#zerfall

[gedankenleer]

Ich bin nicht mehr die, die ich mal war. Und das tut weh.

[lifelostintimeworld]

Depressionen fühle sich an wie, wenn deine Haut brennt und du nichts dagegen machen kannst. Nicht rausrennen, nicht löschen, nicht um Hilfe rufen, einfach nichts. Du kannst einfach nur da liegen und beobachten, wie alles immer weiter um dich herum zerfällt.

[restwaerme]

n i s c h e

[tiefschwarzer-ozean]

Die Liebe zu dir zerfällt... wie der Schnee, wenn die ersten warmen Sonnenstrahlen fallen.

[xsomewhereibelongx]

Ja, die Musik muss so laut sein. Damit ich nicht höre wie die Welt um mich herum zerfällt.

[jbbuckybarnes]

Zerfall - 7/14

Pairing: Bucky x named!Reader (Agent Andromeda) Summary: After Hydra drops virus bombs in 7 major American cities in the height of summer, the team is locked in their emergency bunker for weeks. The virus commonly called the Summer Poison successfully brought the infrastructure to a halt in all big cities. When the virus slowly starts burning itself out SHIELD Agents and Avengers are sent out to bring back order into the cities and the international relationships. Not without hurdles. Warnings for this chapter: Pandemic, Apocalypse, recon mission, flirting, picturing killing as a positive thing, weird grammar. Not beta read. **Image credit goes to Ubisoft.

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After getting through a whole building of Vultures and picking up tons of ammunition, weapons, vests, food and soil you were finally relaxing in the settlement library. “God, what a day.” Bucky huffed while opening his vest up before taking the glass in front of him. Captain Davis, Bucky, you and all the civilian militia took the glasses filled with scotch and cheered. “The public library next so we have a triangle of relatively safe spaces?” You grinned at the two men after nipping on the alcohol. “Sounds good to me.” Bucky smirked back, downing the drink.

After the party part of the evening you went up to the roof, Bucky following you very far behind, to not interrupt you. You sat down on a bench someone had put up there and stared at Midtown and the skyline. “The view never gets old.” You heard behind you before he sat down next to you. “Yeah. I hope it gets back to normal fast. I miss all those random trips through Manhattan with the team.” You chuckled. “Yeah.” He looked at the dark skyline, “It’s beautiful though, without all the lights and the sky actually being visible.” There were no lights reflecting in his eyes, it was odd, you usually connected that visual of shimmering eyes to Manhattan. “It is.” A hologram popped up from your watch, interrupting the beautiful silence between you two. It blew up into a bigger scale and showed the Avengers and a few more people. An apocalypse conference call. “Atlanta looks like a mess. Only Midtown and Downtown seem like there are still enough people there. I sealed the entire Airport,” Tony said with a dampened mood, “You?”

“We are at the base in the White House and D.C. only had about 65% death rate. We’re leaving for a civilian settlement tomorrow.” Steve updated a little concerned but happy about the lower death rate.

“LA is a ghost town too. Found a civilian militia, 82% death rate.” Sam frowned with sad eyes. “Chicago looks relatively alive. But mostly enemy groups fighting each other. Still have yet to find friendly contact.” Clint updated. “Thanks to Wanda we have two blocks of Queens cleared out and helped build a few more shelters for the settlement we have here in Flush Meadows Corona Park.” Magnolia smiled proudly. Queens was one of the biggest population only parts and going that fast was fantastic. “I think New York will be the easiest with two of our biggest safe hubs here. The security of the tower has kept it clear but it’s hella dusty in there now. Gonna go back tomorrow before we start clearing up Midtown Manhattan into friendly area. Then down to meet Agent Bee in Brooklyn,” you explained.

