Prompt: The script said one kiss, the drama showed one kiss. But the leaked behind-the-scenes footage? Hmm...
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Yeji
The Fiercely Protective, Slightly Possessive Lead
gritty action-romance drama
Yeji plays a former detective trying to leave her past behind
until you, the one person she swore to protect, get dragged into danger
the kiss is supposed to be one desperate, fleeting moment
just a brief press of lips before she pulls away, torn between duty and love
in the leaked behind-the-scenes clip tho…
Yeji doesn’t pull away
She tilts her head, deepening the kiss just slightly
her hands tightening around your waist like she’s completely lost in the moment
“CUT!”
Yeji doesn’t move immediately
her forehead was still pressed against yours, her eyes flickering down to your lips
"Are you okay?" she asks softly, voice barely above a whisper
you nod, feeling breathless
she smirks
"Good. We should practice this scene again later."
the fans LOSE IT, I mean wtf
"‘We should practice again later’ GURL WHAT"
"oh Yeji wasn’t ACTING, she was FEELING that"
"So when are WE getting protected (and kissed) by Hwang Yeji?"
in an interview, Yeji just grins, her eyes twinkling
"I take my roles very seriously."
Lia
The Soft-Spoken but Surprisingly Bold Romantic Lead
classic second-chance romance
Lia is your ex-girlfriend-turned-unexpected-roommate
the tension? absolutely unbearable
the kiss is written as a shy, hesitant peck, full of unspoken feelings
but in the leaked clip???
Lia doesn’t just kiss you
she lingers, her breath warm against your lips
and she goes in again, softer this time
“CUT!”
Lia still stays way too close, blinking at you like she’s only just realized what she did
"Oops," she whispers, laughing nervously
"Guess I… got a little carried away?"
fans instantly go FERAL
"LIA WHAT DO YOU MEAN ‘OOPS’??"
"bro that second kiss wasn’t even subtle, she just WENT for it”
"SOMEONE CHECK ON Y/N, SHE HASN’T SPOKEN SINCE"
when asked about the extra kisses, Lia turns bright red and fidgets with her rings
"I-It just felt natural, you know? Like… real."
Ryujin
The Effortlessly Cool, Too-Smooth Lead
friends-to-lovers
Ryujin is the charismatic best friend who has secretly been in love with you for years
the kiss is meant to be one casual, quick peck
yknow nothing dramatic
but in the behind-the-scenes footage??
Ryujin leans in again
this time slower, more deliberate
then, after the second kiss, she smirks against your lips, tilting her head playfully
"Oh? Was that too much?" she teases, voice way too smug
“CUT!”
she doesn’t even pretend to be embarrassed
she just winks at you before casually strolling off set
the internet explodes
"RYUJIN PLS SHE KNEW EXACTLY WHAT SHE WAS DOING"
"‘was that too much?’ BABE WE SAW YOU GO IN FOR A THIRD WHAT"
"Y/N just got rizzed up in 4K HD"
when asked about the extra kisses, Ryujin shrugs
"I was just in the moment. Can't help it if it felt right."
Gurl. Bye. 😭
Chaeryeong
The Sweet, Blushy Lead Who Accidentally Exposes Herself
heartfelt, coming-of-age love story
Chaeryeong is your adorable childhood best friend who finally confesses after years of pining
the kiss is supposed to be a soft, innocent moment, filled with emotion
but in the leaked video???
Chaeryeong FORGETS to stop kissing you
after the first kiss, she nervously kisses you again, like she just can’t help it
then, realizing what she did, she hides her face in her hands, giggling uncontrollably
"Oh my God, that was… um. A lot."
