Hi, So I start my latest post with this vid in relation to my other vlog called 'Alienated people behind the times..." I know I discuss my experience at not having dated in 'Dating experience (inexperience)' but I am honestly really still stuck on 'Alienated'... real patience comes from quality character. As much as I've been all over the place trying and getting my politiqal front up and running there's nothing I would like more than just to sit back and lounge... lounge instead of worrying about completing chores in order to please those I love. Because the utensils will be *BACK* in the sink waiting for me like some bad time-travel-nauting with our sink looking like some unsightly crash site. I muchly prefer sitting at the recliner working in my notebook at something new and worthwhile to discuss with you. It can be a back breaking experience for me at times, while trying to please my mother. And at times she's hardly satisfied by my progress. So to keep happy, I do things that make the day worth it and keep myself company. Since I've joined the site, I've been doing my best to not let my insecurity over it get the best of me. I reveal most of what makes me insecure in "Alienated people behind the times". But I've bayed it from getting the sincerest part of me. It is not a war zone, even though there is the one presently being fought in the Ukraine I am just glad that the United States is the freeland that it is. And I don't have to go on thinking that things are an end all. It drags down the day as well as everyone with it. I have to try keeping things happily normal. Nothing short of it.... I have so much that I need done and have-needs-to-do that all I can do is turn my eyes skyward and give it to God up above us there, reminding me that everything I get anxious for, I'm only feeding it towards nothing but uncertainty and even worse possibly nothingness. But I confront the argument with a good fight.. I am still thankful about America though... . Opening up about it is a good thing for me. Its the best way to come clean about it. I would like some actual friends to share the experience with. Friends who are relative to the situation so they really see and understand what I am going and have been through as well as people I care about who i am invited in with.... So even if I am not dating for the time, for the most part, 🤔 I can have friends I may open up to that sincerely know me and willingly open up to me and it'll be okay.🙃 🤗