tanish

poet | figuring out whether the world of word is real or a mirage

[tan-tetha]

ode in you.

with one touch it was shivered,

just one glance,

and i made you mine,

i felt you,

this time not just in dreams but for real,

for a instance, i was lost,

in your light brown eyes,

i saw an ode in you,

the deep one, where i get all my pleasures,

the intimidating word pleasures.

[tan-tetha]

What is confidence? Does it make changes in our daily life? And how to gain it? These are a few questions that always evoke whenever or wherever you think the word ‘confidence‘. We all are not born the same or similar in behavior, all of us have an artistic demeanor which makes us different from this enormous world. Making us one of our best types is probably the best feeling we all love to feel and spread the word self-confident and trust but there’s something which always stops us, sometimes it’s our society, other time it’s our valuable relations and many more thing which stops us to be confident or we can say we get bubble down under the pressure. Some people can be counted on the finger in our mutual who seem to be very confident and self-esteemed, what’s the mystery behind it?

We live in a world where there’s a challenge on every step and about which we need to be careful and we have to face it with great courage and most of us are ready to do it but some of us can’t make it through, the thing in which they lack is self-confidence or we can say ‘confidence’ I know they both mean the same for most of us but there’s a contrast in it and that is confidence is gain from practice and knowledge, the more experience you have the more confident you be. Self-confidence is something about gaining the trust in yourself, mainly to trust your ability to succeed in tasks, opportunities, it’s mostly important in decision making. The people who are not able to take important decisions of their life, they lack in self-confidence which they need to boost up because there won’t be someone always in there life to substitute their decisions.

Confidence plays a pretty important role in our life from waking up in the morning to the end of the night there are multiple situations where we need to be confident, as it says “the first impression is the last impression” it does matter, the very first glance of yours you create in the society is pretty important to cast out your remaining time over there will honor and respect. All of us have contrasting thoughts about confidence, I talked to many of my friends to get their point towards confidence and what I got is impressive. For many of us, confidence is being a loud and proud moment in the crowd then some of us think that the key to confidence is ‘humility’, the humility of acknowledging the truth about who you are, whether good or bad, which is interesting. For someone confidence in their identity and to make us remember who we are, there are some embarrassing moments like there’s a room of people and if you walk in the room and you know your values, know what you believe in, and you know that you are a great personality then that’s the ember of confidence. Some say if she thinks about confidence, the simultaneous thought which she gets is trust, it goes hand to hand, To be confident in yourself or others you have to trust and to have trust she thinks there needs to be consistency involved in their life. I think confidence is the attitude when you’re about to lose the game but the spark of your face embarrasses your opponent and make him lose, that’s the confidence.

As I say self-confidence is a feeling of gaining trust in yourself, under most circumstances having self-confidence is a good thing, confident people tend to be more successful in the wide variety of realm. It is the strong influence of confidence and self-esteem which allows one to go out in the world and leave their resemblance over the world. Confidence is something more than any other quality in human psychology which contributes the most positive outcomes when it’s about goal pursuing and decision making but like every coin have two sides that’s how confidence is. In most cases, knowing our strengths and having the assuredness to go out and take risks are admirable qualities. But when this confidence turns you into flexible, opposed to trying something new and incapable of listening to others especially the elder ones, it can become detrimental to success and well-being. Having over-confidence can be harmful in any way like missing some great opportunities by rejecting them as they seem easy or beneath your abilities which can lead to brighter and wider eventual and sometimes over-confidence can be the reason of devastating relationship by being extremely concerned of your capabilities and performance which are not equal to your partner can be the reason of parting away.

Sometimes confidence is similized by self-esteem, self-esteem refers to the sense about self, it includes both thoughts and emotions and influences, how we perceive others and interact with the world, and at the same time confidence is a matter of having faith on our own’s ability. The best way to gain your confidence is by having the courage to tackle all types of emotion storms in life and trying to keep yourself up to the world in all possible means. The more you try to assert yourself in front of the world the more confident you be with your thoughts. The most important step is to keep aiming towards goals and if you achieved the goal but still never stop aiming, the large you aim the high you be!

Believe in yourself, Be superior in yourself, Be fearless, Keep yourself up to the world and never stop aiming high.

Tanish Barnwal

PS: Our confidence is like clouds, bulk in number but not in unity, all we have to is gather them around give them an appropriate stream of air which let them allow high goal pursuing but they should be in a limit as if anything crosses the limit then it’s gonna spread in millions of pieces that no one hunt it forever.

[tan-tetha]

In the darkness, of light

sulking at seeing myself in mirror,

thinking over and over that am I that poisoned,

poisoned of my own quatervois,

august light was about surface,

with its all negativity and darkness behind,

I was running, out of breath, because I wasn't ready to immobile,

couldn't survive, incinerated,

accepted the death by darkness of august light,

death, in darkness of light.

[tan-tetha]

Why is nature beyond the imagination,

A term where beauty and calmness merges,

I don't know why but after coming in lap of nature, I fell like myself,

A new me,

The chirping sound of birds,

To rustling of trees, it always have been soulful,

The calmness of forest,

To petrichor.