"SHE PANICKED AND KISSED Y/N AGAIN HELPPPP"
"Chaeryeong, bestie… the scene was one kiss, not three"
"She’s so embarrassed but also SO IN LOVE"
during an interview on her sister’s channel, Chaeryeong squeals and covers her face
"I-I don’t know! I just kept going! It felt… natural?"
her members immediately start teasing her
Chaeryeong.exe has officially crashed
Yuna
The Shamelessly Flirty, Scene-Stealing Lead
high-energy romcom
Yuna plays the overconfident playgirl who falls hard for the one person who resists her charms — you
the kiss is scripted to be one dramatic, show-stopping moment, before she pulls back, smirking like she owns the world
but in the leaked video??
Yuna doesn’t just stop at one kiss
she peppers soft, playful kisses along your jawline, her laughter barely contained between each one
“CUT!”
Yuna winks at the camera before turning to you with a teasing smile
“Ah, Yuna-ssi…”
"What?" she says innocently. "I was improvising."
the internet goes INSANE
"YUNA MA’AM YOU WERE HAVING TOO MUCH FUN"
"She kissed Y/N like they were already dating, I can’t."
"‘I was improvising’ — NO YOU WERE ENJOYING YOURSELF"
"plsss even the director was speechless"
when asked about the extra kisses in Hyell’s Club, Yuna just giggles and flips her hair
i just had the idea of yeji fucking you while you're on a call with a friend or smth 🤓☝🏼
synopsis: you let your gf touch you while you’re on a call
MINORS DNI ᝰ.ᐟ tags: yeji x fem!reader, strap on, smut 🤤
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you giggled at something your friend said, rolling onto your back and listening. after a while, yeji walks in the room, quickly getting on bed but staying silent as she saw that you’re on a call. her hand found your thigh, caressing the soft skin and slowly drew closer to the edge of your shorts. you shot her a warning look but said nothing, not wanting to interrupt your friend talking.
yeji’s other hand hooked under the waistband of her own shorts, pulling them down. the strap on was already fastened around her hips and she moved closer, closer to your legs and crawling her hands to your waistband. before you could protest, she already tugged your shorts down, and guided your thighs to open them up for her.
your breathing became slightly heavier, still your focus on the call and your friend, but you’re acutely aware of yeji between your legs. she caged you between her arms but stayed out of frame, as she aligned the toy to your entrance, before slowly pushing in.
once she bottomed out, she began to move, her hips moving in deep, sensual movements. you adjusted the phone so only your eyes could be seen, while you bit lower lip to stifle a moan that threatened to fall from your mouth. yeji’s hands roamed everywhere, touching, teasing, pulling up your top and already bringing you closer and closer to the pinnacle of your pleasure. the thrill of being caught in act while being on the call heightened your desire, and you couldn’t help but let yeji have her way with you. your free hand gripped rumpled bedsheet beneath your writhing body as your hips bucked against yeji’s to meet her thrusts.
you quickly glanced behind your phone being met with yeji’s heated gaze, while she caresses your curves. you glanced back, trying to catch up with whatever your friend yapped about, while also feeling the strap on sliding in and out of your clenching heat.
your voice slightly wavered, hands trembled with each hard thrust of yeji’s hips, making it painfully obvious what you’re doing behind the camera. yeji’s free hand slid to hold your wrist, steading it, or even making worse as she started to pick up the pace.
shutting your eyes closed to gather some semblance, your mouth falls open in a silent moan when yeji angles her hips and hitting all right places that made you see stars and clench around the toy even harder, “uhm… actually, let me… call you a bit later. don’t feel well.” you breathlessly say some lame excuse, feeling quite the opposite of what you said. you clamped your mouth shut, letting out a muffled whimper. “sure, take some rest. text me when you feel better, okay?” she replied, her voice tingled with a hint of concern before ending the call. right after that a loud moan tore from your throat, yeji’s name falling from your lips like a prayer as her hips snapped faster and faster.
