𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐢𝐞 🧸ྀི

𝜗𝜚⋆₊˚ 18, INFP pisces ₊˚⊹ ᰔ

[kelsiesmind]

About me 𐙚🧸ྀི˖

I'm 18 (2008), mixed (black+white), unlabelled (though I identify most with bisexual) and go by Kelsie.

I'm into spirituality, old black and white films, substack, conscious rap, recording life, reading, educating myself on anything I'm not knowledgeable in and people who are undeniably theirselves.

Some of my favourite movies are: the wizard of oz, but I'm a cheerleader, gone girl, in the heights, the devil wears prada, first daughter, charlie's angels, final destination, heathers and a streetcar named desire.

Favourite shows: moesha, girlfriends, fresh prince, skins, pretty little liars, gossip girl, criminal minds, law and order svu.

Artists I'm obsessed with at the moment are Stella Donnelly and Doechii.

Although I love Neapolitan, my favourite colour is is actually purple.

I'm not mysterious or quiet - I love talking to people so I'd love to be friends.

I'm here to blog, connect with people and romanticise my life!

Other

🍨 pinterest - divineaura

🍨 letterboxd - tamzs

🍨 spacehey - kelsiesblog

. ۫ ꣑ৎ dividers @anitalenia ♡

[kelsiesmind]

Cafe dump

30 APRIL - SOCIO REVISION

Chill day, breakfast at the village cafe and light revision doing essay plans for paper 2.

Exam season

12 MAY - NIGHT BEFORE LIT EXAM

Went to the library but was not feeling the vibes. The study bit felt very policed with the librarians walking around with lanyards and I saw people from school, these girls came in and stared at me then left. The space was just very anxiety provoking, wasted an hour in there before I went to a cafe. They did cute art on the coffee, felt a lil cramped but was cosy after I calmed down. Revised some Othello (Shakespeare has my heart) and then went back to my nans. The paper was mid, I liked the Othello question, Gatsby was ok and unseen poetry was absolutely awful. Hope I get a B but I feel the A is long gone.

14 MAY - PSYCH CRAM DAY BEFORE EXAM

Was so scared for this one, as you can see I spend a lot of money on drinks. The first one was a hot chocolate, but I ended up having 3 caffeinated drinks. Did not help the anxiety. Revised attachment in the morning, social influence in the afternoon when I met up with my friend. Did a little psychopathology when I got back to my nans. Stressed the whole night and tried to stay up but failed. Revised memory on the bus to the exam. Exam turned out okay.

19 MAY - PSYCH CRAM DAY BEFORE EXAM

Obviously haven't learnt my lesson. Seems I will be cramming psychology the whole way through. Did research methods in the morning and biopsychology in the afternoon when I met with my friend. Got distracted by certain people showing up then got stressed when I arrived back at my nans. All nighter failed again. Was so tired as I had to wake up at 5:30AM, fell back asleep and had 10 minutes to get ready and run out the door for my bus. Did approaches an hour before the exam as it's a simple topic. Was actually a really good paper, even better then paper 1 I feel.

Half term

More coffees to come after I hope - universe send money my way.

[kelsiesmind]

Brain dump

18:58, Sunday 10 May

FUCKKKKKKK my life.

Fucking alevels. Fucking revision. Kill me.

Guys I hate waking up because it means revision.

I'm tired.

Wednesday paper 1 literature kill me please.

I'm gonna cry.

[kelsiesmind]

Brain dump

11:33, Sunday 19 April

Gosh. My first exam is less than a month away. I told myself I had so much time. I really need to lock in spend my time more efficiently.

That being said maybe I need to ban myself from tiktok until I feel in a good place. And get back to Pilates and yoga as that makes me feel good. I stopped bc it takes time but that's because I haven't been managing my time, it wouldn't feel like that if I cut down on waiting around.

No tiktok, no entertaining weirdos, no chasing, and no waiting around for it to happen.

Only a few more months, almost there.

[mother-of-mayflowers]

stealing this tag game from @runa-reblogs — type “my vibe” into pinterest and use the first four pins

@trigona-hypogea @echoingrainydays @dystopian-damnation @honeydewdrops333 @starloving-186 @parapetowki @anthropophagiaa

[starloving-186]

yay tag game!!

here's what I got @mother-of-mayflowers

opt: @buffatronnie @miss-placed-whimsy @wistriverside @urvirtualanqel

[aangelscent-deactivated20260516]

oo thanks for tagging me

sorry i’ve been so busy but i have a chance to do this now!

dont know what that second picture is doing there..

@11e3n44 @fawnloser @unicornincarnated @madysdiaries

[madysdiaries]

Tysm for the tag!! ^-^

Next:: @nellsnorm @kelsiesmind @snoopyscoop @alexandersghost

[kelsiesmind]

Omg I feel special thank you

Idkk @cinemonbitch @jacklesprincess @kittiesparkles

[kelsiesmind]

୨୧ Spring Diaries ୨୧

Cherry blossoms, fresh air, tropical smoothies, fruit salad, birds chirping, iced coffees, sunbathing, new beginnings, peace

⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ Watch list ⋆. 𐙚

Uptown girls (2008)

Crossroads (2002)

Legally blonde (2001)

The secret garden (1993)

Marie antoinette (2006)

Emma (2020)

Alice in wonderland (1951)

⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ Reading list ⋆. 𐙚

It's exam season you have no time to read 😞

Spotify

[kelsiesmind]

Brain dump

23:40, Wednesday 1 April

You know bad decisions are only really bad if you feel bad about them. I used to feel guilty after doing certain things but it's like why should I? Like TMI but I've found the art of enjoying a self-given orgasm because why should I feel shame? Everytime I masturbate, be overly sexual, loud, annoying, perverted and weird I am defeating the patriarchy by ridding myself of my internalised misogyny and rebelling against the gender expectations. But that brings me to my point, that women are so judgemental of other women. Like I can say anything weird to my gay male friends and they will say never TMI but in female friendship groups you'll get attacked for being weird. I need weird, loud, annoying and perverted female friends please. I hate having friends with boyfriends who go on about "my man my man" like what about you? No way you've never touched yourself? Like I'm disappointed.

