#weekend leave

[junkiepterodactyl]

September 15th 2012

I ate sour starburst and was lazy and then I got to put all of my books on my new shelves that Dad made. I took O to the park and a friend from her school was there and I got mistaken for O's mum which was awkward. When we got back we watched Scooby Doo Two and ate ice cream I went to church at seven to see G, H, W and Z. I got picked up at eight just so mum could shout at me about protein again and I got really angry and stormed out of the house.

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August 5th 2012

I woke up feeling so anxious about going out today.

I felt really sick after breakfast but I still managed to have a banana, some other fruit, and half a custard cream for snack.

I went into town with F and H and I had m first ever wagamamas and the portion was huge and it was probably meant for two people but I ate when they ate and stopped when the stopped, which was pretty much when I was full.

We went into Primark and tried on onesies and I had so much fun for a change.

I was so anxious over how much I ate at lunch but H and F got a cake at this little cafe so I had half a lemon-grass iced tea (only half because it was totally disgusting) and a cereal bar. I felt really anxious and low whilst we were there and even the waitress asked if i was okay because I apparently looked like I was about to cry.

I weighed myself before dinner and I was 42.8kg so i think I'll be okay for my weigh in on Tuesday.

I had weetabix for snack which made me super full and so after I just crashed from food-coma

[junkiepterodactyl]

July 21st 2012

This morning I had shreddies and buttered my toast properly and didn't dilute my milk. And then during the day between meals I had a pear and a plum and 4 flying saucers which was my first unhealthy snack at home even though they are only 5 calories each. I went to H and B's new house and it is so huge and lovely and H and I watched Ouran together

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July 8th 2012

I went shopping today and walked around town for 2 hours which was really nice because the weather was lovely.

i had nothing to do until we picked mum up from work and then we went to the allotment to pick radishes and I saved potatoes from evil weeds.

I'm really worried about tomorrow, I know I'll get told off for last week and told I can't go on holiday and that I will need to stay at a 7 day unit while they're away or they'll try to put my meal plan up. Urgh I hate this.

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July 7th 2012

This morning I went to help Granny and I was actually pretty happy and I have promised to go over as much as she needs me to because I want to make her less lonely and a bit happier if I can.

I came home for lunch and I hid quiche in my pants and tried to play piano for the first time in forever and then got my finger trapped in a door.

I went to church in the evening and spoke to friends and got invited to an 18th birthday and then went to do karaoke at a pub and it felt so normal and I was really content until now when I am lying in my bed feeling fat and gross and I don't want to go to my meeting on Monday because I'm just going to get shouted at and I just cannot be bothered to talk to them about anything.

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July 1st 2012

I went to a carboot sale this morning and got to walk around for about an hour until it started raining.

Because I'm having my scan on tuesday I asked if I could stay home tomorrow and we had a huge arguement about it and we were still undecided when I went to bed.

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June 30th 2012

This morning i went into town and walked around for a bit before going home and doing some chores and having lunch and then I went to help Granny for the afternoon which was nice, even though she made me sit down every 20 minutes so I didn't "use too much energy". At one point my aunt and uncle came round with my younger cousin who is my height but so slim I couldn't help but compare myself to her and I felt so shit for the rest of the time I was there.

Then in the evening I was meant to go to church but I walked the long way round and saw that it wasn't on tonight so I went on a walk for an hour through the countryside and even jogged some of the way before going home and telling mum I was at a friend's house.

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June 9th 2012

Mum and I went shopping this morning and ended up walking around camp hopson for 2 hours whilst mum was being indecisive about some ugly salad bowls. But I did get a new nightie and some shorts, aswell as Mulan on video from a charity shop.

Then we took O to a party and I had a wrap at lunch for the first time at home. It was quorn chicken slices with pickle but I think the pickle was off because it tasted funny and it made me feel sick.

We also went to the allotment for 4 hours and got lots done. Usually by this time I am desperate to get away from the house but the weekend has been nice so far, I'm just a bit upset that Mum is working tomorrow.