one sad sexually

ray. ↑35. goth music and subculture. old school vkei. 

[evezera]

be honest, have you ever seen a more adorable 47 year old man?

(no)

[yridenergyridenergy]

Valentina

[biologicalslicer-deactivated202]

DIR EN GREY FOOL’S MATE No. 223 [May 2000]

[metelle]

31.03.2023 Totchi❤️

[taiyounoao]

the love of my life

[kyoselflove]

Toshiya; 1997 ~ 2001

[poems-of-a-poetess]

[firstfullmoon]

“It seems to me, that if we love, we grieve. That’s the deal. That’s the pact. Grief and love are forever intertwined. Grief is the terrible reminder of the depths of our love and, like love, grief is non-negotiable. There is a vastness to grief that overwhelms our minuscule selves. We are tiny, trembling clusters of atoms subsumed within grief’s awesome presence. It occupies the core of our being and extends through our fingers to the limits of the universe. Within that whirling gyre all manner of madnesses exist; ghosts and spirits and dream visitations, and everything else that we, in our anguish, will into existence. These are precious gifts that are as valid and as real as we need them to be. They are the spirit guides that lead us out of the darkness. […] Dread grief trails bright phantoms in its wake. These spirits are ideas, essentially. They are our stunned imaginations reawakening after the calamity. Like ideas, these spirits speak of possibility. Follow your ideas, because on the other side of the idea is change and growth and redemption. Create your spirits. Call to them. Will them alive. Speak to them. It is their impossible and ghostly hands that draw us back to the world from which we were jettisoned; better now and unimaginably changed.”

— Nick Cave,  from The Red Hand Files (no. 6, October 2018)

[slapthebass]

DIR EN GREY - MASK [PV] 

Band members interactions

[sixmonthsandgone]

Worlds of Ursula K. Le Guin (2018), dir. Arwen Curry

[weak-intention]

sukekiyo  //  モザイク少女  mv  

[totchiiiiii]

[sindrome-de-abstinencia]

Toshiya

[devchonka-moved]

[wishbzne-deactivated20210526]

“I am convinced that most people do not grow up. We find parking spaces and honor our credit cards. We marry and dare to have children and call that growing up. I think what we do is mostly grow old. We carry accumulation of years in our bodies and on our faces, but generally our real selves, the children inside, are still innocent and shy as magnolias.”

— Maya Angelou, from Letter to My Daughter

[weak-intention]

DIR EN GREY  ||  THE FINAL DAYS OF STUDIO COAST 2022.9.14 trailer [ x ]

[slapthebass]

DIR EN GREY - 予感 -  Live 1999

薫 & Toshiya

[japanese-zombie-heroez]

DIR EN GREY「The World of Mercy」