i’m okayer. some days, i’ve got anxiety. about the future, mostly. i don’t know what to do. people expect so much out of me. i just want to do what i want to do. i’m scared of failing halfway through life and letting everyone down because i didn’t focus enough, and i didn’t care enough. sometimes, i’m scared of becoming someone i’m not: someone who cares about education, and that’s it. it matters, don’t get me wrong. but someone that lets it become my entire life? passions, gone. hobbies, gone. what i really want to do in life, forgotten. because i need to provide for my family. i need to let down my passions? someday? i can’t let them down. i can’t let anyone down.