@yeeehcw !
no commitment was something nami severely struggled with ; all while he enjoyed it because in his mind it created some sort of cheesy rom-com scenario where they would inevitably fall in love with him . conceited , one could easily say , and it wouldn’t be all that far from the truth . nami thought of himself as charming enough to earn the heart of anyone if he so desired it , but xander had already been a little more complicated on that front . exes brought out a different aspect , of course . a previous commitment now turned into purely sexual and nami enjoyed it as much as he hated the idea of xander sleeping with anyone else beyond him . it was some way to keep a hold of some piece of what they had , nami’s hope for their relationship to return always dangling around in his heart as he not so patiently waited for the other to give in . he was half-awake when he felt xander’s hand , carefully lifting his head and grinning crookedly . “ good morning , “ he sings, “ leaving so soon ? “ his familiar , playful pout takes place on his lips , but it quickly turns far more genuine as xander continues . “ . . . a date ? “ now he’s pushing himself up , chin lowered in question . “ you - it’s not , like , serious , though , right ? “ god , he hopes not , or the ache in his chest will only double , and he just might fucking die from heartbreak right then and there . okay , maybe that’s a little dramatic , but he knows he won’t be able to handle that confirmation . “ i mean , i’m sure they won’t be that great , anyway . sisters setting up dates just seems like a - a totally bad idea . dumb idea , terrible , awful , all the negative words you can think of . “
it was definitely nice to still be able to spend time with nami even after their split. there was still love for the other, but there was still a part of him that was afraid of being in a relationship with the older male because he didn’t want to lose him, again. he always made xander feel like he was home and now that their relationship has taken a completely different route, it made him more cautious of his feelings. xander tucked his wallet into the back pocket of his jeans before he ran his fingers through his hair, looking at himself in the mirror to make sure that he looked decent before he actually left the building. the florist hummed in thought, “yeah – a date-date. she said that it was one of her friends from college so she’s known this guy for a while now.” xander lifted his shoulder in a light shrug as he chuckled listening to nami speak. “i’m pretty sure it’ll turn into a shit show if he’s some kind of douche, but he’s at least a couple years older so i hope he’ll be mature.” he turned to look at nami once he was done, “i guess we’ll see once i meet him.” xander gave his ex-boyfriend’s hair tousle before he gently pinched his cheek, “are you jealous?” he teased lightheartedly, giving his brow a wiggle.