[tan-tetha]

In this part of the story,

I'm the one who dies,

l,

Dies of an eternal attraction,

Took the darkest way to demise,

I,

Lost my few breaths curing another soul,

At the end of story, I was the one who died,

And everyone relieved of their eternal attraction.

[tan-tetha]

my love will sail,

It will sail all the seven ocean,

to drown in your infinite love,

going through storms,

going through thunder,

for that one hold of time,

for that one kiss of water,

for that one drown in your love,

in your love,

demise in your love.

[tan-tetha]

the sky above me is telling me how love looks like,

the love which I'm feeling is inexpressible,

feeling which I'm perceiving is like freshly picked flowers from garden,

I don't know whether it's a mirage or reality,

whatever I pen,

it's magical,

you, ohhh it is you,

alchemy to my life

sky to my wings,

love to my universe,

it's you my love,

You never know if it will reach safely heaven,

or it will drown on the way to shore,

neither do I,

but

my love for you will be endless,

and can not be measured in oceans

it's infinite..

[tan-tetha]

I erase the you in me,

With the every falling memory, to sobbing them out,

I never lend my soul to guilt,

guilt of removing you, not only from my life,

But also from my memory

[bloodandblackink]

The inside of a poet’s mind

(From a person who uses it as a coping mechanism.)

Someone wise once said and I quote “we’re poets honey, we bleed on paper.”

what and who are poets actually? Just some humans that according to mentally stable humans with sane minds are somehow blessed with the “art of portraying situations beautifully on a piece of paper?” but, what are they if not this?

Who are they;

A poet’s mind is like a blank canvas, that has had numerous emotions spilled over it like paint. The pages are actually nothing more than bandages to us. We just put those on our wounds to stop the bleeding. It’s not our fault the blood decides to act like ink. The process; It’s never beautiful, its ugly, messy, horrible..slitting our wounds again and again to let the poisoned blood by past lovers out again and again, so that it never gets the power to fully ruin us. As gus waters once said and I quote,”you put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don’t give it the power to do the killing.”

Nevertheless, they break and break. the beautiful thing about poets is that, their minds; they’re tricky.

Love them; and they’ll make the whole world fall in love with you.

See yourselves from their eyes and you’ll never see yourself the same again.

Die; and you’ll be alive in their pages.

Break them; and they’ll end up breaking every heart around them

[tan-tetha]

maybe i lose, lose the only way to me, way to win myself, way to instinct my eventual, way to me. . . . @pinakinnphatakk https://www.instagram.com/p/CRJlUxUjYge/?utm_medium=tumblr

[tan-tetha]

I’m crying, crying out of my soul, an silent cry because no one cares, the silent cry always have been the best way to let go things, things that doesn’t love you back. https://www.instagram.com/p/CQA9WB0jx2Y/?utm_medium=tumblr

[tan-tetha]

sky had this darkness in heart, everything seemed noir, wind was numb, smell just vanished, no sense, no feelings, no love, no hatred, all the thing was in the air was silence, silence with infinite pain, pain of an eternity. . . #moon #poetry #poetrycommunity #infinitemoon #darkness https://www.instagram.com/p/CP8h0cbj9-m/?utm_medium=tumblr

[tan-tetha]

𝘸𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘴𝘬𝘺, 𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴, 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘧𝘭𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘥𝘰. . . @rxnxkxa (at Noir) https://www.instagram.com/p/CPamreCjjeV/?utm_medium=tumblr

[tan-tetha]

🦋🌸 . . #writersofinstagram #poetry #creativewriting #writinglife #poet #poetrycommunity #poem #words #poems #writingcommunity #positiveaffirmations #words #youarewhereyouneedtobe #theuniversehasyourback #youarestrongerthanyouthink #helpeachother #rightplacerighttime #writerscommunity #writersofig #trustyourself #vaguesoulsunite #writersblock https://www.instagram.com/p/CPVjNgcjh7w/?utm_medium=tumblr

[tan-tetha]

𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘰𝘣𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘤𝘤𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘰𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘶𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 . . (at Noir) https://www.instagram.com/p/CO5RiezDSKA/?igshid=702egej2racv

[tan-tetha]

🦋💕 . . #writersofinstagram #poetry #creativewriting #writinglife #poet #poetrycommunity #poem #words #poems #writingcommunity #positiveaffirmations #words #youarewhereyouneedtobe #theuniversehasyourback #youarestrongerthanyouthink #helpeachother #rightplacerighttime #writerscommunity #writersofig #trustyourself #vaguesoulsunite #writersblock https://www.instagram.com/p/COzsCfQD4p9/?igshid=pkbqy4tlucje

[tan-tetha]

𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘦, 𝘪 𝘥𝘪𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯, 𝘤𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘱 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘥𝘢𝘺 . . @lucid.lvndrs . (at Noir) https://www.instagram.com/p/COw50WUDBbc/?igshid=1gu1j5xf8x5ab