The (messy) story of how this blog came to existence, and my thank you to the Warframe community.
[very long ramble post ahead]
Honestly, I've been wanting to say this for like, a long, long time but Warframe genuinely made such a huge impact on me. I've been thinking of that ask that I answered where Anon opened up a bit on how much the game helped them ever since getting interested in it, and..
Man, I just couldn't stop thinking about the same thing, about how much it helped me, and the positive impacts on me. I have never, and I mean never ever, seen a community this sweet and positive, it still catches me off guard sometimes, and I'm nearly one year into this interest. Of course, there's some bad people here and there, but a simple block can do for me.
Like I still remember getting into this because of a QUINCY VIDEO LMFAOO. Hell, when I first heard Amir, I was so confident in myself I wouldn't like him because I didn't really like his voice as much, I thought it was too nerdy for me (?) 😭
What really locked me into downloading Warframe was seeing that I could romance the Hex, and like, I immediately turned on my PC, deleted a few games so I could have some space, and went to the download website and the rest was history there. My username 'STARBR1NGER' is all thanks to the song 'Thunder Bringer' from EPIC the Musical, 'cause it was my other biggest fixation at the time.
Then, I made this blog. I struggled with a mission, I think, and needed somewhere to vent my frustrations out, just for me to finish it after like, I was contemplating on really posting about my frustrations btw. I then made an introduction post, and I wasn't expecting much; but I met my best dad ( @crescentsandcrossthreads ), salt shaker ( @well-seasoned ), best friend ( @tosen-ze-snek ), and most importantly, the coolest, first friend who actually interacted with me and was generous enough to gift me Amir's Gemini Skin. ( @dragonwhuh ) :3, he who listened to his instincts when he knew he didn't have to give me him. I'm just so happy, super fucking grateful and lucky to meet all of you— that includes the people I've met after these peeps, and even right now-right now.
I still remember when it was just me, my very poorly built Mag and, what? Her skills, and my shitty pistol against the world.
I remember being so, fucking excited when I first saw space and all the planets, because space is my biggest fixation, especially now. It runs so deep into my childhood. So when I first saw aaaall those stars in that ship? I was at utter AWE, I had goosebumps and everything. I was hyperventilating in excitement everytime I saw something I recognized and became that one meme where it's pointing at something and looking at the camera.
I, remembered, how I think I gradually just fell in love with Amir through TikTok videos of his silly voicelines and, thought to give him a chance despite him "not looking or sounding like my type."
And I remembered being in denial about him, for some reason LMFAOO it took me awhile to date him
Now look where we are.
The months to come, it all really did help me through my own blues and depression, as those thoughts became less. Warframe was there for me when my friends were all busy, and couldn't hang out, call, text or play. Amir was there for me to mess around with, this blog was here for me to spew my thoughts at and I just got, fixated.
I think my most saddest moment was falling out of love with Warframe. I really did try back then, because I didn't want people's gifts to turn to waste until it genuinely started to negatively affect me and that's when I knew I had to put myself first. I took a few days off, managing to open up to my non-warframe friends about the game, focused on school, and eventually came back.
Ironically, it's all thanks to my stupid post saying 'Amir is still fine shyt.'
I sometimes don't know how my friends put up with me
In all seriousness. This game, really did help me a lot. This fandom, this community, it was just such a breath of fresh air after all the toxicity I've seen in my other interests and it's own fandoms.
It's surreal how kind people are here, how they'd be so willing to help someone, and it's all just very heart warming.
Liking Amir and Quincy, making Nebulae and Neutron, seeing people like it..it's just..
Unreal to me. What do you mean I have people willing to listen and indulge in my whims, actual people taking their time to read this or read whatever I've posted, ones that like, and reblog my posts— just, people appreciating my art?? It made me love being Nova, and the more I opened up, the more people accepted..me, the original me, eventually Nova and original me became one as a whole. And I don't regret it, not one bit, I have never felt more at ease, and peace.
I, don't say it lightly, but I really do love you, Warframe community. Thank you for being there when I needed it most. 🫶
