#zoe rants

[anxietyonmars]

boygenius dressed as the father, the son, and the holy spirit at tonight's show!

[all-about-kyu]

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[clarketoearth]

Okay but imagine an ending where Clarke dies, and she wakes up next to Bellamy in a cabin, and he's all "hey princess". And she goes outside and everyone she loves who's died is there, all peacefully living in a village and she's found peace she's finally found peace and it's perfect.

[solangelo3088]

person: why do you have one best friend? why don’t you have any other friends?

me: STORYTIME

okay so, there used to be three of us besties in primary school. I moved there in year two and got absorbed into their group. 

in year six, we went to High Borrans for a week. (big house, lots of big ass rooms of varying sizes to share with people, bunk beds, only 4 guys from our class went) and we were in two groups for outdoor adventures like caves, canoeing, mountain climbing, etc and then smaller ones for the rooms we slept in.

in my room were one bestie, two sorta close friends and the girl who bullied everyone including me. in the room across was my other bestie and like 13 other girls. in the room beside theirs, was the last 4. the boys were on the other side of this fucking mansion hotel thing.

my roomie-bestie was hanging out in the 14 person room when I was told I had to go fetch them for the teacher. I knock on the door, no answer. I open it slightly just to shout through that the teacher wanted them and she opens the door and screams at me to go away. I leave, I tell the teacher why I didn't fetch them and they go to find out what's going on. I never found out, but she was mad at me for telling on her.

when we got back she was acting weird. we were in three clubs together; the choir, the ICT team and the ECO team. we hung out a lot. but she was being weird with me. 

now, in year six, apparently, they think you have to start pulling your weight or something so each lunchtime, two or three of us were assigned to work in the office/reception and answer phones, see visitors and do other office things. best friend A, the one who was being weird chose someone else, and someone else chose friend B so I chose a friend on my table. 

flashforward and our day is Tuesday. we eat our lunch quickly and go to the office. all I do is shred paper, find things and press the magic button to let students in and out of the office because my anxiety over speaking to people and answering the phone is HIGH. so then lunch is over and we go back to class and then I get summoned by our Choir/ICT/ECO team teacher who also teaches year 3. she asks where I was at lunchtime. I ask why and she says that best friend A was crying and said I had been bullying her. she said I’d said something incredibly racist that I'm not going to type. 

I am not racist. I'm not anything -ist or -phobic. if you’re a nice person, I don't care. if you aren't a nice person, I still won't care but I’ll probably say I don't like you because you aren't a nice person.

friend A didn't know I have a grandad who remarried a woman from Kenya (step-grandma???) and had an uncle from Kenya now too, and that we were quite close at the time.

this teacher, who had known me for years, who thought highly of me, who I had three lunchtime and after-school clubs with, genuinely thought I had not only been racist but also a bully to one of the biggest teachers' pets in the whole school. I said I didn't. I told her I had been in the office with another girl and the scary lady who worked there. she dragged me there to check, and only let me off the hook when two people confirmed my alibi.

less than a week later, our teacher isn't there so we get split up and sent to the other classes. I'm in year 3. the same teacher pauses her lesson halfway through to speak to someone, and then pulls me aside and asks if I called friend A a bitch. I'm not even 11 years old at this point, I don't know many swear words and I don't use any. I tell her I don't know what it means and it convinces her that I didn't and she lets me off the hook. after this, friend A refuses to be my friend anymore and keeps trying to convince friend B to stop being my friend. this causes another story for another time but we haven't spoken since we left primary school. best friend B is still my best friend.

me: also my best friend is very possessive and would fight people for the right to be my only best friend and is super loyal and nerdy so I don't need anyone else

[alexandradagreatt-blog]

i dont know why i keep defending my ships to anyone lol i just love them so much i would gladly protect them

[anxietyonmars]

[anxietyonmars]

my new favourite photo omg

[anxietyonmars]

How am I ever supposed to recover from Lucy and Julian's halloween costumes??