im gonna blow my shit clean off fuck you mean define that no i cant i cant define anything right i cant use words right i can only move them in ways that make people understand me, ithink. no please don't ever ask me the definition of anything ever please go look it up please. you probably have a device on you. and if you don't? well im probably gonna fuck everything up because I CAN'T SAY THINGS RIGHT. I CAN'T WORD THE THINGS I REALLY REALLY WANT TO SAY IN A WAY THAT 1) LOOKS RIGHT AND 2) IS UNDERSTANDABLE. YOU can understand me right now, yeah? probably. but just wait until it comes to one of my special interests and wow. there go my words! on the floor and i'm tripping on them. yep. i can't yap about my favourite things because I CAN'T FUCKING SAY IT. I CAN'T TELL YOU MORE ABOUT THAT COOL STUFF I HAVE THE WORDS FOR IT BUT NONE OF THEM WORK AND ALSO I. i don't.
i don't fucking know anymore man i fucking hate explaining shit ESPECIALLY if its about something i like thats like. asking a saltwater fish to go live in freshwater. see there I DID IT AGAIN FUCKASS ANALOGY BARELY WORKS CANT DO FIGURATING LANGUAGE FOR SHITTTTT.
whatever whatever. tl;dr i can't say shit right n its pissing me off and making me genuinely mad. oh also that reminds me i hate summing shit up bc. YOURE MISSING OUT ON THE DETAILS AND I DONT WANT YOU TO MISS THOSE CAUSE THEYRE IMPORTANT I CANT SUMMARISE FOR SHIT IT HURTS ME. TO SEE SO MANY DETAILS LOST. BECAUSE YOU NEED THEM TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN!!!!!!! NO I CANT TELL YOU A COOL CHEM JOKE YOU WOULDNT GET IT AND EXPLAINING IT WOULD MAKE IT WORSE BECAUSE OF!!!!! REASONS ABOVE LOOK!!! THATS WHY!!!!! UIHEGFUGEOGWU IDK WHY THIS HAPPENS IDK IDK
i am. so close man SO!!! CLOSE!!!! whatever i need to be here i'll just go do shit i guess
I wonder if part of the reason why I would make a rant post and then dropped that rant post (usually criticism) is bc the fandom are so insufferable in expressing their hate and CRITICISMS (yes even criticisms they’re insufferable) and we’re speaking MULTIPLE TIMES THIS KEEPS HAPPENING that even one measly annoyance to a good criticism makes me want to punch a wall so that I don’t want to be as miserable and annoying as them (there are other reasons like my rage got stopped, I don’t feel like posting it, it was technically vent and expressing my sadness is cringe af, looking back at my old criticism is cringe, part of it being that my blog is for artistic stuff and positive vibes toxic positivity? Perhaps but also it’s what this blog is meant to be more about and I still like what I do)
I did thought of a side blog about this but I fear it might make me worse so I decided against it
Returning to Khorne after years away I’ve finished my mandated rereading of Angron: The Red Angel and starting my nth rereading of Betrayer and I think I’ve nailed down (heh) exactly why I like Khorne collectively, daemons, legion, and mortals all rather than just certain parts like how I like the Death Guard but hate Nurgle. I believe Khorne best clearly communicates one of the bigger themes about Chaos, self destruction.
Exhibit A. Angron. A popular statement I tend to see is that Angron and the World Eaters were a second pick to the golden child, Sanguinius. I call bullshit on this idea. EVERYBODY wanted Sanguinius because he was the perfect son of the Emperor and it would be that much more empowering if chaos managed to corrupt him, but people throw out Khorne specifically because it’s a perfect fit for the blood guy to get the vampire. And that’s fair, but Angron is the perfect embodiment of hatred. Hatred for his enemies, hatred for the Emperor, hatred for himself and his sons. Nuceria took what could have been the emotional anchor for the primarchs and the legions, maybe even humanity, and shattered it. All that is left is an elemental hatred for everything, which of course inherited by his sons.
