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[slopofaarix]

aaaand that's as much as I can be bothered scrawling details onto the emporer (sic) of Kansia's epic threads

[myelocin]

It's 'miya atsumu' + 'hiraeth' for the angst night:)

“what does it mean?” atsumu asked you once as he traced over the ink on the painting that flowed from you when you felt the pull to create some hours ago.

“it’s difficult to explain,” you laughed and leaned your head against his shoulder when you took a seat next to him.

you didn’t tell him, because at that time you didn’t really know. the feeling from the pull you got when your hands itched to create didn’t exactly pinpoint towards anything--rather, it was just there, inside you until you let it out to live in canvas. 

“hiraeth,” you read one day and ever since it resonated within you. 

atsumu became home for so many years until you realized he wasn’t anymore. the realization crept to you in silence but remained like an endless ripple. it took four years and three months for you to look at him in the eye and realize that you can’t begin to find the traces of what has been your home. and even as the callouses in his hands on your waist felt familiar, when he stared back at you--you know his thoughts are mirroring yours.

so it takes nothing but a smile and a quiet apology whispered into the silence of daylight for the both of you to let go.

“i walked too far,” he tells you and you’re happy he doesn’t apologize because you don’t want him to apologize for walking too far.

“it’s okay,” you reply then continue, “i walked the opposite way.”

“hiraeth,” you read out loud again when he’s finally facing you with his bags in his hands and a goodbye teething on his lips.

he looks at you, eyes gentle and familiar--and nostalgia blossoms in your heart to remind you that this is okay.

“the word on your painting,” he replies and you nod.

“it means homesickness,” you tell him. “i can explain it if you want,” you offer.

but he shakes his head and tightens his grip on his bags.

“i hope you find home,” he tells you instead of goodbye and you smile, staying silent as the door closes.

“i hope you do too.”

[tsukishumai]

Happy new year, Cam ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
SKSJDKWK XAVE PLEASE 😭😭 happy new year sweet angel ty for blessing me 💖 and may we both blessed with Sakusa screentime all 2021 💘

[sweetcatmintea]

It’s been a hot minute since I uploaded art <.<;; Hopefully these skateboarding bros will make up for it!

[image description: A digital illustration of a young man and a young child skateboarding on a stone path in a park while a cat looks on in the foreground. The man is in his late teens/early twenties, has brown skin, dreadlocks, and angular dog ears. He’s wearing a black helmet with neon green accents, holographic circle glasses, a white shirt, blue jeans, and green skate shoes. He’s looking down, smiling and asking the young boy ‘We’re getting faster, you still good?’. He’s holding the boy up by his wrists. 

The small boy is about three and has fair skin, freckles, red hair, green eyes, as well as fox ears and legs. He’s wearing a pink floral helmet, a pink shirt that says ‘Under Cover Super Hero’, blue and purple shorts, and brown sandles. He’s also wearing black elbow and knee pads with pink flowers. He’s looking up, smiling, answering ‘Yep!’. 

There’s a thin, man-made, decorative pond behind them and confetti plants in front.

The following two images are close ups of their faces.]

Comments under the cut! 

This was a long time in the making! A speedpaint is coming, I just didn’t want to delay uploading any longer XD 

A few months ago, I saw a guy teaching a toddler to balance on a skateboard while I was on the bus. It was so flipping cute, I couldn’t not try to recreate the pose! The composition didn’t really work out, but I’m still happy with it. I love how fluffy Xavier looks. 

Xave might think he’s ready to do tricks, but Will has a safety first priority. 

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[fallynephemeron]

The best you've had, huh Xave? Any of the following.. I'm interested.. About You 8, 22 (me instead of a follower), 45 Relationships 8, Porn & Sex Ind 26, 27, 30. Sex 6 (humor me an say it again), 14, 30, 34, 38, 53, 82, 91, 102, 106. Fetish 5, 11, 30. This or that 8, 22, 25, 43, 55, 73, 87, 92. Thats all. No offense taken if you dont answer. Its fine. Was just thinkin of you the other day then saw this -M

Xave:  Shit.  didn’t realize you might read that.   uggggg.  You always did know how to make me blush.  It’s true though. I won’t take it back.  Riv says there’s millions of parallel universes… so maybe somewhere out there we ended up together.  I wouldn’t be surprised at all. If I’d found you first things could have ended up a lot different than they are now. I think we both know that.

