Jan 14
having too many interests and being absolutely mediocre at each one of them is NOT for the burnt-out-perfectionist-former gifted kid-overachiever who's too tired to even be able to reach half their creative potential
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having too many interests and being absolutely mediocre at each one of them is NOT for the burnt-out-perfectionist-former gifted kid-overachiever who's too tired to even be able to reach half their creative potential
on my period, skin is dry, hair is greasy and no longer fluffy, lips are peeling, migraine incoming, my nose piercing is sore and hurting, its too cold to take a shower, i have school tomorrow, i have not locked in and done my required studying, im anxious for no reason, im tired after not really doing anything all day, im sleepy at 8 fucking pm all i want to do is stay in bed and never be asked to participate in society again
about to face the horrific consequences of my actions (up at 5am reading byler fic when i have to wake up for class in less than 2 hours)
kinda want to turn my art sideblog separate and make a blog for writing and all the other creative things to push myself out of the perfectionist hole ive created for myself over the years and just try to create things for the sake of creating. i can reblog things i find inspirational, post my own stuff, ramble about stuff i want to create which is a bit daunting to do on main. i dont know if ill do this but i really want to create as much as i can this year. not sure if this is the way to go about it but im willing to see where it goes
honestly i dont believe conformitygate to be real in the sense that i KNOW its only exists because of the fandom's theories and i refuse to believe that the duffers would ever be smart enough to pull a fake out finale like this. to me it just seems they were lazy enough to leave plot holes and the writing on this season got so progressively worse that nothing the characters do seems natural to the audience, there's no bigger motive behind it, its simply just bad writing and reverting a show about the freaks and the outcasts to conformity and conservatism. every day this fandom creates theories that are smarter than anything the duffers could EVER write and that's what makes this theory so good and it has so much fanfic potential that im literally just waiting for someone to write a conformitygate longfic because i would eat it the fuck up
no omg guys trust me all it takes is giving yourself one good emo haircut with choppy bangs and everything to gain the high that will fuel you for the next few months for sure. no trust me
wait fuck this show i just realized my exams are going to be over and done with in a few months and ill have the entire summer to catch up on all the post-finale fics/art
okay im just reblogging stuff rn because i cried for an hour and now im so scatterbrained i dont even know what to say i might come back later with a clear head and talk about the finale as a whole