I feel so lonely. I'm an introject of a kpop idol people hate. I'm not the only one, but I'm one of the most infamously hated. It was over allegations that weren't even proven to be true (won't say they're not, I don't know, no one can say).
But I came into the system with my own sourcemates fearing me because of hyper-specific exomemories. And I can't fault them for it, but I can't help but feel like I came into the system pre-destined to be hated. It doesn't help that I'm a prosecutor (persecutor-protector) and I can be kind of intimidating as a result.
It's already lonely, feeling like there aren't any adult-bodied systems with kpop introjects who would understand. But then add on the fact that I'm an introject of someone either hated or defended like a martyr when I want to be neither...I just want to be a person. I want to be seen.
Any feedback, both from OP and commenters, is appreciated. Thank you.
-- Jacob Sky (introject of Woojin from SKZ)
hi Jacob Sky, thank you for sending this. followers, feel free to respond!
it's hard to know whether allegations are true or not. it's okay not to know and to have complicated feelings about it 💙
being a persecutor-protector and kinda intimidating shouldn't be grounds for people to disrespect you. i'm sorry to hear that people have been fearing you because of exomemories... you're not the ones hurting them specifically. i understand their fear, but it's not fair for them to take it out on you. ;A;
you deserve to be treated like a person. you are one. you have feelings, boundaries, and complexities. i wish people would see that, and see you. ( ´･n･)
we're an adult-bodied system with a k-pop fucktive. we don't know all of the news and drama, but we sympathize with you. if you need to talk to us personally, let me know. take care, Jacob Sky.
-mod espresso