#x derps

[zephyrion]

Someday, I want to change the world.

I want to change the world.

I will change the world. 

[zephyrion]

Hello

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Rant time; since I've been feeling kind of stressed out lately. 

First relationship is stressful ;__; 

As much as I love my parents for caring about me and stuff, they're also really stressing me out . (Lol I missed my period, too) 

Goodness gracious parentos, you guys are thinking way far ahead. Sheesh. 

Mom doesn't like him because he's not a good eater.... She didn't even try talking to him. She just ignored him the whole time. -_- She keeps saying "Don't date him, just be friends" Like it's that easy to break off :\. 

Dad's a dad. Omg. Dad. When I'm skyping with him, pops will come over and ask "Who are you talking to" and I'll say "Jonathan" and he'll be all "TURN OFF THE COMPUTER RIGHT NOW" and he'll even sit there and wait and try to watch me turn off my laptop. 

Omg dad's a bit much with this. I'm not your personal property, dad.  Oh oh, hte thing i've been compaining about ahahaha 

So I finished class on a Friday like two weeks ago and I decided to spend about two hours at the library and then go to the gym. Ater I finished the gym, it was like, 5, and I decide, "Hey, i'll buy some food so I can make my dad a nice breakfast tomorrow. " 

So I go to the grocery stores which takes a couple of hours, buy the stuff, and go home. 

When I get home, my dad's like "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN", and I said "CSUN and grocery shopping" and he's like "and it took THAT long???" 

And then I got upset since I hadn't actually seen Jonathan, and I was just buying groceries so I could make my dad breakfast. 

It is funny though when my brother jokes with me , at least. When I come home he will go "Where were you?" Me : Place Him : With who? JONATHANN? 

But it's not as fun when my dad does it. 

(Funny but frustrating at the same time)

But they never really dated other people  ??? because they found each other and whoop they got married o.o. 

I feel like a kid in high school who's parents won't stop being vultures or something. 

I'm quite torn/stressed out that my parents don't approve of my relationship. Or if they could at least be reasonable ? I'm guessing they don't even want me to see him. ._. I totally get they're worried and stuff... but... 

Oh yeah, I didn't even get to hang out with him while my mom was gone, but mum was like "I know she's lying and seeing him, if she keeps lying I'll kick her out" and then when I talked to her the other day she said something completely different ??? Mom why you do that. 

ughuhuhuhughgughgughgugh . This makes me not want to talk to them about this. 

I feel really bad for him since he's like "I don't want [to say goodbye] but I dont want your parents to hate me either/you to get in trouble" 

This is definitely a test. How long can I keep pushing on with this, and how much do I really like this person. 

I want to do an experiement where I just leave my house for like a week or two and see if anyone would actualy miss me. 

I can imagine them being like "VIVIAN, WE NEED YOU TO- - Oh she's not here". "VIVIAN YOU NEED TO CLEAN UP--Oh" "VIVIAN WHY DID YOU MAKE THIS MESS"  but hahahaha I wouldn't have been thereeeee.. 

Idk how I'd go about doing that anyway. But maybe I'd be a little more appreciated hten. 

-sigh- I think I feel a little less stressed now. Sometimes I wish i were a boy. The realtionship is good, but my parents are going to make me nuts xD. I know no matter who I bring home it's going to be the same anyway. They'll just nitpick at something else. 

But I have a feeling that they expect me to follow whatever they'll say (Since that's what I've primarily been doing anyway)... But idk if they've been thinking about the big picture and my feelings. 

Ok will add to this later. 

[zephyrion]

Goshdarnit u guize

Tagged by Meat and Crackers

1. who would you be in the alternate world Uhhh Probably the same loser I am now

2. name three people you look up to Hmmm I guess my mom and dad.

3. A dream from your childhood I was in 3rd grade and these dudes had guns and might do harm to me and my friends so I jumped them ???

4. somewhere you want to live in the near future Near future... Maybe Japan?

5. dream job Something to do with Geology, Science, Art? Or being a lazy ass.

6. favorite food I'll eat almost anything. (But Ice cream is the way to my heart [aka clogged arteries])

7. clothing style I like boyish clothing.

8. do you believe in evolution Uhh... better than creationism?

