#vent sorry

[addict3dangel]

i shouldn’t eat. idk why i eat.

[tumboodles]

my birthday is coming up in two days and people always get meaner to me during this time, i don't really kno why or what triggers it i think maybe they just feel bad for what happened to me and they don't kno how to act about it . it hurts tho because all I want is for people to be nice to me right now, i need consideration and care

my bday was the day i was sold into trafficking by my boyfriend. and this time every year is very hard for me because of that, and i just want the ppl in my life to be kind and instead I get pointedly ignored and snapped at and they make it really clear like to my face that they don't know what to do and that they won't be here or doing anything for my birthday. the only time anyone has ever celebrated it was so i would feel safe and I'd be easier to drug and transport. it just makes it very clear how little people care about me, and how im a burden because i survived. i stopped going to therapy i stopped getting any help because asking for anything from the people around me is just asking to feel guiltier and like more of a problem even tho I keep to myself all the time because im terrified of humans. every day i wish my captor had killed me

i have no life because i am mentally destroyed. theres no pride or happiness in me knowinh that im a survivor, i just get shown over and over again that i shouldn't be here

[milo-just-a-crappy-writer]

I apologize for this random, vent-y post but if you write whump for coping reason I would like to hear your thoughts or really anyone’s thoughts if they write whump.

I started writing whump and making whump characters as a way to process some stuff in my life, I won’t go into details. The situation has basically subsided/I’ve been feeling better about it all etc. But like ik that Sera and the Our Angel story is like only a thing because of this situation. And like I want to continue to write as use Our Angel as Botha creative outlet and a way to process other stuff in my life but I feel like really guilty ig for like having the entire characters and story solely based off a specific situation and now that it’s not like as big of a deal that I just continue if that makes sense.

Idk I’ve been feeling very off recently in general not pertaining to this situation so maybe my mind is just trying to find something to overthink and bother me idk.

I would appreciate anyone’s thoughts. Ik I’m probably just being stupid but I just idk need some reassurance </3

[sunnibits]

I hope that anyone who’s ever told me that adhd is “my superpower!!” shits their fucking pants in public at least once in their lifetime btw

[loveimp]

I don’t want to burden anyone but I’ve been extremely depressed this month and I just feel like I’m at the end of my life? Like there’s nothing more for me to live and be happy . I’m only alive because I don’t want to traumatize the people I love. Everyday I try to sleep as much as possible or I stay in bed so I don’t have to be alive. I need help but I just don’t believe the meds or therapy can do anything for me anymore. I’m really sorry to even have to post this publically, I guess I feel like I have nothing else to lose, it doesn’t matter if people out there will find me annoying for over sharing or pity me for this. I can’t vent to my friends because I don’t know what else to say, that I’m just sad? No matter what I can’t not be empty? No one has a solution for that, it’s just awkward to deal with. I’m really sorry that I am this way

[tokyosmega]

being arospec is such a pain bc why am i physically sick when i think about the POSSIBILITY of someone being romantically interested in me.

[r0ssx-x]

Anyone else basically have a couple of weeks where theyre actually tweaking the fuck out because of mental turmoil & like self deprevation just to then be slammed into a weird period of numbness & like havjng ur brain go a lot quieter than it usually is or is it just me because i cant tell if im ever making shit up or not. Or maybe that lithium orotate i took is actually working, can never tell if those supplements are placebos or not

[farawayfromtulsaaa]

why do i never shut the fuck up?

im such a fucking sensitive bitch and a crybaby like it’s genuinely pathetic oh my god.

i don’t know how I GENUINELY dont annoy the people around me.