“I’m in the Prospect Park settlement. I’m gonna work towards the bridge between Brooklyn and Staten Island. It either needs good surveillance or a good explosion.” Agent Bee added. “We’ll supply you as soon as possible. Lower East Side is a Shadow Zone tho.” You made a face. “I’m trying to get more people into a theater near Crotona Park. There is a bridge between south Bronx and Manhattan too. Unless we penetrate Randalls Island from both sides as soon as you’re up there Andromeda. Then we don’t need to blow it up.” Agent Zeta from the Bronx chimed in. “I’ll write a game plan for Manhattan and let you know where it’s on the list. Gonna send you a map of the ideal NYC development of the next few weeks tomorrow morning,” you said making a little plan in your head before saying goodnight to everyone. “So we’re in the Midtown area and need to clear this perimeter first, after that we work our way through the upper east side into the Central Park. After that this settlement should be strong enough to slowly ruin the rest with a little help here and there.” You drew a plan in orange and got attentive eyes from Bucky. “Meanwhile Agent Bee makes his way towards Highland Park. Agent Zeta goes towards Queens to clear more space for her settlement. Agent Magnolia goes towards Jamaica Estates to get more room for her people. And when all of that is done we all clear towards Randalls Island to take it over from whoever has is. Probably Dark Task Force with the Police Station there. Sound good?” You drew on the map. “Sounds good to me. Let’s hope it works out as well as you hope,” he commented. “That’s all I can do,” you said clicking the pen. “I know, darling.” He sent a soft smile again. “Oh, and we need to explode some bridges in the near future as soon as we are there.” You scanned the map on the board with EADA and sent it to the other agents.

[le-seul-mot0001]

Mein Kartenhaus des Glaubens

steht kurz vor dem Zerfall.

Hoffnung ist ein Funke,

jedes Wort von Gott mein Halt, verankert in Gnade,

von Liebe ergriffen,

gehalten,

wenn ich

nichts mehr zusammenhalten kann.

[paranoid-aphrodite]

“DER MENSCH IST NICHT EIN SANFTES, LIEBENSWÜRDIGES WESEN,  DAS SICH HÖCHSTENS, WENN ANGEGRIFFEN, AUCH ZU VERTEIDIGEN MAG,SONDERN EIN WESEN, DAS ZU SEINEN TRIEB BEGABUNGEN AUCH EINEN MÄCHTIGEN ANTEIL VON AGGRESSIONSNEIGUNG RECHNEN DARF.INFOLGEDESSEN IST IHM DER NÄCHSTE NICHT NUR MÖGLICHER HELFER UND SEXUALOBJEKT SONDERN AUCH EINE VERSUCHUNG.DER MENSCH IST VERSUCHT SEINE AGGRESSION AM NÄCHSTEN ZU BEFRIEDIGEN, SEINE ARBEITSKRAFT OHNE ENTSCHÄDIGUNG AUSZUNUTZEN, IHN OHNE SEINE EINWILLIGUNG SEXUELL ZU GEBRAUCHEN,SICH IN DEN BESITZ SEINER HABE ZU SETZEN, IHN ZU DEMÜTIGEN, IHM SCHMERZEN ZU BEREITEN, IHN ZU MARTERN UND ZU TÖTEN.HOMO HOMINI LUPUS.WER HAT NACH ALLEN ERFAHRUNGEN DES LEBENS UND DER GESCHICHTE DEN MUT, DIESEN SATZ ZU BESTREITEN?DIE EXISTENZ DIESER AGGRESSIONSNEIGUNG, DIE WIR BEI UNS SELBST VERSPÜREN KÖNNEN, BEIM ANDEREN MIT RECHT VORAUSSETZEN,IST DAS MOMENT, DAS UNSER VERHÄLTNIS ZUM NÄCHSTEN STÖRT,SIE IST ES, DIE DIE KULTUR ZU IHREM AUFWAND NÖTIGT.INFOLGE DIESER PRIMÄREN FEINDSELIGKEIT DES MENSCHEN GEGENEINANDER IST DIE KULTURGESELLSCHAFT BESTÄNDIG VOM ZERFALL BEDROHT.”   -- SIGMUND FREUD - Das Unbehagen in der Kultur - 1930

1:09:16 in arte doku   

 https://youtu.be/U7nFUHcLNbQ

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