9. what is art to you Art is an incredible, underappreciated thing in life...

10. what is life to you We all die someday... Sometimes you have to think of everyday like it's your last...

11. type out goodbye in your language 안녕

MY QUESTIONS 1. an action you’ve regretted? There's prob. a couple of these but not standing up for myself and others. And having a bad attitude/tone when I talk. Ahh, I have one now. Not seeing my grandma before she died. 

2. sexual fantasy? Do I have to answer this? Uhhhh...

3. dream from your childhood? I would fly around a lot in my dreams.

4. dark chocolate or dark chocolate? What ?

5. aspect of yourself you’re proud of (and dun put nothing boo we all got something amazing about ourselves!)? Goddammit, you know I have nothing. 6. plan for the future? Finish my B.A.

7. what do you think of me? You're a cool kid. Could hang out with us more tho.

8. name some of your favorite series? I don't really have one.

9. what makes you mad? My sister can. Maybe I'm just an angry person in general.

10. somewhere you’d like to be now? Sleeping in bed ?

11. did ya enjoy answering these questions? haha They were okay ahahah xD

1. if you had to have eyeball surgery (lasik doesn’t count) and someone could record it would you want to see it and how do you think you’d react? what about brain surgery? I guess I would watch but that would be really weird ... But interesting.

2. what’s your funniest pickup line? ;) Depends on the context

3. if you were waking up from anesthesia (think getting wisdom tooth pulled) what do you think you’d say/do? would you want your parents around to see you like that? I'll probably talk about something dirty lol! My parents prob will record me and I'll be blackmailed forever.

4. what movie/book/anime/ has made you laugh the most and what about it was really funny? xD Idk. there are a couple ? Maybe Cromartie high because everyone is stupid xD

5. if you could make any kind of invention what would you make? Something that hasn't been invented yet. OH a vehicle that can fly, and uses air as its energy source idk.

6. what’s one animal you’d want as a pet if there were no consequences? (can be extinct too :P) Maybe a bunny or a cat. Or Godzilla. OH OR A PET ROBOT YEAH. 

7. would you feel comfortable living on the same street as your parents when you grow up? what about friends, coworkers, or boss? xD DUDE IT WOULD BE AMAZING TO HAVE ALL THE FRIENDS ON ONE STREET LOL. Parents would be cool, then I don't have to worry about them too much.

8. describe the hottest outfit someone you find attractive would wear if you could dress them in anything ;) Why would they be wearing an outfit? ahahah jk jk. Maybe a tux? (a loincloth? LOL JK) -nudgenudgewinkwink- 9. what do you think you’d dream about if you were in a coma for a long time? or what would you like to dream about? :o Probably some never ending adventure where I can fly aw yea. Oh I can travel the world in my death bed.

10. list 3 smells that you like and explain why :) Lavender -- It's calming ? Vanilla -- It's warm Kennedy -- Eehehhehe

11. which would you rather suffer with: projectile vomiting or explosive diarrhea for a whole day? if you had to take care of someone which would you rather them have? :P If someone had explosive diarrhea they can just stay in the bathroom all day. But uh.... Idk both sound pretty awful.

Not gonna tag anyone or make questions got no time for that.

15 Things That Make Me Happy. Tagged by Meat 1. This one cutie boy 2. My friends 3. Ice cream & Cookies & Sweets in general 4. Helping people 5. Giving presents/buying presents for others (Although I'm really bad at it) 6. Seeing my parents happy or doing things together 7. Simple things 8. Food 9. Nature 10. When people make me cards, notes, letters 11. Adventures 12. Sleeping 13. Good dreams 14. Nice long conversations on thoughts from the deep blue sea 15. No conflict

[zephyrion]

Dad: put some pants on

Me: no

[zephyrion]

me: hmmm what's cuddling ? ?

me: -looks it up-

me: oh...

[zephyrion]

One of my IRL OTPs were a LIE. 

I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS.

[zephyrion]

me and mom: Look how cute those kids are

mom: did you know Japan needs more children ?

me: YOU AREN'T FOOLING ME INTO HAVING KIDS

[zephyrion]

"A victim should never ask themselves why they contacted the police in the first place"