he could feel it, DEMON VENOM, coursing through his veins. it was causing his heart to rush ( the beat sporadic, uneven & he was sure that it was going to burst ) & there was sweat pooling on his skin. where was HE? where was –––– he didn’t come. it took a minute for him to remember that ( that alec had stayed behind ) & instead his eyes searched for his partner for the day. LYDIA. the redheaded goddess of the law, the wife of his parabatai. the wife of his boyfriend. the wife of his SOULMATE. she was sitting up, red hair fastened back but looser than it had been. she didn’t look like him, she didn’t look like it got her. not like it got him. ❝ lydia ––– ❞ his voice cracked & his body was weak while he tried to sit up to get together. MAN, this was acting faster than he thought it would. they weren’t even sure what it was, it wasn’t supposed to be here. it must have been one of valentine’s PETS. oh god, he could hardly breathe. he wasn’t sure when he hit the floor –– he’d thought he’d been standing up –– but he did & the hard cement floor of the warehouse caused a delayed rush of pain in his spine. he later felt gentle hands ( was that a delayed feeling too? was her touching him, what he was feeling, in real time or was everything slower now? ) & he choked out a breath. ❝ lydia, GOD, lydia you have to tell him. you have to tell him, lydia. ❞ he forgoes his normal tone & now he just hoped his words were actually coming out. that his throat was allowing the words to cross over his thick lips. god he had to make sure he knew. ❝ you have to tell him, lydia. you got to tell him I LOVE HIM. we were fighting earlier ––– ❞ there it went, the feeling like his heart was going to burst. he never thought it could be so literal. ❝ take care of him, for me. by the angel, lydia, make sure he doesn’t ––– ❞ doesn’t blame himself. he would & they both knew it. they had a fight & then alec wasn’t there, didn’t have his back, & they both knew that alec would blame himself for it. make sure he doesn’t think he didn’t DESERVE to be loved ( AGAIN ). he shouldn’t spend his life alone. & though he’d always have his family ( his WIFE & her own boyfriend included ) he deserved to know what it meant to put the stars in someone’s sky to shame the way that he did for jace. ❝ lydia, i love him. so much. you have to make sure he knows, in case i don’t make it back. you’ve got to tell him lydia, you got to make sure he knows that I LOV––– ❞ // ft. @omenbrought & @nctrivial