#yume vent

[kedamonogooner360]

I hate being nonsharing because why tf do i get so upset and possesive when i see doubles

It also mainly upsets me bc like,, this is my only HEALTHY coping mechanisn and thing thats made me happiest but now its js being ruined🫩 AUGHH THIS IS SO STUPID BUT I FEEL HORRIBLE

What sucks even more is i feel like my doubles r better than me too💔

[lateshow-love]

Quick!! Everyone blow up the popular canon x canon ship your F/O is included in with bombs!!! Tgere is hope yet if we use the bombs!!!!!

[h3yitzblue]

Tw: Vent

I know none of you will actually care to read this, but I need to vent anyway. I thought I didn't have many doubles but today I saw just how many I do have. I hate them all. I'm just really upset becuase they have so much more than more, more merch, more art, more fans, etc. And I even see other people making things for them and it makes me sad that they have so many supporters because now I'm subject to seeing them everywhere. I just want to be the only one Guest loves. It just hurts really bad and I just wish I could talk to him and hear him say how much he loves me and that my doubles mean nothing. And I hate how bad doubles make me feel, I hate being voidsharing. The things I think about my doubles are really bad sometimes and I wonder if I really am a terrible person. I never harass anyone or say anything bad to their face, just block them; But I think about them, sometimes in bad scenarios just to cope with how sad I am. I just don't want to be this way, to think these things about other human beings, but it just hurts so so bad that I don't know what to do. I just wish Guest were here, comforting me, proving that I matter more than anyone else to him. I miss him so much. So, so much. I don't feel too good today.

[williamcain]

The struggles of having an evil/villain F/O…💭☕️🤍🤎🥯 VENT

TW: light mentions of abuse and harassment!

As someone with an extremely evil F/O, yumeshipping spaces can be very hard! Lots of people- even other yumeshippers- assume the worst of you by default, even if you haven’t done anything wrong yourself. It’s hard to look at cute fanart without expecting slews of hate or joke comments- and it’s even worse, I’m sure, for those of us who are non sharing or protective. It’s hard to try to be a part of the community and be afraid to share your F/O out of fear of harassment.

How can we tell someone we didn’t consciously choose our F/O? It’s a hyperfixation, or a coping mechanism chosen at random. And even if you did pick them consciously, is that so bad? They’re not real, and the average yume is not condoning their actions. Most of the time it’s not a fetish for evil or a sign that the yumeshipper is secretly evil themselves. Hyperfixations aren’t chosen.

It’s okay for others to feel uncomfortable and block discreetly, we all do it, but the instant you tell me that unpopular yume lovers enjoy their abuse or want what they went through, or that they’re the problem themselves, we have an issue. I’ve seen this too many times, especially on yumetok. The worst part? Most of the time it’s from other yumeshippers! And don’t get me started on the sharing yumes harassing nonsharers/PoC yumes on that app.

Thankfully, yumeblr has a much better understanding of their community. But I’ve still seen traces of that bad attitude here as well. I just wish people would simply block if they’re uncomfortable, and not turn people’s coping mechanisms into a purity competition.

To end on some positivity: I’ve had a good time in general on this app. I make the imagines I do to encourage everyone that they are all equally valid- PoC, queer people, trans people, all kinds of F/Os (within legal bounds, of course), unpopular yumes, niche yumes…

If any of you reading this have gone through this, I am deeply sorry. Your F/O loves you just the same.

Just a reminder that I love you all, and you are all loved just as you are🤍🤎☕️

[rottenangelgrotesqueromance]

i genuinely hate having moral ocd while yumeﾉselfshipping so bad. because i worry constantly of what will happen when i grow up and if i'll seem like a predator if i age up my f/os alongside me.

i worry about being seen as an awful person, a defender of something horrid, if my f/o has done even worse things in the source material, like for example being a bigot in the book while the movie or whatever removed that aspect.

i love yumeﾉselfshipping, i really do. but my moral ocd makes it hard. i fucking hate this, why does my mind have to be so cruel to me? i find something that actually helps me cope and it targets everything i've ever thought, believed. it makes me feel like an awful person, that i have to be a pure saint who does nothing wrong, not even a small mistake. a small hiccup is all it takes for this fucking condition to rip me to shreds.

[tsukasatenmakisser]

eh waht🙂‍↕️ 🙂‍↕️

im torn from the inside during my obsession, soon I will crawl on the walls 😭 😭

[crybaby-selfships]

sometimes i do feel a little less than for self shipping with so many characters. like “clearly im not really in love with any of my f/o’s because theres just so many of them.” i do sometimes wish i could just pick one and be devoted to them and only them, then maybe id truly love them right. but i dont know theres so much of me to go around so why wouldn’t i have so much love to give so many f/o’s too. just because i love all of them doesnt mean i dont truly love them ans it doesn’t mean that people who only love them somehow love my f/o in a “better” or “right” way that i dont.

[thorinkisser]

Warning ahead, this is a vent post.

So. I've found myself becoming increasingly demotivated. I lack the motivation not only to continue posting on this blog and other side blogs of mine but in the selfship community as a whole.

I know I should just post and create for myself and I have but due to the fact that I dont feel as though I have any online presence or voice at all unless theres an audience to hear me and see what I make, the lack of interaction I get makes me feel invisible and like even making things for myself to enjoy on my own is pointless. I thrive on sharing and gaining feedback and without it it feels like I've been put on mute and no one can see me.

It doesnt help either that I see a lot of people getting interaction with asks and commentary on their posts and I merely get a bit from friends or ps' or the infrequently occasional reblog to one of my ask games. If at all.

I cant help thinking the reason others get interaction and I'm essentially left in the dust is because I might be doing something wrong.

Maybe my lists such as my f/os are too long, maybe it's something else?

I'm not venting just to recieve pitty, I do genuinely want to know if there something I can do or something that can be improved upon on my blog to make myself more approachable and actually gain interaction? Something I might be doing wrong that I can fix?

I dont want to be invisible and voiceless in a community I was feeling comfortable in enough to share a part of myself that fit in somewhere for once. So if I can fix this somehow I'd really like to.

I want interaction and my motivation back.

What do I need to do? What needs to change or improve?