Finally clicked to me today that I don't rlly have any close.friends
Yeah I have friends from middle school that I kinda carried into high school but I can tell they're not rlly close to me anymore and that's fine
It just rlly sucked to slide into one of the back rows in drama club and watching the ppl I thought were in my friend group wave their friends over to sit with them and just never even noticed my presence
'oh maybe they didn't see u' no they did, they turned around multiple times litteraly anytime someone came thru the door they saw me :/
And after drama club I was hoping they'd wait for me so we could all walk out but no they all kinda just...paired off and left and I was the last one there
Not even a bye :/
I've tried making new friends and stuff but I can tell I'm still kinda just some close acquaintance with them
I just....don't know what to do.
I don't know how to get close with people and even if I do I know they'll just drop me when college starts up
I don't think anyone would even noticed if I dissapeared
