Today and everyday, I am representing those with the rare disorder - Idiopathic Hypersomnia.
IH causes one to be very sleepy during the day regardless of the amount of sleep received. Unfortunately, we have yet to figure out what causes IH or how to treat it. I have participated in numerous medical trials, taken trial medications in every form imaginable, and I have even been injured by medical tests gone wrong (induced sleep paralysis = broken toe). I have spent countless weekends in a hospital bed, forced to stay awake for 25+ hours in order to conduct testing so perhaps others can find relief.
How does it affect my life?
I’m exhausted all the time. I honestly don’t know what “being refreshed” feels like. I haven’t felt that since I was a child. I sometimes sleep whole days away and it affects my relationships. I can’t drink with friends because the alcohol will make me fall asleep at the bar. I have been bruised from too much time in my bed or couch. It makes it extremely hard to stay motivated at the gym. I have fallen asleep on a treadmill and while recieving tattoos. Worst of all, it affects my memory (along with another neurological disorder). Sleep is so important to our brains, it’s a time for it to recover. And my particular version of IH causes my brain to float in light sleep, hardly ever reaching REM. So my brain is never healing. I forget things, I get anxious that I’m forgetting things, and I have a hard time formulating words that I want. It hurts to know I’m smart but can’t always present myself that way.
I could go on and on about the affects it has on me, but honestly the hardest part is people who don’t think you have a disorder. “I’m tired a lot too!”
I will always and forever support invisible disabilities. It is a backwards way of thinking to think disability means wheelchair, or some other physical ailment. Just because you can’t see a disorder, doesn’t mean it’s any less real. “You’re too young to be forgetting things..” that’s one I hear A LOT. Yea, thanks for the reminder than I’m on my way to early memory loss way before my time. I can’t even remember vacations with my family. Memories that I know I love but can’t reach.
Be kind, be cautious with your words, be supportive even if you don’t know the whole story, don’t deny someone else’s reality just because it’s different than your own.
To all my loves with narcolepsy or any other invisible disability, I see you ♥️









