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[volticexe]

Sad Realization time.

So. You ever argue with a parent who says they're right, even you know they're wrong & they not alone keep saying they're right, but that you're wrong and you need to stop being stupid? Yeah... that's me and my dad. Over almost every topic we discuss now, we argue. Why? Because he says something that isn't quite right. So I correct him. Sometimes I'm right. Sometimes I'm wrong. But sometimes... It escalates. VERY BIG. Why? Because I know what I'm talking about. Because, for once it seems like, I know something he doesn't & can teach and explain to him. But no. I'm wrong. The argument that sparked this? My dad saying a friend of his bought an "Xbox Kinect" for his daughter, saying it is its own system, with its own games, that it was supposed to be this newer thing than the Xbox 360. I tried to tell him its a peripheral, an add-on, & that it needs the 360 to play. He kept saying I was wrong. We got angry and heated about this, he even said I was using "Peripheral" wrong! So, we decided to stop. We get home, I look this up & prove him wrong but yet he won't admit & he keeps saying that there was an Xbox 360 with the Kinect built-in. But there wasn't. He gets upset I get so driven about this stuff, but not towards where it really counts. I wish I did. But I don't. Why? Because I'm tired of being wrong. Of messing up. Of losing my arguments and never knowing what I'm saying. Especially with him, who always says I'm wrong and that I'm being stupid when we argue. Who will NEVER tell me after a big argument that I'm right. And he's wrong. I can't put this drive towards my driver's license. No one can help me. They say "Driving School, we can't help" when I DON'T WANNA PAY THAT MONEY. JUST HELP ME. And- *sighs* ... The main point is just. I'm not wrong... I'm not an idiot. I can hold my own. But when your opinion won't bend to someone who knows what they're talking about. You make the person who is right feel like an idiot. & the WORST part is. I can be like that. I get it from him. & I hate it. I try to listen when I realize it. But I still do it...

[volticexe]

Loving the "Scheduling" system

I can post the stupidest stuff/make posts while asleep. Like I am right now. Ah, technology.

[volticexe]

I'M ON THE WIIU

Posting from my WiiU. Now I can post screenshots from my games straight to Tumblr. Sometimes, I love Technology.

[volticexe]

Smash Rant (Some Salt, Yes...)

I just got so mad on Smash, I had to Quit. I was just DECIMATED by someone on Sm4shWiiU, him using Mega, Mac, Mario, & Villager. I used Jiggles, Ness, & Peach. I only won the first match barely. The rest I lost by either barely or being blown the fuck back. There were 9 MATCHES. The worst part wasn’t even the losing. The worst part was him saying "REKT" then quitting. Not "GOOD GAME", WHICH HE FUCKIN’ HAD. “REKT”. I know it shouldn’t infuriate me so, BUT IT DOES BECAUSE JUST. I HAD FUN. I GOT UTTERLY DESTROYED BUT I HAD FUN. Him saying “REKT” & leaving? Just… IT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH. NOT EVEN HIS PLAYING STYLES PISSED ME OFF (Except Villager. Literally Lloid/Slingshot spam.), HIM SAYING THAT STUPID WORD DID. I just… GAHH… I’m gonna go on & play again. But that just… Word of Advice: Say “Good Game” before leaving a room, unless your opponent’s a legit cheap-ass bitch, then do what you want. & if you wanna brag, don’t say “REKT”. Say something CLEVER OR ATLEAST SAY “WRECKED”. I'll admit, I'm salty. But again, the losing didn't set me off. The word did.

[volticexe]

Its normal to not like creepy things, right?

Like, I don't like creepy things. I don't like scary things. I don't like alot of things in the "Horror" category of most aspects of life. That's normal, right? If it is, its normal to not want to go to a Monster Mania-Con, which is FOCUSED ALL AROUND THAT STUFF, with my GF who does like it, right?

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I HAVE GOALS!

So, following yesterday, I have decided to make a Monthly To-Do list for myself this Summer to help me start doing/trying things. The one for May, starting after College (maybe some before) is: -Get a Car -Go to DMV about Driving Test/School -Start Doodling, 1-2 a week. -Start a Nuzlocke on a Pokemon Game -Beat a WiiU game I haven't beat -Make an InksterInc account with GF -Walk atleast once, maybe twice a week somewhere. -Look up tutorials for learning new Coding, C# or whichever is recommended Some of it is important, some is personal, some is to better myself. But I wanna do things, & this is a fun place to start. ^^

[volticexe]

Feelings thing

So to start. You can ignore this, I just wanna vent and stuff, & this place is where I have the least amount of followers who will give a crap. If it bugs ya or you end up reading, I'm sorry. So yeah. Also its on mobile so it'll be long. Probably not good for people to not notice, but fuck it. Its just... I get those times I feel psyched and I wanna do stuff, but I end up doing nothing. Just sitting around. & it just feels like its because no one will care. No one will say good job or anything. People may say I should do it for myself and not for praise from others but. I can't really do it for myself because I know I did it, but whoop-de-doo. I did a thing probably alot of others can do. When I try to talk to others & compare it, my skills either special or regular, to them, its like. They don't care. They think its stupid. That they've done it. That they could do it easier. & that's what hurts. To me, its big. I don't have self-confidence, common sense, & the correct way of thinking. I'm weird like that, I guess. I dunno. But anyway. The thing I've done is big to me, whether its a personal goal in a video game or an actual adult thing I needed to do. But no one cares. Because they have to do it, or will never do it, or have done it. So why have any self-confidence if everyone else can do it or doesn't care? For myself? I'm one of BILLIONS. I can feel good one day, but if someone does it better, what good am I? I often end up getting in arguments with my dad about this stuff, recently about job applications and stuff, and I realized its always his optimistic view versus my pessimistic view. I don't wanna be pessimistic, but I try to think reality, though I end up thinking in a negative way BECAUSE I have no self-confidence... but his speeches don't help either, because it becomes "either you try and succeed or you become a 40-yr-old couch potato in your parents' houss or in a cardboard box". Gee, that's helpful, a hit-or-miss scenario for a guy who feels like he misses all the time or succeeds when it doesn't count. & it petrifies me from doing anything. Because... I don't wanna fail. I don't wanna not try... but if I fail, I'll be in the same position as if I didn't try. It just... it scares me. I only really have me to rely on. I have friends, but I've asked alot of them already & they're doing better than me. They don't need to care about what I do or my confidence. So... yeah... I guess I feel better. Still upset, but venting is a great way atleast. Even if its to no one. If anyone read this. I'm surprised you read this. & I guess thanks. You read my feelings thing. Welp, I guess this is Volt790, forever at your service...