“yeji… oh my…” you gasped out, arching your back into yeji’s touch, her hands pinching and rolling your pebbled nipples between her fingers, “come for me,” yeji rasps, a bead of sweat trickles down her face from exertion. her soft hand trails down your sweat covered body, dipping between your legs to circle your clit for extra sensation.
you let out a sharp cry of her name, back bowed as yeji’s touch sent you tripping over the edge and you found your release. you panted, each sensual roll of yeji’s hips prolonging your high, while she murmurs words of praise, leaning down to kiss your neck and feeling rapid pulse beneath your skin.
once waves of your pleasure ebbed, you fell back on bed, catching your breath. “yeji… don’t do that again.”
Yeji walked out of her changing room in the bathroom, a white towel wrapped around her body. She looked at herself in the mirror, and a smile formed on her lips. The mirror reflected her beautiful, sexy face, her short hair adding to her charm.
She looked around and slowly opened her towel wide, fully baring her sexy body in front of the mirror. He watched that slender neck, her perky boobs, which drove men wild, her slight abs that were present, her clean-shaven pussy, and those long legs and toned thighs. She nodded, feeling satisfied with her body. The hours of working out in the gym didn’t disappoint her.
While she was admiring her body, she suddenly heard a sound that made her panic; she quickly covered herself, rushed into her changing room, and peeked outside. She saw a man coming out, his upper body fully bare, and he had only a towel around his hips.
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hey anon! I decided to put this in MTL loudest just to make it simpler
CW: smut. Men and minors DNI.
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Yeji
Girlie has quite a set of lungs and she doesn’t forget to use them. We all know she’s got powerful vocals on stage, and that applies in bed too. Y’all’s first time you thought she was faking with how loud she was moaning your name, but no, she really is a screamer. Loud, breathy moans when you’re going down on her. Makes sure to tell you what a good job you’re doing.
“Making me feel so good, baby, don’t stop~”
Yuna
Not only is she literally the brattiest she is also so loud??? Whining and telling you to get on with it and fuck her already, telling you how needy she is, how much she wants you…
“I need more, baby, I need you so bad—”
Chaeryeong
She’s soooo loud and she’s so embarrassed about it, it’s not like she can help it. The first time it happened, you were eating her out and she wouldn’t stop moaning your name over and over, loud enough for the neighbours to hear. If you ever tease her about it she will hide her face in her hands and blush so hard.
“Oh god, Y/N, oh, you feel so good—”
Lia
Her moans are high-pitched and breathy, almost always next to your ear. She’s not super loud at first, but her voice gradually rises in volume until she’s crying out your name, begging for release.
“Ah—I’m gonna cum if you keep doing that—”
Ryujin
Ryujin isn’t the type to be loud in bed, usually just letting out low groans and gasps (it’s not impossible, but it takes a lot to get shin ryujin to get loud), but she is more talkative. She tells you what she wants to do to you (or what she wants you to do to her), how pretty you look, how you’re making her feel, asking questions she knows you can’t answer.
“Why don’t you come over here and put that mouth of yours to good use, hm?”
synopsis: if there is one thing that you wish to never lose, it's your best friend of who knows how long. but when things take a different turn, one that involves closing a chapter that never happened - are you ready to face reality as it is?
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here you were, standing by the front door as you hugged yeji, ready to call it a night and head back home. sometime in the party, you had sneakily left a letter for her, somewhere in the pile of gifts she had received but not right at her face.
a quick wave goodbye as you walk out of her apartment, glancing back for a second before you go on your excruciating way back to your place.
yeji has become a constant in your life. you’ve known her since freshman year of high school - it felt longer as you grew closer through the years. now, free from high school and finally working in your respective fields of work, you can’t help but think back to those moments of when you were young (still are).
it was such a different time, learning how to handle emotions, balancing extracurricular with homeworks, finding time to socialize outside of class hours, and experiencing so many firsts. how you managed those activities post-high school makes you wonder to this day.
you and yeji clicked when you were in the same class, only having a chance to talk when you got grouped for a final project for the semester. she caught your attention even prior to talking to her, you admit that she’s pretty but that was it. girls appreciating girls.
