the edge so they can get Roadie ulted off the map for his achievement, in exchange of a promise trade

Long story short, i got a TON of achievements that day, with the help of them and the people on the server who joined in. So. Early community spirit. Weird but awesome.

[vanyel-or-just-van]

Well. When poetry class turns into "write continuous with no punctuation" which turns into shaking hands and gritted teeth and broken pencil lead and the class is silenced because they've never heard you swear and the venom in your voice as the last words fade is a double-edged poison and you can't stop more words from coming onto other pages and you thought you'd come to terms with all this but oh god you haven't you still have so much to say you could write a collection to him and the memories that have shaped and scarred you and you can't stop thinking about him and the raw place is opened again and you have another class where they're having a bit of a party and you'll still be thinking about him and writing about him and make your mechanical scream all the words he can't hear.

[vanyel-or-just-van]

Tfw you're really enjoying chamber music but you know live strings put you to sleep and you're trying not to daze out because you don't wanna be disrespectful but you're truly relaxed for the first time in a while I guess it's not just Beethoven that does this to me. This is Kirchner and Strauss, and I lost a good minute or two in each song drifting in and out, hot damn. Really good, though. Faure Quartett, A+++++. Very passionate.

[vanyel-or-just-van]

1 and 16 maybe?

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? - More cereal than milk. When I was really young, I really didn’t like having cereal “swimming”. Actually, I’d usually eat it dry WITH a glass of milk.

16: what's your favorite pasta dish? - Spaghetti and Meatballs. I’m a sucker for the classic/kiddy.

[yenajaws-blog]

I just want to hold you close, entwine your fingers with mine and stare into each other's eyes as we lay in bed together in the dark

[yenajaws-blog]

Honestly I don't know if I should open a PayPal account and start taking commissions.... I don't think anyone would even bother to commission me like the last time..

[yenajaws-blog]

Wheezes Should I make a wish list