Brain dump
23:40, Wednesday 1 April
You know bad decisions are only really bad if you feel bad about them. I used to feel guilty after doing certain things but it's like why should I? Like TMI but I've found the art of enjoying a self-given orgasm because why should I feel shame? Everytime I masturbate, be overly sexual, loud, annoying, perverted and weird I am defeating the patriarchy by ridding myself of my internalised misogyny and rebelling against the gender expectations. But that brings me to my point, that women are so judgemental of other women. Like I can say anything weird to my gay male friends and they will say never TMI but in female friendship groups you'll get attacked for being weird. I need weird, loud, annoying and perverted female friends please. I hate having friends with boyfriends who go on about "my man my man" like what about you? No way you've never touched yourself? Like I'm disappointed.
Anyways, I've been craving a burrito for like a month now. How do I get a burrito? If I ask for Mexican takeaway that's random. Gosh I can't wait to get a job and be able to just buy cravings on a whim and not wait. I've been craving that pink gum with the yellow wrapping that's in like tin foil for like years now. My cravings do not go away. They line up in my head, making a list of need to be eaten. They're always so weirdly specific aswell. Anyone else crave the Tesco chocolate cake when they're on their period? So amazing.