30.09.2025. september is coming to a close, i guess i missed the autumn equinox? it‘s still blazing hot out here, so no bother. went to mueller state park with my grandparents and brother, who‘s visiting from washington. i wonder deeply why i‘m so detached from my home and family. it‘s probably my birth control. nonetheless, it was nice today. i was nice, today.
donnerstag, 18. september 2025. eating my stupid little eisbecher and watching my stupid little anime weil nichts real ist und die welt besteht aus pudding
september 13, 2025, 03.49. i open the window as wide as it goes and let all the pollen clog my throat. i drift in and out of uncomfortable, weighty sleep. i pretend to be anywhere else. to be anything else, to be anytime else. for a few short hours in the night i exist in total real-life-dream-land, and i become everything. my eyes are heavy. my throat scratches. my ears ring. my head swims. it‘s 3 am and the sun is just beginning to go down.
09.11.2025. i was in the er yesterday for a wacky ass migraine, and they gave my IV benadryl, which always knocks me on my ass for 2 days. i woke up this morning hungry as hell but way too tired to actually cook something. this was my solution, and it‘s a good depression meal too, because everything is made with a microwave in less than 2 minutes.
it’s microwaved 2-day old rice, a microwaved egg, and this weird fake cucumber kimchi i‘ve been obsessed with lately. that‘s it. a bland-ish mess of protein, carbs, veggies, and fruit. yayy (more details and yap under cut)
tip for microwaving refrigerated rice: press a wet-damp paper towel over it before you put it in the microwave. this‘ll rehydrate it and avoid that strange chewy texture!!
about the egg, this was my first time microwaving an egg to cook it. i needed protein and didnt have the energy to fry it, so just plop it in the bowl, poke the yolk a few times with a chopstick, cover and microwave for 45 seconds. yolk should be a little soft but totally cooked. if it starts popping, open the door for a few secs, then resume cooking.
the cucumber kimchi recipe is in that 3rd image, but i always change the ratios a little bit. (i make it every friday and eat it throughout the week). my mama says she hates the smell of gochugaru, so i have to conserve what i have until next year when i move out and can buy my own spices and things. definitely pile that shit on though, it‘s fire.
i doubt anyone‘s still reading this, other than future me (haii future me i hope your job pays you a shit ton of money) but if you are, please jump for joy at the fact that i ate OVER HALF OF THIS!! i couldn‘t finish the rice and some of the egg white, but got all the kimchi and egg yolk (biggest protein source). progress is progress!! maybe i‘ll be healthy again by next summer
alright, that‘s all i have to say. see y‘all on the other side of the war
i bought a coke, just like the song!! don‘t like coke much though, so i left it at a friend‘s house. i’ve been craving more and more spicier foods, so i‘ve started making cucumber kimchi with like, gallons of gochugaru (i can‘t find gochujang). it‘s very nice.
i keep on losing myself lately. in shows, in the air, in food, in drink. i‘m not sure where i go, but i know it aches there. i‘m very afraid this ache will last forever. i can never seem to get over the fact that my bones are made of naivety, but maybe that‘s the bones talking. not much else to say, zai jian!!
11 august, 2025. japanese curry night at the mk-ave!! this pan is just for my family‘s serving, but i made a big pot for our neighbors who had a baby 2 (?) weeks ago. recipe saved under the cut :] (mostly so i don‘t forget it)
ingredients (~4 servings)
1 carrot
4 baby potatoes (2 with skin, 2 without. not for any reason i just like being difficult)
1/2 apple
1/2 red onion (would be better with white though)
~2 cups water (less if you want it less soupy, you just need enough to cover yr veggies)
3 !! golden curry cubes
cooking oil (i used canola)
salt
shredded chicken (i used the pre-cooked ones from costco)
rice (preferably white but any work) (maybe not wild tho)
instructions!!
cook yr rice (WASH IT FIRST 🔫🔫)
in separate pot, stir fry all fruits and vegetables in oil (if your meat isn‘t pre-cooked, fry that too) for ~5 minutes until the onions are translucent
add at least enough water to cover everything, more if you want it soupier (keep in mind some of this is going to boil off!!)
boil until veggies are tender or meat is cooked
take off heat and whisk in curry cubes + any pre-cooked meat + pinch of salt (~2 cracks)
put back on low heat and simmer ~5 mins or until thickened
serve with the rice :))
i OMADed this so i didn‘t count the calories, will add to the tags if i decide to 👍👍
august 10th, 2025. time‘s been movin‘ real weird lately!! the breeze coming down from the mountain smells sickly-sweet. it smells like last summer. it smells like a hazy memory of my dad taking me to chinatown for a festival 1 million years ago. it smells like sending postcards every week. it smells my studio ghibli phase i never quite grew out of. it smells like rotting peaches and fruit flies. i need to get out of this place
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