Anyways, I've been craving a burrito for like a month now. How do I get a burrito? If I ask for Mexican takeaway that's random. Gosh I can't wait to get a job and be able to just buy cravings on a whim and not wait. I've been craving that pink gum with the yellow wrapping that's in like tin foil for like years now. My cravings do not go away. They line up in my head, making a list of need to be eaten. They're always so weirdly specific aswell. Anyone else crave the Tesco chocolate cake when they're on their period? So amazing.

[kelsiesmind]

I love when birds sit outside my window. Might aswell dedicate a tumblr tag to them because where else would I talk about my love for birds or appreciate the small things?

This bird is a Eurasian collared dove according to Google. They apparently symbolise peace and renewal. Here they are hiding from the rain, or hail?

[kelsiesmind]

Fit check

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Brain dump

00:17, Sunday 15 March

Fuck

No full stop no exclamation just Fuck

That's how I feel right now.

I'm scared to write in my journal. I found it downstairs, in the kitchen drawer. Life's mean. It was literally under my bed. I was even getting more open. When I felt it was missing the feeling of being 9 years old again and being yelled at for having feelings and writing them in the locked diary they bought me set in. Apparently children are not people. No matter how old they are.

Life is like a rollercoaster but more like in the way you're excited to get on but then your soul leaves your body as it starts and you're like I was not expecting this and when it ends you're not sure if you love or hated that but when you get home you want to go again. I wanna do it again even though it hurt me because it was fun at the start. With him. Is it bad I don't care if people don't want me to do it and it might hurt some people? I feel horrible but I told myself the guilt and honesty about it was enough. It doesn't matter now anyway, he was inconsistent in his feelings, dishonest even, like they all are. Now I see why they say your best friends brother is off limits. Please let me stop jumping into things and wasting my time.

I guess, apart from all these feelings, combined with fear of A-Levels which are 2 months away, I feel pretty good right now.

I did some Pilates and stretching this week, despite starting my period which I normally quit as soon as the cramps roll in. I'm proud of myself. I feel the difference in my body, and I feel better, lighter.

Really I feel better overall, I feel hopeful and very loving towards myself. I love me lately and I love that!

[kelsiesmind]

Brain Dump 02:38

Why do guys tell you they have feelings first and act so obsessive when you don't like them then when you reciprocate those feelings they're now the one leaving you on delievered and suddenly can't even say they like you. Brother I didn't even like you at first. I was peaceful why couldn't you have left me alone. UGHHHHH.

[kelsiesmind]

Fit Check

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Friday the 13th

Felt cvnt, might delete later xx

[kelsiesmind]

Self love February

February seems to be one of the most hated months and as a February baby I can say I take the hate personally. I know saying your birthday month is your favourite month is extremely biased, but I love February. There's love in the air! Yes, I have been single since I entered the world and I ocassionally hate on public displays of affection from couples as we all do, but who says I can't appreciate the lovey dovey vibe of February?

With Valentines around the corner, we dread the day of year that reminds us of all our failed talking stages, insufferable exes, or the fact we've never even had a chance at love. However, why should the day of love only be for couples? Why not make Valentine's Day your birthday and celebrate yourself? Celebrate your friendships? Familial love? Your passions? Make it a day to appreciate all the different types of love in the world. Including the love you have for yourself. Because everytime you invest in your hobbies and interests, try to be gentle on yourself, commit to habits and routines, wash your hair and face, hang out with those who make you feel better, eat your favourite food, rewatch your favourite movie or listen to your favourite song, you are loving yourself.

[kelsiesmind]

i love u lots like polka dots

[kelsiesmind]

Brain Dump

21:18, Friday 30 January

I feel like I have the opposite of insomnia. I won't feel tired but next thing I know I've woken up from a 2-3 hour nap and wasted my whole afternoon. And I'll be even more tired so the only thing I can bring myself to do is go back to sleep. But since I've already slept I fall in and out of sleep or just lay there awake but not being able to open my eyes.

And I'll wake up around this time and everyone else is still awake and being loud and I'll be annoyed because I want peace and quiet. Like right now. I can't wait for uni. I'm gonna thrive.

[kelsiesmind]

Monday: The Moon

The moon symbolises intuition, healing, safety and emotions.

BEST DAY FOR: connecting with your dreams, planning ahead, being gentle, planting seeds for goals, journaling, self reflection, mindfulness

The dread of Monday is reflective of the moon and its constant changing. It brings ups and downs which may weirdly make us calm and moody at the same time. If you're someone who starts everything on Monday yet ends up collapsing mid day, try slowing down and working with the energy of the moon. Use Monday for rest, movement, planning the week ahead and reflection. Pay attention to your body's needs and look inwards, allow yourself to be emotional. Let yourself fall into productivity instead of forcing it.

IDEAS

Yoga

Meditation

Herbal teas

Nature walks

Personal planning

Journaling

Cleansing / clearing your space

Protection, emotional healing spells

Dreamwork

Jasmine + chammomile scents

EXTRAS

Sign: cancer

Element: water

Energy: yin (feminine)

Crystal: moonstone