yeji caught the attention of many, the majority being boys confessing their undying love for her. all of which she declined or at least gave it a shot - it was a total bust, somehow yeji had decided if they don’t seem to vibe well with you, that was it.
boys would start treating you nicely, in hopes you’d put a good word to yeji - again, a total bust. none of them would pass, it was questionable because some of them were actually nice, gentlemanly, and had utmost respect for women. so, why? why do you speak of them badly if they weren’t so bad?
it didn’t click that easily, you’re denser than a rock and your other friends would point that out. they didn’t help you out, never tried to guide you into realizing what it was that you’re feeling. there’s anger, sadness, and irritation, but you could never directly admit it even if that thought crossed your mind way too many times.
sitting by the bench as you watch another possible suitor of yeji make their way to the girl - you could only watch with ryujin right next to you. according to her, it was similar to watching a ticking time bomb go off, as if once it reaches zero - would you realize your own feelings or would you simply sit there and wonder why.
“fuck.” ryujin watched as you ran your fingers through your hair, leaving it disheveled, contrasting your usual neat uniform. in the corner of her eye, she could see your foot tapping, fist closed with the thumb to your lips as you watched the interaction - everything screams that you were agitated.
“what’s got you fidgeting?” your head snapped at ryujin, why were you fidgeting? what made you suddenly feel like this?
“i… don’t know…” you weren’t completely lying, a part of you knew but clearly was in denial of feeling any sort of emotion that would be heavily associated with the big L-word or romantic feelings at all.
“why do guys always roam around her? like there are plenty of girls at campus but why her?” there it was, you were slowly ticking off - almost close to exploding. ryujin was now counting the second till you finally go off and it seemed to be her lucky day.
“like i get it, she's pretty, smart, talented, and really shines on her own but doesn’t overshadow others whenever she’s with a group. can’t they find someone el-“ you could hear ryujin cackling next to you, taking a close look at the girl laughing, you furrowed your eyebrows. why is she laughing in the middle of your rant?
“what?”
“nothing.” ryujin wiped away the tears in her eyes, reeling herself back to reality as she looked at you. “seems like someone is jealous.”
you scoffed, looking away with your head held up high as you denied it. “pssh, me? jealous? as if.”
one thing you will never admit is your own feelings, you could quickly read anyone one’s emotions through context clues but when it came to your own - oblivious. ryujin had to point it out, spell it even, that you were slowly but surely liking yeji more than as a best friend.
it was ridiculous at first, you liking yeji? listing down everything you’ve done for the girl that according to ryujin was much more than a friendly gesture; somehow it all screamed that you do have a thing for the girl not far from you.
“almost everyone could see that you’re head over heels for yeji.” ryujin nudged you once more, trying to get your head out of your ass as everything seemed to make a lot more sense. “no one in their right mind would buy their friend boba tea on a random saturday because she said she wanted one.”
“well, jeez, sorry if my love language is acts of service.” could you really blame it on your love language that you’d go far and beyond for this one girl which you know would probably not feel the same. you sat there with ryujin; a sly smile on her lips as if she had managed to let you admit it indirectly.
“so you like her?”
“shut up.” you can’t deny it anymore, as complicated feelings are, something about hwang yeji makes you feel different that no other person has. maybe it's the hormones but you never really know, there’s this unexplainable feeling in your guts that makes you want to puke. it makes you sick in your stomach yet it feels right.
any sane person would think you have a stomach bug, get yourself checked out and see if it’s true. after reading romance novels, you’re well aware that whatever your feeling is infatuation - nothing more. the sick feeling in your stomach, sweaty hands, and your heart beating faster than you could comprehend. you like her.
it’s annoying now that ryujin has managed to make you admit it when you’ve been in denial for who knows how long. there’s this girl that’s been on your mind from when you wake up until you fall asleep, like an advertisement you can’t skip and slowly you’ve been persuaded to actually try the item out - as if it’s not that bad.
it was bad, mental torture to watch yeji go through suitor after suitor as if they were disposables - then again, yeji never tells you anything until its done. you sat there with your book waiting for time to pass as you didn’t want to head home right away.
