tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay, swearing
Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.
Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.
note: this is my first smau so I'm excited to be stepping into unknown territory as a writer. this series is inspired by @hyuuukais "sunshine and strawberries" series, and I definitely recommend giving the series a read!
bonkers | strays
one - considering murder
two - not so great first impressions
three - holy shit (w)
four - i'm gonna kill you
five - hey
six - new friend
seven - studio lovers
eight - sunshine (w)
nine - bros before hoes
ten - what does he know
eleven - she's a bitch
twelve - the fall festival (w)
thirteen - yujin ON MAIN???
fourteen - instagram
fifteen - what actually happened
sixteen - bye-bye mid-terms
seventeen - second times a charm (w)
eighteen - the plot thickens (w)
tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay
Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.
Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.
tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay
Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.
Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.
note: content warning!!! - discussions of abandonment, hints at domestic abuse
| MASTERLIST
A few minutes later, Eva found herself gently knocking on the door to Felix's dorm. Anxiously fidgeting with her rings, she waited for the door to open.
The door did open, but it was an unfamiliar face at the other end.
"Hi- um, are you Hyunjin? I'm here for Felix."
"That's me," The taller boy smiled, "Come in."
Eva stepped into the dorm and was instantly surprised by the aesthetic and cleanliness of the room. The small living space containing a simple kitchenette and couch was decorated in a soft, cozy vibe, with various paintings hanging on the walls.
"His door is the one with the ivy on it," Hyunjin said, gesturing to one of the three doors attached to the small main room. "If you two need anything let me know."
"Thanks..." Eva awkwardly said, kicking off her boots and heading to Felix's bedroom.
Gently rapping on the door, she leaned on it.
"Lixie? It's me, Eva."
There was all the way, and then the door slowly opened.
Eva was about to complain about almost falling but stopped when she caught sight of her younger cousin. The hood of his jumper was pulled all-the-way up, obscuring some of his face. She hadn't seen him this sad since they were young when she was saying goodbye to them at the airport.
"Thanks," Felix said quietly, as she entered the room and closed the door behind her.
All the lights were off in the bedroom, but even in the dark she could see the clean and cozy decoration of the main room carried into Felix's bedroom.
Eva followed Felix to the bed, pulling him into a hug once they were seated.
"What's up?" She asked softly, squeezing him gently.
He pulled her closer, burying himself in her hold, head on her shoulder, as if he was trying to make himself as small as possible.
"Do you wanna lay down and cuddle?"
He nodded his head against her skin, "Hold me?"
Slowly, as it was more difficult while she was still hugging him, she shuffled back on the bed until she was against the headboard. She spread her legs wider on the bed before slowly pulling a stray blanket over-top of the two of them.
He shifted, so that he was laying in between her legs but left one leg sprawled over hers at an odd angle, arms tight around her waist. His hood had fallen off in their shifting, so she began gently combing through his hair, smiling softly to herself as he hummed against her skin.
They laid in silence for awhile before Felix finally spoke again, "Why'd you leave?"
"You know that already, my father couldn't stand Sydney after my mom died."
"No, why did you leave. You stopped talking to us completely after two years and never answered anyone's mail or phone calls. I love having you back, Ev, butit'ss been seven years since any of us heard from you. I didn't even know that you were studying dance or were attending University?"
She bit her lip, holding him a little tighter.
"I didn't have control of the situation, Lix."
"You reached out to my mom over Facebook, you could've done that years ago."
"I couldn't have, Lix."
"It's easy-"
"It wasn't!"
She hated that she raised her voice to Felix, body instantly tensing.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have raised my voice, please forgive me."
"You don't have to apologize," Felix said, finally looking up at her and moving away from her shoulder. "I just want to know why you abandoned us."
"You remember my dad?" Eva said, her voice quiet and meek.
"Overprotective and a little weird, but other than that he's alright?" Felix said, "Why do you ask?"