Alright… mr. curious….. you asked…. so that’s what you’re getting

About You, 8 , 22, 45

 When was your last erection/arousal?

Xave:  Mine?  Uggg. Fuck, this morning. In the shower. No I didn’t do anything about it.  That just makes it worse.  It went away eventually. Daily life is finding ways to distract myself and constantly trying not to get turned on.  

   If someone you knew asked for a nude image, would you do it? What about a tumblr follower?

Xave:  specifically you?  My nature and desire say yes…. my wedding vows say no. Sorry love.

 Whats your favorite lingerie outfit?

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/431993789231669578/    something like that.   And no, that doesn’t count as a picture of me. :P  So…. are you into that kind of thing?  or just curious. ;)  cause i don’t think i remember stuff like that ever coming up when we were together.

Relationships 8- What do you look for in a hookup? 

Xave:  in the past?  cause that doesn’t happen any more.  But… since you asked, i’ll tell you what I notice- nice smile, no scary vibes, not completely filthy, or obviously a druggie…. that’s about it.  lol.  I’m a slut with low standards, what can I say?

Porn & Sex Ind 26, 27, 30.

Have you ever tried to recreate a scene?

Xave:  not really? I mean, you can’t help but pick things up here and there. But… There was this one guy I was with a few times that was OBSESSED with porn. He loved acting out the same scenes his favorite porn guys did.  Once or twice was fun, and a change of pace, but it didn’t take long for that to get really old. Like there was no connection there at all. It was kinda weird.

Have you ever used porn to show a partner what you like/want?

Xave:  oh yeah. it’s helpful for sure. Though no one’s ever made a porn vid, at least that I’ve found,  that can quite capture the elegance of making someone come completely undone over a long period of time…. but then… you never seemed to need instructions for that, did you. ;)

Have you considered getting into porn?

Xave: I’ve had experience in the industry. Mostly stills. I was young, underage, and no one cared and no one asked. I don’t have a problem with porn, and it might be fun if I hadn’t been burned in the past.  But I don’t think I could do it without some serious drugs or something to get me through the inevitable flashbacks.  So, no.

Sex 6 (humor me an say it again), 14, 30, 34, 38, 53, 82, 91, 102, 106.

Who was your best sex partner?

Xave:  say it again huh?  lol   Alright.  Mike Lamb is the Best fuck I’ve EVER had.  Happy?  

Do you like dirty talking?

Xave:  If it’s done right yeah for sure… sometimes it just awkward, and WAY too often it sounds cheesy and corny.  Then I get the giggles and ruin the moment.

Where is the strangest or wildest place you’ve had sex/oral?

Xave:  I’ll go with wildest… which I kinda answered for myself when I answered Wyn’s questions…. out in the middle of nowhere in the woods.    Strangest?  too personal to answer in public.  It’s a really bad memory. I might spill if we were having a private conversation.  I always trusted you with that stuff.

Whats your funniest sex experience?

Xave: Halloween, a long time ago. This guy I was screwing  thought it would be HILARIOUS to try to scare me… like during sex.   So we were going at it…. like full on,  he’s on top.  and he’d rigged stuff to fall on me.. like plastic spiders..and a rubber rat,  it was ridiculous. I just laughed. There’s scary shit out there, and plastic spiders and rubber rats don’t even register.   Anyway,  but then like, he’d rigged this scary mask to swoop out over me, after the spiders and stuff fell… but apparently, he’d forgotten about it.  And it didn’t come out when it was supposed to, it got stuck or something… so we like,  were JUST about there.  Like just about to hit climax.  He wasn’t very good anyway…. and this fucking mask, comes swinging over him out of nowhere, and lands right on my face.  He screamed, so high pitched, pulled out, freaking out in hysterics.   Then I got the giggles and he lost his erection. He was SO embarrassed. He wouldn’t answer my texts after that.   I still think it’s hilarious.