“hey.” the only reason why you didn’t want to head home right away; yeji stood in front of you with her brows furrowed, running her hand through her hair as she sat next to you. no invitation needed because this is becoming a habit.
after every dismissal, you’d sit somewhere around campus with a book, a spy if you will. yeji has always asked you to stay behind and keep an eye out in case the boys she thinks of giving a chance turns out to be no for good. you’ve grown accustomed to the arrangement of acting like a spy and it was no surprise as yeji sat in front of you clearly pissed.
“another fail?”
“i really thought he was a nice boy, a month in and suddenly i see him flirting with some girl a year above us.” you cringed at the imagery, not wanting to take part in knowing more about yeji’s romantic life as if it isn’t stabbing you in the heart with a knife and slowly feel it being twisted.
“so what’s your plan then?” you know asking isn’t exactly the smartest but before anything else you’re yeji’s friend. yeji could go on and on for hours about planning her revenge but it’s the first time she was quiet - nothing to say about the boy as the words she muttered were much worse than the knife in your heart.
“am i unlovable?” for someone at the age of 15, that is not something you should be asking but hormones are insanely high that you really can’t do much as you shut your book, sitting next to the girl. awkwardly wrapping your arms around her as your fingers threaded through her hair. the silence was deafening when your mind was buzzing with things you wished to utter out yet you bit the inside of your cheek to stop yourself from saying anything romantic.
“no,” was it worth the risk to tell the girl how she’s the very reason you’re feeling such things when she couldn’t even feel it? “saying you’re unlovable is equivalent to saying it’s impossible to love you…”
what is a 15 year old thinking of saying such things? you’re definitely not one to know what love actually feels like but you could only describe the feeling of being with yeji. as limited as possible.
“i don’t think you’re unlovable.” yeji scoffed, completely in disbelief by what’s coming out of your mouth.
“how can you be so sure of that?”
“cause… i feel it. i don’t know what love actually is but i know that it’s possible to love you.” yeji pulled away from your embrace, holding onto your shoulders as her gaze focused on your eyes as if to find any hints of deceit or uncertainty - only to see sincerity. you’ve always been honest with her, that’s why she comes to you whenever she needs advice or a talk to bring her back to reality when she’s overwhelmed.
that very bench changed the way yeji looked at you, it wasn’t as if you’re just friends but you couldn’t decipher what it is - was it a good change? you’re not too sure because you barely heard from yeji talk about boys. when she does talk about her love problems, it had been settled or she’s stumped because unbeknownst to you - her standards have gotten higher once she’s realized how much you’ve done for her. a part of it is possibly because of your feelings for the girl but regardless, you treat your friends the same way - if anyone were to love the people you care about, why not raise their standards by doing things that are beyond the bare minimum.
as years went by, you’ve gotten closer with yeji - a few encounters with her suitors here and there, to which one of them seemed perfect for her back in your senior year of high school. soobin.
you’ve grown to notice the closeness of the two but never really spoke up about it as yeji usually reaches out and talks about it. although this was one of those instances where you and yeji had gotten in a bit of a misunderstanding - all thanks to your jealousy. the amount of people that knew of your feelings for yeji slowly grew, still the girl hasn’t picked up on the subtle hints from your friends or how obvious it is that you are head over heels for the girl.
“you should talk to her.” ryujin has always been the middle man, she’s seen your fight with yeji slowly escalate out of jealousy, one to always pull away when you’re hit by it.
“i know… but you really think she’s gonna buy the whole ‘i wasn’t thinking straight’.”
