#wordsofrusy

[itspouringwords]

how could you feel enough of someone?

idk

it’s just..

you’re enough

your existence in my life

is just

more than enough

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i still remember those eyes sparked

feels like time stops for a little while

the clock is ticking

i still remember the heartbeat

just like one of One Directions’ song

first love never goes wrong

they said.

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#26

i might not be ready to not see notifications from you on the phone

i might not be ready to unlock my phone then see our picture together as my wallpaper

i might not be ready to text you with one or two words

i might not be ready to not reply your messages as soon as possible

i might not be ready to see then move the picture of us to the trash

i might not be ready to not feel my heart beating while you're typing

i might not be ready to change your contact name without love emoji

i might not be ready to not talk with you 100 times a day

i might not be ready to fall in love with another soul

i might not be ready to feel empty

but you already gone.

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#25

deciding to leave the past is one of the hardest things

leaving all the beloved people youve ever known back then

i am

to many heartbreaks

[itspouringwords]

melupakan hujan

hujan mungkin datang disaat waktu-waktu tertentu

tapi tak jarang ia datang tanpa permisi dan pulang tanpa pamit

mungkin akan susah jadinya jika ia sudah berkali-kali datang

susah untuk mengabaikan keberadaannya

namun bagaimana jika ia hanya datang untuk berkenalan lalu pergi?

pergi yang tak akan digantikan kehadirannya oleh hujan yang lain

diantara titik-titik hujan itu hanya ada satu titik berbentuk bulat sempurna seperti bulan baru dilangit

aku memang senang jika hujan datang menghampiriku apalagi disaat ku menyeduh kopi diujung jendela kedai kopi

mungkin bukan aku, tapi ini tentang hujan dan kopi

ah kalian berdua memang candu

melupakan hujan ku harus melagu

untuk mengusir sendu

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#24

it's been a long time since the last time I listened to my favorite song on the radio

apparently the radio often plays my favorite songs

then I always listen to the radio

I set the frequency and let it always there

I never change into another frequency

until there comes someday I find out the radio has not clear sound

it's like you turn to different frequency

to others

but I did not

why should I? I never want to loose something I like, I love

never in my life

I tried many times

many different frequencies

to find it

I am between give up and have last struggle

I turn the first frequency back

put it where it was

in my desperation time having no hopes at all just you know like if there was a bird then let it flies

I heard something common to my ears

maybe I was drunk

but the sound becomes clearer to me

damn, I just need to relax and let it be

maybe I was too scared to loose, too high to fall

I realize what is mine will be mine even I might almost loose it but it would come back to where it was at first

are we in the same frequency yet?

in the same feet of height?

[itspouringwords]

disini hujan tapi tenang saja saya tidak menggigil kedinginan mungkin karena rindu itu hangat

—koma

[itspouringwords]

today,

i have found a warmest place ever

a place to cheers

a place to cry

a place to hold on

a place to encourage

a place to empower

a place to sit when i cant stand still

a place that i have dreamed about since then

a place that would accept you the way you are

a place that could remind you to get home really soon

a place with a million stories a million knowledge

a place with sameness

a place with hopes

a place that our future waitin for

a place with space but i do really love him so whatevs

to that man, thank you for findin me when i almost lost, thank you for noticin me even it takes time, i hope we can run our future together,

your forever silly girl,

r.

-juanda airport, 3rd July 2018