Breastfeeding.
They say that the moment your baby latches for the very first time is an incredibly special moment for mother and child.
I didn’t experience this. I was feeling a little overwhelmed by all that had happened so I felt numb to all of this. I remember my midwife squeezing my boob as she tried to get colostrum for my baby in a syringe.
I’m not sure why? I don’t remember. I’m not sure if it’s because he wouldn’t latch, or because he was distressed at birth and needed a pick-me-up from my colostrum.
The whole stay in hospital, I didn’t really feel that special bond. Feeding became really stressful as it was so ‘on the clock’, to get his low blood sugars up, and in this, I started to despise it. It was hard. There was so much pressure on my baby to feed well to get his sugars up. And there was so much pressure on my husband and I to make sure he latched properly and also that he took all the formula we had to syringe through a tube.
My introduction to breastfeeding was not what people made out it would be. Was yours?