Exhibit B. The 12th legion. Pre and Mid-heresy, I would say the strongest part about the World Eaters is their bonds to each other in brotherhood. They bind themselves to each other during training duels and also use it as a way to build rapport with other legions. All while they having an implant stabbing their brains if they’re not actively killing something; which they willingly had implanted so they could build a rapport with their dad. This did not work. Of course Post-heresy cohesion took a massive hit after being relatively held together until a certain somebody got a hold of a flamer during Skalathrax. Khârn the Betrayer. Nowadays there’s nothing left of bonds and brotherhood. Just blood.
Exhibit C. Khorne himself. I would say there’s certain levels to the amount of duplicity in being in a chaos cult. There’s being a follower of the literal god of lies, and then it’s down from there. Not that there aren’t individuals who follow Khorne that lie, that’s just a natural part of being in a chaos warband, but I do believe Khorne simply doesn’t have the room to lie about what he brings, and takes, from the table. Khorne is so hilariously transparent in what he needs from you, that he just tells you upfront what you have to give. Blood for the blood god. Skulls for the skull throne. All you need to give is control. The World Eaters are goaded from battle to battle, the Red Angel at the tip of the spear, no longer burdened by things like discipline and thought. Bloodshed for the sake of shedding blood. Every single instinct you have will be screaming for murder to a point that it’s physically painful. But ultimately, this is what you wanted. Strength.
TLDR: When it comes to following Khorne, there’s a point where it’s just your own fault, right? Like there’s an amount of manipulation that can go into following chaos, but Khorne is just so obvious that there has to be a point where you look at all that’s happening and go, “I could go back, but this will probably be fine for my well being.”
Anyway I just needed to put thoughts down going into Betrayer again. ARRRGABLRVRB I NEED TO KI-
I'm having REALLY mixed feelings on gen6 right now.
Before I get into rant mode, I just wanna make it clear that this isn't a gen4 purist rant, I love all mlp gens, past and present - even if they aren't perfect. Hot take, but I really enjoyed gen5! However, I'm not too pleased with how they seem to be handling this new one.
Obviously, it's too soon to really know what the show will be like, but from the teasers its clear that this show relies HEAVILY on gen4, which I think will be its downfall.
Before the new teaser content we got yesterday was released, I really had hoped that there would be an updated & new storyline, just with the same characters we know and love.
I know a lot of fans weren't happy to see Hasbro reusing characters but I thought that if the story was fresh, the objective was changed, the characters were given new traits and the series took place in new locations, than that would be perfectly fine.
Well...Unfortunately, this seems not to be the case. For those who have yet to seem it, here is the new promotional material Hasbro released the other day:
So, it seems that Hasbro will be 'continuing', in a way, the continuity from gen4 but just in an alternative new universe like Marvel's "What If?" series.
To be honest, I'm pretty upset about this. I feel that it was already rather lazy to reuse gen4's main case but now they aren't even bothering to create a new general storyline. And she's already a princess?
The fact that she is the Princess of Friendship would surely imply that the elements of harmony will exist in this universe so it's even more crazy for them to remove part of the fundamental cast (Honestly and Generosity).
It's just very disheartening to see them rely so heavily on gen6 instead of creating new characters and new stories for the next generation to love. This reliance on gen4 is what brought about gen5's downfall in the first place as they simply couldn't create a story disconnected from the past gen.
In my opinion, if they hadn't connected gen5 to gen4, bronies would've hated it a lot less - especially since most of the hate came from seeing the way the new series handled the old characters.
Using gen4 as a crutch just kills creativity. Hasbro is starting to act like Disney, where they refuse to create new media and just rely on past hits. And the new media they do make is just unimaginative replicas because they are afraid to differentiate from the formulas of the past. The movie 'Wish', for example, is just a Frankenstein's monster of old tropes and references to past movies put together into a soulless creation that fail to realise why those tropes were once loved.
Anyways, just wanted to get that off my chest. I know this series isn't out yet, so I shouldn't just too harshly, these are just my fears at the moment.