“first of all, you’re not straight.” you greeted ryujin with your middle finger right to her face with a smug smile. as she placed your hand down, sighing as she observed how your gaze never left yeji as she sat by the benches next to soobin.
“lastly, you should just tell her how you feel.” this conversation has always happened once every month, or after every fight with yeji. you shook your head leaning onto the wall as if to give yourself some additional space from the words that came out of ryujin’s mouth.
“we’ve talked about this.”
“yeah, so stop being a wuss and tell her. what’s stopping you?”
various things, you could list them all but for the sake of not being smacked in the head by ryujin, you bit your tongue. feelings have and will be complicated, one of which is when the girl that you like has never shown any signs of interest towards the same gender for years. you didn’t wanna assume or speculate if yeji swung that way so you kept those feelings to yourself even if she asks about your crush and you respond with the same - ‘nope, don’t have one’.
“a lot.”
ryujin is used to your vague answers but this one, she understood where you were coming from. once she didn’t answer, that's where you started to spill your guts, like your vomiting words with each passing second and it seems like you have no plans on stopping. your friend sat there, listening to every concern you have for the past three years that you’ve been harboring your feelings for hwang yeji. it’s not an easy task and she wonders how you manage to keep it all together when you see yeji with a guy that seems perfect for her every single weekday - does it not break your heart just to sit there and watch.
“when do i let go…” tears were now flowing down to your cheeks as you kept your gaze on yeji who was far from you. the girl you’d call your first love is with a guy you barely know. ryujin had been watching you for a bit, pulling you in an embrace as you freely let the tears stream down your face, your mind hazy as you accidentally made eye contact with yeji.
immediately pulling away as you wiped your tears away with the back of your hand, picking your backpack up as you noticed yeji approaching your way. a quick sign of gratitude to ryujin as you waved goodbye and sprinted out of campus. hwang yeji was so confused; why were you crying, why did you run away from her once again, what did she do to cause this drift between you two that neither one would dare lower their pride.
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it wasn’t like yeji didn’t know of your feelings - she merely played dumb in hopes that you’d admit it to her face. as years went by, she slowly forgot about it, assuming that maybe you never liked her that way but seeing you cry was like a punch to the gut that maybe just maybe… she was right.
yeji was the one to reach out, hoping that things would be settled between you two once and for all as she stood in front of the front door of your house. a soft single press of the doorbell with faint shouting of ‘y/n open the door’, she didn’t expect that you’d be standing in front of her as if hesitating to shut the door on her face.
“hi… can we talk?” you knew well enough that yeji would lower her pride but not fully only to let you in, to see how low you would bring your pride down. it’s yeji - once she explains her side, it’s game over for you.
“come in, just head over to my room… do you want something to drink..?”
“i won’t be long.” that felt like a punch in the gut as if yeji didn’t want to be with you for more than five minutes. you nodded, letting her greet your mom and make small talk as you both made your way to your room.
yeji has been in your room, she remembers where your table is, how your wall looked so plain near the bed but completely covered by pictures and posters by your study table. was she really going to confront you like this? on the spot when she just saw you bawl your eyes out at school with ryujin.
“i-” “uh-”
“you first.” you always let yeji break the silence first, letting speak her mind as you sat there with your head hung low as you listened to her about why you had a disagreement in the beginning. it was straight to the point, no filters, no sugarcoating, yeji has always been like that when it came to your fights.
“kinda felt like you were stopping me from giving soobin a chance…” it wasn’t entirely wrong but honestly you felt your jealousy take over back then and maybe for once you didn’t want that to happen again. the possibility of losing yeji was greater than ever before as you swallowed your pride and looked at anything and everywhere but her.
