sometimes i think abt how oikawa's skills are recognized widely; inside his community and beyond it!!! he's known to be really good at what he does!! even ushijima, one of the top 3 aces in japan, acknowledges oikawa's prowess in volleyball, and that makes it hurt a lot more bc one of the people he couldn't beat with the skills that he spent years polishing (and pushed himself to the limit for) admits that he's a valuable asset to whatever team he's playing for!!! that line ushijima says that everyone makes memes out of (aka you should've come to shiratorizawa) PROVES it. he wants oikawa to be in his team; he KNOWS oikawa would be a great player to have by his side.
and yk what??? that sucks for someone like oikawa. as much as he wants to be set apart from the rest (i. e. be one of, if not, the best setter), he also cannot give up the more selfless goal he has and that's to make iwaizumi and himself win nationals. he thinks that by choosing not to go to shiratorizawa, he'd achieve both of these things but he doesn't. and he probably didn't know what to do with himself after karasuno won the qualifier match because a) he knows he's been succeeded by a better setter (kageyama) and b) he couldn't take iwa/his team to nationals. he failed to reach both his goals so HEARING USHIJIMA SAY YOU SHOULD'VE GONE TO SHIRATORIZAWA PROBABLY HURTS HIM A LOT BECAUSE MAYBE, JUST MAYBE IF HE'D GONE HE WOULD'VE ACHIEVED AT LEAST ONE OF HIS GOALS.
I'M SO HURT IDEK WHERE THIS CAME FROM IT JUST HIT TOO CLOSE TO HOME AND :') BRB GONNA GO WATCH THE SEIJOH 3RD YEARS VID AGAIN
okay @ the ppl out there whose mental health is kinda wonky right now... i have a question for u all:
is there a thing where you FEEL burnt-out but without the sad aspect,, because idk i'm in a good place right now and i'm happy?? but my mind is always so fuzzy and i just can't focus anymore,,
it's so frustrating bc?? it kind of pains me to do the things i usually do with ease :00