Getting Psychoanalyzed By Teenagers & RAADS-R by SnapCube fan-made Unified English Braille Transcript. Because I can :3
CW: WALL OF TEXT
Text is the official captions of the video by AudreyGelatino https://audreycaptions.carrd.co/
About ~9000 Words, unformatted (all my posts are, because ui is never consistent). If there are any mistakes, please let me know :3
Keep in mind I am a gimmick blog, am doing this for fun, do not hold any certification nor have ever claimed to, and that this transcription is in practice completely useless, as it is a transcription of audio captions.
I had tricked a woman and her partner to go to a lake and I left them to drown. They were young but I disliked them.
I was then in a warehouse and there were guts spilled everywhere and the floor had stains of blood. I had an old friend with me, Camila, and she was helping me because I had her threatened. She once had a small chance of snitching on me and she took it but I somehow stopped it.
Some people came to the warehouse and I tried to hide the room with the guts. One guy entered the guts-room with the lights off and I took him out of there with some lame excuse but he seemed to know what was going on.
My parents were also there and I didn't know how to tell them that I had killed someone. They surprisingly supported me and they tried to cover it up so I wasn't declared guilty. Still, I was found by the police.
I was in my room, sleeping with my family and I vaguely remember they tried to stop The Law™and I was laying in bed trying to hide, as if I were a small child.
I then remember getting into a bridge 🌉 and I think I jumped into the sea. I woke up in the shore, there were other 3 folks there. I was both an actor and a spectator, so I saw 2 people trying to help someone that was choking, laying on the sand, while I was watching from far. I was in both places, with the person choking and far from there with someone else who was also watching.
Then the me that was with the choking person rubbed its hands and placed them in the now dead person. The spectator that was besides me also tried to do something so the dead person revived.
The me that was near the dead person was able to revive it before the spectator near me could finish their ritual. Then i (now I was the me that was with the now-revived person) was being praised by the two cultists that were with the now-revived cultist. I was told I had been "chosen by the spawn" and that I had a gift and that I had to use it in the name of the spawn.
I left, a bit confused and still driven by guilt. Then I was in a green-mint apartment and I got out of there and tried to look for money because I was poor. There was one person helping me find people to "heal" so I could win some money. This person would go door to door asking if anyone was injured and then come back to me and tell me if anyone was interested.
In this residential area that had the form of a twisted hallway uphill, this person told me that the "house number two" wanted some service aswell as the "house number 0" and I was nervous but thrilled to help.
When I arrived to house number two (wich was actually like the 10th house in the hallway) it was a beautiful purple house with a gorgeous tree in the front patio. In there, a very well dressed woman asked for my services. When she got out, standing on the stairs that had led me to her house, I rubbed my hands, did a little prayer to the spawn, and placed my palms in her legs. Then flew away and fell.
She was angry, really angry, and people around us started to run away. I stayed because I wanted to help her get up but I was on top of the stairs and she was at the end of the stairs. She then mumbled something about being a kitsune and grew 9 orange fox-like tails under her red skirt. I tried grabbing her but she then tried to bite me and I allowed it, thinking it would be just a bite but I lost my whole arm.
I then ran away and found "house 0" by taking a sharp turn. There was a old lady who recieved me kindly. I tried to help but explained how my gift only revives people not cure them. She was Christian and I remembered my faith and was conflicted. The spawn gave me the power to revive the dead but Christianity gave me peace with myself. In the dream, I came to the conclusion of trying to mix them by saying they were the same thing. NO THEY ARE NOT.
I tried helping the woman, she paid me and I left. I then came across some sort of market where everyone was welcomed to stay. They were being persecuted by something but still were living normally. Then the something attacked and they had to run away. A kid tried to scape but he fell from a roof and died. I found him, revived him, and took him with the adults of the market so they could take care of him.
Then we were all eating in long tables. I think we were eating some sort of consomé, wich was tasty tbh. I think I felt accepted and with hope of the future for once in the whole dream.
