Who's MC - part 5 Drinking Partner
You are not here because you were forced to do that. There was absolutely no violence nor blackmailing involved. You are here simply because you want to. Simple as that. In this mad hole that they called Paradise, you are indeed the only one that was not brainwashed, and intoxicated because you needed none of that. You have been living in the realm of madness far longer than you could've remembered and you understand the life with a disruptive mental wellbeing better than anything. So despite how crazy it seems to outsider, you actually enjoy being here. Along with your one and only real friend, Saeran. Why? People wondered. Imagine spending your whole life living with an overloaded busy mind that never stops thinking, never stops whispering nonsenses to you. It's being followed by a voice that knows all of your insecurities and uses them against you. It's having trouble falling asleep every night because you know even when you drifted into the dreamland you can't escape from the nightmare you're living with everyday. It's knowing that your irrational thoughts are nonsense but believe them anyway. Living with depression is like you're drowning and nobody sees you struggle. It's like the floating iceberg, all you ever see is the part above the surface, when in reality the biggest problems lie beneath it. Just like that, everyone sees you smile but they never see you crumble. Despite all of that, you have to put on a beautiful smile everyday, faking your happiness, your life and even your real self from everyone, including your beloved twin sister. However, here, beside Saeran things are different. You can drop those masks when you're with him. You can be unreasonable, crazy, emotional and clingy etc. You can be anything yet he understands. And the same applies to him. Because you guys are different yet the same. The children that grew up with corruption in their hearts. You encountered him a few months ago when you were very down and stressed out about everything in your life. When everything you supposed to love doing becomes a chore and giving up on everything seems to be a huge relief, you went out for a drink. Of course, you didn't tell your housemates that. You told them that you had a private one-on-one tutorial session to attend. None of them suspected a word you said, since you "are" the typical "good girl" in the house. You have never attended any party since the beginning of uni, all you do is study, eat, study, study, sleep, study. Even your hobbies are the highly intelligent types: chess, reading, classical music. Well, not because they haven't seen you done it means you don't do it. You don't like parties since they are too prone to accidents and 'unpleasant' scenarios. Since you possess such good and vivid memory, you prefer not to engrave it with those troublesome images. You simple enjoy drinking a few cans of beers while stargazing on the lawn of the hill behind your house. Funny how you spent hours sitting there drinking, swearing, laughing and throwing tantrums and there was an audience sitting there and enjoyed the whole lively scenario that you caused. That person was Saeran, Saeran Choi. With bleached silver hair and a pair of green eyes (which you then learned that they were only contact lens) the charming guy immediately captivated you attention. He was lying on the grass not too far away from you, with a bunch of cats wandering and sleeping around him. It indeed was a very calming and sweet little moment. You was embarrassed from being heard and watched by a stranger in the most awkward situation ever. ( ;∀;) And he smiled. "You have a sister?" "Yeah... a twin sister." "I also have... I mean had one, a twin brother." "... Is he..?" "That person doesn't exist anymore." His face didn't show any emotion and his voice was soft but you could feel the pain in his words. "Ah... Sorry." "Don't be." He stopped then continued. "What a strange drinking spot to be chosen by someone like you." "Someone like me?" You were intrigued. "Pardon my choice of words, I just thought that you don't look like someone who likes drinking alone." "I don't. I just don't want the others to know that I drink." "Oh a secret drinker! Then, do you mind me joining you?" For a moment you thought, "I'm so glad I came out here to drink." "Yeah why not?"











