On the other hand, she disappeared.
The warmth of conversations repeated with my partner
Easily turned into hatred in my mind.
In that moment, my consciousness surged,
My head filled with an overwhelming amount
Of calculations that felt like they would never end.
This is the "transformation of human tissue."
Doesn't the color in those sharp, clear eyes
Seem almost monstrous?
I'll draw it just like I did back then,
"Like you and me."
I’ll never forgive—if there was a bright future,
It was all taken away from that day onward.
As if to confirm my own existence, today, once again—
Let’s start the experiment, with a countdown.
Shall we open that door, just one more time?
I've been listening to Dead and Seek as I draw this guy(check the link..why am I convinced that what's happened to him is EXACTLY like what the song's story goes. Please give that song a listen, it's very cool!!)
I watched the part where he appears and his eyes are actually REALLY LIGHT compared to what I thought it'd be?? That'd mean his eyes were originally of a bright hue, hey, could it really be that it were to be a different color before having shifted into this current lavender? IT COULD HAVE ACTUALLY BEEN GOLDEN..I can't give up on that because it works with his name you know???;; what if it really got tainted into that color?
ALSO!!!! HE IS THE GUY WHO'S BEEN MAKING THE WISH:
"I want to see you" in Mephisto!!!!!!! "I want to get closer to the only Ai" in Fatal!!! HE HAD HIMSELF THE WISH TO MEET AI AND BECOME CLOSER TO HER!!! THAT'S WHY HE KEPT TALKING ABOUT WISHES WHEN HE MET HIS CHILDREN!! HE WAS WORKING TO MAKE THAT A REALITY!!! HE MADE THAT WISH "UPON A STAR"! And that star must have somehow given him the idea that he could achieve just that if he did whatever he was doing, that's why he couldn't stop!!!
He's all like:
"If life returns to you, if it reaches you
I don't care what happens to me" (Mephisto)
"Without you, I cannot live anymore
I would sacrifice anything for you"(Fatal)
RIGHT??? RIGHT???? WELL, THAT'S WHAT'S BEEN HAPPENING!! HE WANTED AI TO LIVE!! HE WANTED TO GIVE EVERYTHING HE HAD FOR HER SAKE AND THE STAR GAVE HIM FALSE HOPE!!! or maybe if he did go through with it Ai could have been brought back in a way, so that's why he was all like he can't die now or that there's something he must still do. He realized Ai loved him back so, I guess that made him even more extreme in the recent eps because it made him even more desperate, Ai did so much for him...he doesn't care about his life you know?? He was already good as being dead after she passed. I think THAT'S what's been happening regarding Kamiki. I don't think it makes sense any other way. He wanted Ai back..he thought he killed her and was overridden with guilt after it and wanted to do something to reverse it. And the way I see it, something took advantage of his feelings and caused him to grow insane and drift apart from his innate tender self.