Have you ever faked an orgasm? Describe the experience(s).

Xave:  ugggggggg.  yeah. With my husband. He was trying SO hard, and he was completely miserable. This was before he knew he was ace. I faked it… and we were done. I just couldn’t bear to see his face if he knew he’d failed again.  

Which non-genital parts of your body do you like being touched or stimulated? \

Xave:  mmmm, fuck.  nipples. shoulder blades, the backs of my thighs, like that place right under your ass?  

Do you like cum or is it gross?

Xave: mmmm, depends on the pheromones. Some guys just taste gross. That’s all there is to it.  But…. some pheromones … when they match with  yours,  it’s SO good and you just want more.

Do you like to have your ass eaten?

Xave:  not ashamed to admit it.  absolutely yes.

Has anyone ever cum inside you on accident? How did you feel about that?

Xave: If it’s really an accident…. that’s one thing.  I’ve had shitty guys do it on purpose when I hadn’t consented. That fucking pissed me off. A lot.  I didn’t screw around with them ever again, unless I didn’t have a choice,  which has happened in the past.

Do you like to play with balls/have your balls played with? 

Xave:  it’s not really my thing..especially my own, unless, again and always, if it’s done just right. But if I know that’s something my partner really enjoys, I’m into making that a priority for him.

Fetish 5, 11, 30. 

Are there any fetishes you don’t have yet, but may be interested in?

Xave:  mmm, being tied up. No one’s really done that well for me.  Like, everyone that’s tried it has been a sadist, and I really hate sadists.  Not my thing at all.  But sensory deprivation and not being able to move, combined with edging,  that would be amazing.

Do you enjoy long, extended teasing/edging sessions?

Xave:  Fuck you Mike. LOL  you just want to hear me say it.  YES.  you KNOW I do.

Are you an exhibitionist?

Xave:  lol, guilty as charged.  In every sense of the word.  Except when it comes to talking about difficult stuff, then it’s just gotta be secure and private.

This or that 8, 22, 25, 43, 55, 73, 87, 92.

Rough Sex or Intimate Sex

Xave:  BOTH.  like really both. alternating, or at the same time,  in the same session. I love it.

Circumcised or Uncircumcised

Xave:  am i?  I’m cut.  But as for what I prefer?  doesn’t matter, either/or.

Ruined or Complete Orgasm

Xave:  with someone that can pull it off, and then keep going???  Ruined. 100%.  But who the hell knows how to pull that off with such perfection…. oh … I guess I know one guy. ;)

Dirty Talk or Loud Moaning

Xave: Both. Fuck.

Length or Girth

Xave:  Girth

Ball Licking or Rimming

Xave: rimming.

Doggy Style or Missionary

Xave: ugggg, they both have their place,  but if I had to choose just one for the rest of my life,  then, Missionary.

Slow or Fast

Xave:  Both.  but again… if I can only have one, forever, then slow.

Are you happy?  Now I’m horny.  do you KNOW how long 14 days is?

[slopofaarix]

please select your CELEBRITY CRUSH

team RYN (the sultry ginger singer)

team XAVE (the prettyboy bassist/keyboards guy)

team IDA (the wolfgirl drummer)

team HERON (the long guitarist)

Voting ended onNov 28, 2024

(eternal thanks to the brilliant Roqi for creating this exquisite band photoshoot)

[slopofaarix]

You know how Frankenstein wanted his guy to be hot and awesome but he just made him so fucked up instead. like he just ended up so huge and scarred and unpleasantly long yet beefy and gristly and awful well that's basically the same thing Heron has going on so I always get a kick out of the bernie wrightson frankenstein illustrations:

Xave makes just as good of a vic frankenstien btw. like he just does the harried academic thing so well because that's effectively what he is he's just the music version. moral of this story is that Xave and Heron should go to a halloween party together and win best duo costume

[slopofaarix]

xavier is growing his hair out again and has not slept for 30 hrs