Consequences
She lost her courage.
It’s been 2 months now and Bellona hasn't got the courage to actually say it. Salazar did a good job by keeping it a secret until now, to talk some sense into her stubborn head. She looks at them from a distance, they were talking but she couldn’t make out what it was about.
Her guts turn, she starts biting her thumbnail in anxiety, this whole process has unbalanced her mental health. She went to the local midwife for some guidance, it was definitive, she wasn’t only pregnant but the old lady had a guess it’s going to be twins. Bellona nearly fainted at those news. She denied it for weeks, she wet her sorrows with booze, she screamed, kicked and cried.
She won’t have it, she CAN’T have it. Bea was not wife material, less a mother! What will she do when the belly grows? How she’ll sustain herself?! She won’t be able to fight, brawl or travel. The girl doesn’t even have a house and her income comes and goes! Bellona places her hand on her forehead, sharp breathing.
“I can’t tell him...”
She glances up again, Salazar might be telling him right now for all she knows. God Damn it- She thought. They might force her into settling down, make the kids join the navy...Bea’s life was so dangerous, what will happen to the kids? She won’t be able to protect them, she might even be too absent and in her absence, they will turn into what she hates the most...politics, bureaucrats or worse. If she keeps them she’ll live a miserable life and give up on her lifestyle ,if she doesn’t Lesaro and Salazar will never forgive her, even kill her.
Those thoughts haunted her, Bea starts to panic...something was boiling in her guts, she felt nauseous, it went up. She quickly runs closer to the water and pukes whatever was on her stomach. She leans back, trying to recompose herself.
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