Ugh, this is really difficult.
I'm thinking I may be a fictive of Peter from Your Boyfriend, but that would bring up some... problems.
Our host (and body, for that matter) is a minor. The game devs of Your Boyfriend said they were uncomfortable with minors playing the game until they made a safer version (lotta gore and dirty stuff I think).
Now, I wanna make one thing ABUNDANTLY fucking clear. Neither our host NOR any of our headmates have played the game. It's been a rough wait so far considering we're already desensitized to that shit anyway, but we've been respectful of the devs and their wishes. Our host has been listening to fan playlists, and we think that's how I happened.
When we first started realizing I was forming, I didn't know what the others would think of me. I mean, we've already got one really murderey fictive, so I wasn't too worried about that. It was more about our host.
Now, our host is one of the KINDEST, most ACCEPTING people out there. They know what it feels like to be turned against, so I obviously new they weren't going to hate me. But, they started getting really nervous.
I think they kinda blame themself for me being here. I don't know WHY, it's not like they can control their headmates, but I think they're worried they've somehow crossed the developers' boundaries. By listening to music on YouTube.
I guess my confession is that I have no idea what's gonna happen next. I know I'm not being shunned, but I don't know if I'll be fully accepted for awhile. I can't say I'm scared, but I am a little anxious. I haven't even put my name on our headmate list because I know the host, being a minor, would get shit for it.
Hopefully all goes well, our host knows better than to think watching some YouTube and getting a brain buddy is the same as playing a game the devs EXPLICITLY told you not to play.
-Peter (feels weird signing off with that for the first time...)
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