“i’m sorry… i honestly don’t know what came over me that day, i wish i knew why,” you’re perfectly aware that you were envious of soobin having yeji’s attention almost every single day. “maybe it was a bad day or something happened that made me snap and honestly i know it’s not the most forgiving nor acceptable reason - but i’m really sorry and i understand if you don’t forgive me.”
one thing that you never knew nor understood was that yeji - in the midst of the chaos that is your teenage years. she knew you like the back of your hand to see how genuine you are but the hidden uncertainty in your eyes didn’t go unnoticed. she wasn’t going to press more questions or for you to defend yourself because yeji knew within herself that you meant no harm at all.
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even after things were settled between you and yeji back then, leading to her spilling everything about soobin. it took you a while, even after high school you would check with your emotions and try not to lash out on yeji; you were in no right to feel jealous. years of bottled up feelings and it all leads to you being a wuss and never admitting anything.
still, as the years went by, you weren’t as scared of seeing yeji with someone who seemed to be such a nice guy, a perfect fit for her. maybe that’s why you never brought up your feelings when all that really mattered was yeji’s happiness.
somewhere along the years, yeji knew of your feelings - she wasn’t oblivious but she never acknowledged it, not until you would say something. either way, when things had ended between her and soobin, all she could think of was how you treated her better even as a friend compared to her own ex-boyfriend. when you had sent her a message asking to meet up or hangout as it had been months, it felt as if she was being hoisted up the water - not realizing she had been drowning in her own thoughts and ideas.
“i ended things with soobin.” yeji watched as you almost spat out your coffee, handing you a piece of napkin as you wiped the dribble on your lips.
“what?”
“yeah… turns out when you’re both busy and neither of you want to lower your pride well… it got messy.” this changes everything; as your feelings that were once dormant are making its way back as you desperately push it back down in hopes that it wouldn’t see the light of day again.
“god… i’m so sorry about that.” there was hesitation as you patted yeji on the shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze as you nodded, avoiding her gaze as you took another sip of your coffee. “how are you feeling though?”
“surprisingly… fine. i mean we ended things a month ago and well, i never really talked about it with anyone and just isolated myself. this is actually the first time i’ve talked about it.” as yeji’s words processed in your mind, it all made sense as to why ryujin had asked you for any updates on the girl in front of you. having only realized that you two barely talked the past month - you felt a bit guilty for not picking up the sudden quietness from yeji after years of knowing each other that all you could muster to say was an apology.
yeji wondered as to why you apologized but maybe it was because of what happened. still she didn’t read too much into it. it had been months since she had last seen you - somehow college has been treating you nicely compared to her. your baby fat is no longer evident on your face and you’ve definitely taken better care of yourself - still you’re the same girl that yeji knew back in high school.
the rest of the day was spent with a cup of coffee and dinner right after. yeji was indeed surprised when you learned how to get to her university but how you learned somehow left a bit of a bitter taste in her mouth.
“yeah, i used to date someone who went here but didn’t last long, like a few months only..? it’s been a while honestly.” there was something different about the way yeji held onto your arm, a soft smile on your lips as you reassured her that you’ve cut ties with them long ago - seeing that they really weren’t worth the time unlike her.
“well… i should probably head back, i’ll see you maybe sometime next week around the same time?” and there it was, the very same smile yeji had back when you first met her, you felt your heart skip a beat as yeji agreed to it - not without kissing you on the cheek as she said goodbye.
you stood there dumbfounded with your hand to your cheek as you waved goodbye to yeji, more so a see you later as you slowly walked back to the bus stop with your hand still pressed onto your cheek. it didn’t take long until you called ryujin who you were well aware was very much awake despite the late hour. everything that had happened except for the fact that yeji and soobin ended things as that was yeji’s story to tell.
“uh… we talked a bit… had coffee and then continued with dinner-”
“sounds like a date.” ryujin knew how to press your buttons and this time she did it right as you stood there waiting for your bus as you snickered.
“shut up - anywho, i walked her back to her dorms and i sorta asked her out…”
“SHUT UP?!” based on how ryujin screamed in your ear on call, you really… really… didn’t want to get your hopes up as you could hear ryujin’s muffled screams in her dorm room.
