#whatireallyfeel

[king-pablo]

Just some things I’d like to say to my co workers

S- You’re a pretty cool dude, you’ve got the mindset of a 50 year older man and I’m surprised that you’re single.

W- I’m nosy and I’d like to know what’s going on between you and L, like it’s obvious that you two are fucking but I don’t see the point in trying to hide it. It’s obvious that there is something there

L- Why are you and W hiding, it’s sooooo obvious, you’re constantly around one another, you claim to have everything in order and maybe you do but I’ll bet you’re hearts not in order and you’re just taking each day by day.

A- I don’t understand why you’re so dirty, you’re a female. I’ve never ever met a female as dirty. You got a brand new car, 0 miles and within 4 months you’ve managed to trash it. It’s constantly dirty. Your home is a wreck I don’t understand how you can live in that filth.

F- I’ve got nothing against you. I’m sure you’re a cool dude we haven’t hung out much except for that road trip to the mountains.

[tecjim-blog]

3 things

There are 3 things that i hate the most; pretending, adjusting, and going home alone. To tell you frankly, im doing this most of the time. Once upon a time i was obliged. I don’t know what, i dont know why. But i felt obliged. I met 2 persons in my life. Yes it was fun, having that roller coaster feelings of joy when im with them, always cheering for more adventures upon going home. Yes it is fun, doing the 3 things that i hate the most.

Let me segregate the ideas that i hate. Once in a lifetime experience that i felt that there is a person i most wanted to be closest with. Cliché but no feelings attached. Then there’s this night when he’s. Yes he is. When he’s so good at making me feel like my worth is something that cannot be taken seriously. To break the record of clichés, i really don’t know why. I believe in the saying that three never works. That is when my first most hated thing will come in; pretending. Pretending in many things i don’t know because i don’t want to show him the side that I’m eager yet I’m hiding. Pretending. Pretending in a way that im always in between to show my not so serious affection towards this friendship i am calling. And to tell you again honestly. I don’t know why.

Then, my second thing i most hate will appear; adjusting. It’s hard for me when i adjust. But what can i do. Punyeta nga namang inferiority complex to. To think of it, im really sick of it. Forcing to believe in the things i should be believing when the contrast is right infront of my eyes, i often i ask my self why and fuck this shit i always come up with -because this is who you are.

Why? Why do i need to adjust? Why do i need to adjust to his preferences? Why the fuck is he not opening up to me when in fact I’m the one who’s always there? Why the fuck do i need to adjust when I’m hurting? Do i really need to adjust because i do not belong?

Out of attitude, i really feel angry. Making me feel that it is two not three. That I’m the only one whose alone when in fact I’m with them. I really feel angry. When the person i wanted to be closest with is with someone i’m closed with and i am envious. I really feel angry because he is close with people and not with me. Am i the "ibang tao" that he's saying? I really feel angry because why do i need to be the bigger person every time. I really feel angry when i am always told to understand him when in fact i need to be understood as well. I really feel angry because i was never understood. Not yet experienced. Not yet loved. Do i really feel angry or I’m just hurt?

Then my last most hated thing will come in; i need to go home by myself because it is only me who can understand myself. Only i can find the place “home”. To tell you honestly, my home is a very dark place.

[crazetocake-blog]

to my mom

mom, i hate it when you compare me with brother, you always brag about him. i know he’s better then me, he go to medical school, and become a doctor, he took all the sciences class, and you very proud of it, and you disappointed at me because i’m not taking the science class. mom i ever told i’m not really in to science. you told me to zig, but mom i zag. you always want me to become a doctor, but that’s not what i want. i told you what i want, but you disagree with it. you never agree with me after all. i always wrong in your eyes, you don’t even know me that well, dad understand me better then you. but now dad not in a great condition anymore, i can’t talk to him like i used to. mom you have to know, i’m an introvert, so it’s hard for me to express my feelings, so please, when i’m talking to you, don’t cut me, i never cut you, you don’t want to listen to what saying. you know mom i’m scared with my future, i’m scared with what will happen in the future to me. and the top of that you made me scared to go to the university, what major i should take. because in all the major i interested, seems like you don’t like it, so i don’t know what to do. mom please understand me more, because i always try to understand you. my i love you, but sorry i love dad better.

[phoenix789]

I wish my eyes would stop telling the truth and showing what I really feel.

-Phoenix789

[sibadindin-blog-blog]

Hey

When I saw you, all I felt was plain nothing. 

I don't care where you are right now

Or what you're doing

Or who you're with

Because you know what? I'm so over you. I'm over us or whatever happened between us. Yes for real. I guess this is my reward for spending seven lousy fucking months crying and being all broken-hearted over someone like you. 

Yes. Seven. But I don't care because right now, I can finally say I'M OVER. With no regrets, no flashbacks. 

Just plain truth.

[enangdolphin-blog]

All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to the other person to realize you're worth it.

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