kind of obsessed with how the Eel's name is Elli
my deadname is Ellie
and yeah we're both fundamentally different. the Eel is made up of bodies that were once human. i'm a guy now.
but i still feel this weird connection to her now that i know her name. i was different once. so was she. we each started as something and became something else. not entirely by choice (though under different circumstances).
but i keep having the thought that while, yeah, she's the monster in the movie, she's still made up of all these different people who wanted something. they wanted to live. and so did i. so i transformed to survive. so did they.
idk maybe this is stupid but it just keeps circling around in my head. part of me feels weirdly connected to that Eel. that Elli. a part of every human she's absorbed lives on through her (evidenced by the voice of the SM-8 researcher). part of the girl i was still lives on through me.
it may be stupid, but i vibe with her. we are, both of us, creatures transformed
