Was he that... innocent? No... So why did he believe in that guy? Why did he expect that his love was returned in the same way? Why did he expect that this guy would understand? Why did he open himself to him? Oh... right... love. The last shred of hope, hope that he was worth something, of anything other than for his looks and body.
As he watches the guy walk away, he sits down on his couch, hands in his face as he takes a deep breath, reality is... He would never be enough... He would never be worthy of anything other than his look and body. Wasn't that what daddy said? That the only reason he was caught in the street was because he looked too good and was worth being used?
So... He remembers Bianchi sending another text about her going to Japan and that he should go there, at least she could provide a house and a place for him to stay, better than staying around Italy in that shit place. So he did, booking the flight, packing his things, and going. What he would do? What he was gonna change? Does he want to change? Yes...
No more love.
Be a whore, since his body is all that is worth... Be a complete and totally a whore, use it, work with it.
But most important... No more telling his past... That was disgusting after all, with Shamal's help changing his name, erasing his whole past, changing everything was easy. Watching the sky change colors in the plane he couldn't help other than feel the tight squeeze in his heart.
Happy birthday...
When he landed it was easy with the small connections of Bianchi and Shamal for him to settle down, find a small apartment, and then start working as a prostitute. His only requirement other than payment? Always use condoms. What happened to him? He was okay with anything and everything.
The price was different from what you wanted, yes sex was one, but if you actually wanted to have more sadistic pleasure, then it was another. For a while, Hayato even accepted to be sexually tortured, as far as it wasn't dismembering or permanent damage and you paid very well. That is how he ended up being on the dark side of the prostitute workers.
Did he regret it? No.
Was his self esteem fixed? Far away from it, but he was winning money, he was able to actually keep his mind clean and calm. He was enjoying sex, and that is honestly all that mattered. His clients were satisfied, he could keep living...
So why after having sex with one specific client it felt so... wrong? Why he felt that squeeze again? Why his heart was pounding loudly in his chest? Why was he... No... No love.
Hayato took that as a sign for him to work more, for him to actually fall more, he shouldn't, he wouldn't let himself fall in love again. He wouldn't let himself attach himself to anyone again. Every minute, every second... he would sleep with anyone who paid him, no rest, no time to stop.
But Hibari Kyoya kept returning... Hibari Kyoya kept... slowly... With his awkward kindness and coldness, breaking those walls. Hibari Kyoya...
Fuck... I fell... Fell so hard... In love with him... Mumbling the words as tears fell down.
He wasn't ready... So... he did what he does best. Drown himself in work, avoid Hibari... Because everything would be fine right? Hibari was cold, Hibari didn't have feelings for him. So it would be okay to avoid him. Also, Hibari Kyoya the Tenth Cloud Guardian of Vongola, could have anyone, so why... He was just a sex worker, there was no reason for Hibari to look for him again.
Be happy.
He may not know Hibari's past, but he knows one thing... There was no way, no fucking way, that Hibari Kyoya would want someone as disgusting as him. Who was only worth it for his look and body. There was no way.
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'oh.'
There's that same old spark in the Varia leader that Dino remembered. Hot tempered and impatient as
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"Only if you were dead. Then your speaking is no more."
Both of the casualty and carefree atmosphere weren't strong enough to put him in a good mood. If it wasn't obvious, Xanxus would never be in a /good/ mood but he can be less hostile when he wanted to do sometimes.
His voice was deep while his stare from his crimson eyes was quite intense as his firm grip on his glass. The male didn't smile at him, not even once -- he only appreciated the best thing in the world.
"Violence isn't just an answer but it's the solution."
Though it was an alternate version of the intimidation. A grumpy gunslinger tried his best to be sociable in his horrible way; Xanxus talked about death and pain as he was telling Dino about the weather. However, he didn't carry his dearest double guns with him, maybe his guest would be able to notice his friendliness somehow.
"Your family business isn't mine yet I'm not someone that might laugh along with you easily."
"Hibari-san, what do you do when a Mist guardian flirts with you?" Tsuna was in a bad situation and needed his Cloud's advice.
UKIGUMOS - »❝浮雲❞«
A wave of nausea crashed inside his stomach at the combination of words that unfortunately plagued his ears. Kyouya's lips turned into a thin line.
Either this Inconsistent Critter was pushing his buttons on purpose, or he was indeed, a naive and clueless little thing. Either conclusion wouldn't help with alleviating the disgusting sensation spreading throughout his body.
"Bite it to death."
He replied matter-of-factly.
"It's an eyesore, no? Then eliminate it from your vicinity."
Hm. There it was. The brightly toned voice that veiled melancholy from within. Kyouya's fingertips straightened the cuffs of his own shirt, bringing his mind back to the external world.
"Yamamoto Takeshi."
His gaze traveled over his shoulder, although barely.
"What business do you have here?"
Kyouya's tone was surprisingly bitter, even to himself.
There was usually only one reason why Yamamoto Takeshi would approach on his own, and that would be to work his persuasive tongue for those critters.
Sarina looked down at the blood splattered on the ground. It oozed further outward from the body, the splatter on the walls oozing slowly downwards. She glanced at the blade marks on the walls, ceiling, and floor. Violet eyes took in the carnage, but the body clearly was also shot. The Varia assassin stopped in her tracks and turned towards Gokudera.
Amethysts narrowed on the silver-haired young man. “Signore Reborn wanted me to train you for your position as Decimo’s right hand for a while. Again, it won’t be easy, and we’re under a time constraint. The authorities will be here in mere hours. The man killed is one of the Vongola’s. I’d like you to figure out who killed him, track the assassin, and kill them. I will be assisting you, but you will not have much time as the assassin will most likely be trying to leave the country,” Sarina briefed Gokudera. “And the authorities will be on the case. After you successfully killed the assassin, I want you to write me a report on why you think this mission pertains to you as Sawada-kun’s future right hand.”
Sarina threw a crime scene kit towards Gokudera. “You’ll be given a lifeline. Hibari-kun. There should be an understanding between the Cloud and Storm Guardians. Cloud Guardians are not easy to deal with, and they prefer to work alone. So far, you’ve worked with the other Guardians and a little with Hibari-kun against Mukuro-kun from intelligence,” she said. “Remember to give yourself some breaks, but know you are under immense stress to get this mystery solved.” She went to stand by the door. “The file on the victim was graciously put together by Signore Basil. You won’t have such luck in the future. Ready? Go.”
Belated Birthday gift to Chrome since Tumblr ate the last one!
Mukuro looked all around Kokuyou and Namimori until he found something he thought was perfect for her, a butterfly skull hair clip set. Placing them in a small indigo jewelry box Mukuro handed them over with a smile. "Happy Birthday, Nagi."
Mukuro had gotten her butterfly clips with skulls on them. They were really cute, and reminded her a little bit of Wang Die and Chandra, her butterfly and moth boxed weapons. She looked up at Mukuro with a smile before putting the clips in her hair.
"Thank you, Mukuro! These should also work to keep the bangs out of my eyes when I cook," she added. She gave Mukuro a hug.
"Oi! Chrome! You wanna spar together sometime?" Gokudera asked, he needed to get better against illusionists if he was being honest.
She looked up at Gokudera. She tapped the side of her knuckle against her lips in thought. Chrome really needed to get better at melee combat as well. She was way behind the others. She did not want to bring her fellow illusionist down. Gokudera was also ranged but he had a few tricks up his sleeve that involved closer combat.
"I'd like that, Gokudera-kun," she replied with a small smile. "When are you free? And where should we spar?"
Kokuyoland would have been perfect for such, but it was Mukuro's hidden HQ. They would need to find another abandoned area for an arena.