“you done?”
“hold on-” there was another series of cheers and screams on the other line, making you laugh at your best friend’s antics. “ok, i’m done.”
“you should have waited for me to say the next part but she said yes - and before you scream - she kissed me on the cheek and now i feel like i’m back to being 15 and confused.” there was silence, ryujin was too stunned to even speak as she had her mouth open as she processed what you just said - questions arose as you tried to explain the situation as best as you can but you were as confused as ryujin. you can’t disclose the fact that yeji and soobin broke up, let alone how messy the situation was until yeji told ryujin herself.
slowly it became the norm, every other week you and yeji would meet up, either near her university or yours, somewhere neither of the two have been to. even yeji’s physical affection was getting bolder every time you saw each other. from hand holding to sudden cheek kisses, it was all sudden that those dormant feelings you had for yeji were slowly coming back.
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for yeji, seeing you was like a breath of fresh air, you were definitely still the same but matured and had grown a bit in a good way. she didn’t know what came over her when she had kissed you on the cheek that night, nor the following times she had held your hand or hugged you longer than it should. there was one thing she was certain of - she didn’t regret any of it. somehow it felt natural to do such things with you that she hoped and prayed you’d stay longer whenever you’d visit her.
yeji was falling for you before you could even notice it.
ryujin was now well aware of the break up as one meet up, she had joined you two and it felt as if you were back to being a teen in your high school with your two close friends. a first hand experience as yeji leaned onto you as you both respectively worked on your respective assignments and readings. it was surprising to see you so calm with yeji being physically affectionate with you after that hangout; ryujin just couldn’t help but ask.
“so are you finally going to confess.” you bit your lip as you shook your head, feeling ryujin hit you on the shoulder as she was ready to knock some sense into you.
“i’m not going to confess right away… i mean come on, she just got out in a two… three..? year relationship. give yeji a bit of time, i don’t know.” ryujin could only sigh, she knew well enough that you wouldn’t just simply put yourself out there when yeji’s comfort and needs has always been your priority. she never asked again, knowing deep inside you’ll confess on your own time.
who would have thought that time came when you’ve finally graduated from college, having stable jobs at the age of 25. when you had brought up that you were going to confess to yeji through a letter, you left out the part where you were ready to accept reality as it is if yeji rejects you.
you spent days on the letter, trying to convey your feelings of ten years that it feels surreal to actually write it all down and let her read it. before leaving yeji’s place after celebrating and cleaning up, discreetly leaving the letter on the table as you waved goodbye and headed on home.
sure, it’s cliche to sit there and write a letter about how you’ve long before liked her, let alone love her but the story doesn’t end there. even if you tried dating others, a part of you is looking for her in the crowd - it’s yeji, she’s your dream girl. but not every dream is easily attainable.
ten years of unsaid feelings with mixed signals in between and you’re finally letting it out as if it were nothing. it wasn’t that you took advantage of the friendship but you simply were ready to leave that chapter behind and accept the friendship yeji was willing to give you. not too long from your walk home - you could hear footsteps behind you, it was fast and getting louder with each step you took.
someone had crashed into you, arms around your waist holding onto you tightly as if you’d be gone if she lets go. you noticed the envelope in her hand as she pulled you closer, her body pressed onto you.
“you idiot.” that was the first thing she said as you turned around, tucking the loose strand of her hair behind her ear as she finally looked at you. hitting you on your chest as if you had done her wrong, you probably did with her tear stained cheeks as you wiped them using your thumb, until you held her by the cheek..
“i know.” yeji could only laugh as she once again hit you on the chest.
“you’re so stupid! if you had just confessed earlier!”“i’m a wu-” as if time had stopped once again, like you’re being thrown back to being 15 with how you merely stood there with yeji’s lips placed on top of yours. it took you seconds to process what was happening as you finally… gave in and kissed her back.