"He's- he wasn't like that after we moved. I don't know what happened after my mom died, but he... he changed." Eva said, "Overprotective is sugar-coating for what he was like."
"Was? Is he-"
"Dead? Yeah."
"What? How? Why?"
She curled up, avoiding her gaze as tears began to form.
"We-, it was normal-" Her voice broke as she was overcome with the need to hide, "Forget I said anything-"
"No." Felix pulled out of her hold, sitting up and cupping her face so she looked up at him. "Eva, what happened."
"He found my acceptance letter for Seoul Arts, and when we were in the car, he-" She sniffled, "He confronted me about it. He's usually mad, but was furious- about me breaking his rules. He took his hand off the wheel to-"
She cut herself off, pulling out of Felix's hold to curl away, out of view. But he was faster, gently tugging on her shoulders to pull her closer. She allowed it, curling into him and trying to focus on his heartbeat, his warmth, anything but what her brain was conjuring.
"He didn't see the car coming his way. T-Bone, on his side. Killed him."
She was so cold in his hold, so small and so scared.
"After all these years, he seemed invincible. In one moment he's threatening to leave me stranded on the side of the road, and next he's dead. He's gone yet I can't forget him, can't forget it."
"Did- does my mom know?"
"Yeah. My only emergency contact was him, but your mom was the witness on my birth certificate. They called her."
"Ev, I'm sorry what happened to you. I wish-"
"You wouldn't have been able to do anything. He had years to poison you guys in my mind, I only started unlearning when I went to university."
"But I could've been there for you."
"Lix, he had me on lockdown. I didn't even know you guys had been trying to reach me. We moved from Madríd after six months. Anything you would've sent would go to someone else."
"Nothing was ever returned to us."
"That's a question for a dead man then."
"Among many."
The two cousins sat in silence, holding one another as they cried, the world outside the cozy dark room forgotten.
tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay
Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.
Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.
tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay
Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.
Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.
MASTERLIST
she missed this feeling.
the moving rainbow lights, music that reverberated in her chest, and the mindless sway of bodies.
no one was anyone.
it was her heaven.
she smiled as hayoon squeezed her waist, making a kissy face at her friend as they swayed in unison. dahee and yuijin were right next to them, the two of them all but grinding on each other to the hyuna song playing. running her manicured fingers through her hair as she tilted her head back, letting hayoon's hands on her waist dictate their movement.
"I love this song!" yuijin yelled into some guy's ear, the shots they took earlier clearly hitting her.
"I love you!" an equally drunk dahee yelled back.
eva let out a genuine laugh at her friends' antics, the melodic noise counteracting the blaring base.
across the club, felix and his friends had just gotten their drinks from the bar, snagging a table near the dance floor.
"this place is cool!" jeongin said, looking around the place in awe.
"I know right! it's been open for like two years." hyunjin said, already grooving to the music, "Finish your drinks so we can dance!"
only a few obliged his request, including felix himself. he and hyunjin had been here many times before, so navigating the sea of bodies was easy. felix brought jisung into the mix with them by the hand, letting go once they found a spot to dance.
the beat shifted to something faster, and Felix lost himself in the rapid movements of the people dancing around him, letting it all take hold of him.
his eyes moved to hyunjin, who was dancing with a pretty brunette in a dazzling silver top and black pants.
he's fine
his eyes moved to jisung, making sure his other friend was okay. he nearly elbowed the person next to him.
jisung was dancing with eva, and the pair were quite handsy with one another, jisung's hands tight on her waist and her head cocked back on his shoulder.
he shouldn't be surprised. jisung did say his goal was to get a pretty girl's number tonight. and he wouldn't be able to recognize her from lunch earlier in the week, seeing as she ran away to the bathroom before he even was her face.
didn't make it any less weird for him.
unable to relax to the music anymore, he tried to move through the crowd towards the pair but found himself unable to move around the grinding bodies around him.
he'd find the pair later before it went any farther, hopefully.
tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay
Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.
Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.
tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay
Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.
Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.
tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay, swearing
Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.
Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.
