#vent rambles

[solarpawbs]

oughh

[void-of-feelings]

I'm tired.

I feel like I'm dreaming. Everything feels real and fake at the same time.

I can't believe I'm alive right now. That I'm here right now and not in my dark room with my tablet.

Everytime I close my eyes all I can think about is my childhood.

The good

And the bad

I hate loving my parents.

They do not deserve my love.

Yet I love them.

Why are they good now?

Why did they mess up while growing up?

Why is everything so different?

Why can't you just be consistent!?

Are you good?

Bad?

I can't tell.

I hate not being able to tell

[zylahbeeart]

please please search inside yourself for your most prized values and ethics and hold them close to your heart like you would a newborn baby. never give them up. never give in. your values are what make you shine. we have to keep fighting against all the injustice in the world.

keep going to your favourite small businesses, keep being kind to your neighbours, keep planting flowers on your streets, keep engaging in your hobbies, keep going to protests, keep sharing posts you find important. keep being you.

[unhingedselfships]

I'm sorry. I feel like I'm on here everyday whining about something new. I know I'm a lot. I'm sorry. Y'all didn't sign up for Kimi's Daily Mental Breakdown

I'm scared. Of a lot a things. But. Something is wrong, and I don't know what. I keep spiralling and I feel like I'm edging at crisis again and I hate it. Especially because I don't know what the problem is. I can whine and cry and vent but. I think a lot of times those are just my brain picking an easy thing to "target"? I don't know what it really setting me off. I'll be fine with something, and then hours later I'm having an anxiety attack over it. And then hours after that I'm fine again. Is is too many things I can't process just cumulatively coming down? Is one thing triggering all of this and I just don't know what? I hate that. Feeling off kilter, like I'm on uneven footing, but not knowing what is causing it. Having emotional reactions that don't fit my logical thought progression. I don't. I hate this. I hate feeling like this. I'm so scared. I'm not ok, and I don't know why, and I hate it. I'm sorry.

[meadowjika]

i didnt noticed She blocked me untill yesterday

we even unlocked chat not so long ago and we were good Friends 😶

[you-cant-remember]

i don't know how you're finding this, but please know i love u. i may be a random stranger on the internet, but please please stay strong and take care. i'm suffering too man, but if you need a sign to stay alive, this is it. hang in there. <3 we're in this together

[rickwokeman]

Yikes, I'm fed up with all the negativity and complaining at my place, It's dismotivating, and making me feel tired.

[bingmeii]

told mum for like the third time that i’m not a girl and that i’m rly uncomfy with being called her daughter or her using she/her pronouns. what does she continue to do??? keeps calling me her daughter when it’s completely unnecessary and keeps using those she/her pronouns. Screams.