I brought you my love; you brought me your bullets.
This is probably the closest I'll get to a face reveal.
TW: Allusions to SA, suicide, self-harm, and violence.
Daisies are flowers of the dead. I'd like for people to bury me in white, like my dad. Though I think it's funny I haven't got a single white dress.
You know it's terrible when you can't fit everything someone you loved with your entire heart and mind did and said to you on a single sheet of paper.
"Did you even love me from the start?" "Well, yeah... but not really."
"You know, if we weren't together by now, I think I'd be talking to all these other girls and trying my chances."
“I just kissed you 'cause you looked cute."
"I was starting to move on without you; people told me cool-offs meant game over."
"She said she wanted it!"—"Earlier I was thinking, if we were to break up, I thought maybe it's not so bad; at least I won't buy her gifts anymore."—"I thought you were going to throw me under the bus!”
“Please don’t cry, my reputation! People already thought bad about me!”
“You know, earlier at this cosplay event I was already talking to other girls, so I’d have someone to talk to if this doesn’t work out.”
“Are you still on the pills? How much do you take per day?...By any chance, can you double your dosage?”
“Take you home, already? Come on, just one more time? I promise you it’ll be the last time; besides, I’ll do what I promised your dad; I’ll protect you.”
“I don’t have any money left because of our dates! Sorry? Well, I don’t feel your apologies because you have your mom with you!”
“Can you not… tell your mother about what we fight about… it’s our privacy, y’know?”
“I’ve been contemplating leaving you, y’know? I’m really getting tired of you and your head.”
“That’s it? Your mother got offended because of what I said?”
“We’re not even married yet! It’s not MY obligation to be so straight forward with your family."
“I hate going outside! I only ever tolerated it because of you!”
I feel like there's so much more that he's said and done to me; that's most of it that's stuck with me. I loved him so much I tried sacrificing my life, self-respect, self-preservation, and most of my dignity for him. Even now, I still do. Though, I am starting to find peace. I can say so much more, but I'm really tired.
To those starting out in relationships, I pray neither of you ever treat your partners like that. And to those whose hearts are open to love, I pray your hearts never fall into the hands of a person who'll crush your heart like such. Take care of each other, love them, treat them, and treat those around them with the same love and respect you hold for your partner.
Be a loving and genuine person.
Have a good night everyone.
